track 3 of 9 from the 2019 album "lunacy + the second naïveté" by closetjudas.

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can you think of a time when you didn’t exist

tell me then what do you think of death...

if you weren’t who you are before you were born

is there difference at your final breath?

it’s clear from all things we’re here + then gone

yet, you argue that our mooring’s fixed

our depth is slight, subcutaneous

candles burn so long as there’s a wick

we anxiously speak to each other in code

trading candor for mendacity

digging bunkers below, or missiles to board

chronic reaching for infinity

we recognize the light is decreasing

final equinoxes have been passed

and the darkest day will endure, unending

with each night longer than the last

if you think i’m mistaken, that there must be more

and convinced you know something i don’t

it might be worth re-confirming your sources

you should, but i know you won’t

you’re content with the solace of a simulation

flipping off your mortality

but what if all there is, is all that’s here

no afterward to this story?

you can’t believe, intent + purposed to fight it

i’m not there + my white flag has burned

because of a lasting, disastrous picture

like a page which can’t be unturned

if somewhere above there’s a cosmic control room

it’s vacant, or there’s a sign

flashing “d-n-d” + the door is locked.