PARENTAL ADVISORY: (SEXUAL TOPIC DISCUSSED IN THIS ENTRY) I move out of my friend's office and I'm no longer homeless 4 months to the day I moved out of my parent's house

I get my first cell phone after over 14 months with no phone

A gripping fear comes upon me thinking that I may never know the love and intimacy of a wife ever again

My ex-wife again rejecting my calls and requests to have the children for Christmas

I feel hope deferred makes the heart grow sick...my heart feels sick

Feeling consumed by God's commandment to memorize the Scriptures and condemned by not doing it as diligently as He commands

Revelations on hiding God's word in your heart

The most dramatic encounter I've ever had on the mountain with an atheist

God encourages me with a certain person buying 4 books

Another time where I say I've had enough...I want out of all this suffering and lack

Commentary: Comparing the grace of Christ in my life now to 6 years ago

Asking God, who around me is obeying and trusting you like I am?

My mom sincerely asks if it is possible that God used Laura as a placeholder until the one He chooses comes along

Greater than my desire for Laura is my fear of manipulating the situation and getting ahead of God and losing my assurance that He is the one who did it

Tempting thoughts about the wealthy woman who wanted a relationship with me

God making me wait this long has built the strongest character in my heart

I am NOT going to quit, but I am going to keep waiting on and trusting in the Lord