I’d like to die sometimes Selfish ya? Life is a gift to us but at times I just want my life to go dark and for everything to end Why,? Because at times I’m not living for myself At times, I’m living through the pain Of other people And it makes me weak Surface level stuff right? I wear a weak smile to survive the careless actions of others And ask, Is this bigger than me? Because then of course I could throw away the mask completely. The answer, Is a resounding yes. Why? Because it is in my darkest moments that I can write and feel a struggle that not only derserves a voice But deserves my most powerful voice. I retreat to the insides of myself to feel the pain that my loved ones feel. I feel I am a coward and a resentful one And maybe I don’t deserve to punish myself Some that know me personally will say I don't I do it anyway, for staying quiet So here's to speaking up: What was your upbringing like ? Did it cause you to leave yourself behind? What does it feel like to move that way As a shell of who you are Were you as fragile as me?