Mom comes to me with last minute "deliverance" idea. God shows me 919 in advance to tell me to stay put. She calls my thinking delusional

Commentary explaining the climax of my pain when the moment comes for me to tell the children God has not delivered me and I cannot come get them.

Crying clip of my anguish as I wait for the children to call me to give them the bad news

Commentary with encouraging insights as I look back on the crosses I have had to take up and what God has finally brought about

Revelations on just how difficult strong faith really is

I increasingly feel like a foreigner to those who live the self-sufficient life, ignorant of the life of true faith in God

The toughest phone call I've ever had to make, calling my children to tell them I cannot come and get them

The suffering of walking totally in the "dark" and having no idea what will come next as my circumstances worsen

Commentary on contentment

Running out of tears, but I'm still willing to be one of those FOOLS in the Bible who trusts God not matter what!

Realizing more and more that the work of God we must do is to "Believe Him" and trust Him

Realizing it is the professing believers around me who do not actually know the Lord that have been the one's most used to distract me or pull me away from obeying God

Anticipating the frustration of trying to explain my current walk of faith to my father who is lost and has no faith in the One True God