God shows me the number 1255

What happened when I tried to watch 5 hours of TV in one day, just to rest from my studies

Backslider commentary refuting Charles Stanley's teaching that you can be in a backslidden state when you die and still go to heaven

Feeling my "functional faith" weakened by the fiasco of breaking away from my "church" and trying to find out who is right

God leading me with Luke 11:33 to share with others what I've been learning about the Charismatic movement, etc.

The principle of tearing down in order to build up

The bloody eye dream about Laura

Commentary about the dream and about God using Laura

The Lord keeps telling me to memorize the teachings of Jesus Christ and how I'm struggling with that

The lesson of George Muller to "NOT" work a deliverance for myself which will develop unbelief

The suffering that continues as God tells me to continue to wait for Him to act on my behalf

More confirmation with Chris that God is telling me to stay away from the Charismatic church and to stay the course

The morning I had nothing short of a spiritual panic attack as Satan attacks my mind about my leaving the church, my difficult circumstances and people all turning against me

Feeling overwhelmed and wearied by all of this learning and knowing I must take a break from it all

Feeling so discouraged when I see that New Agers are seeing some of the same numbers I am

Feeling so confused and upset that I'm crying out to God for mercy

I'm burning inside my spirit with indignation towards the false teachers of Charismatic Madness