Feel the fear of having to tell my children that I cannot come and see them again for Spring Break

The fear I felt of disobeying God after reading Numbers 14

A very encouraging meeting with a widower at church named Dwight

Commentary: Notice how God ramps up the guidance when my temptation is the highest

Commentary: How you can see Father's meaning in all this with the example of Him showing me 622 and 801 back to back

Oswald Chambers says you know your obedience has been made complete when you obey regardless of the circumstances

A single's Bible study meeting makes me conscience of the fact that people praise me and it begins to really bother me

I realize this is a test for me during this time when I have nothing else that works in my life

Father warns me again with a 666 and 15 min later I receive a very nasty email from my ex-wife about my video to the children

God gives me more and more light on the deep work He does during long periods of waiting

The strong desire I have to be with my adorable children

Realizing God is making sure I am mature and complete lacking nothing through all this waiting