track 2 of 9 from the 2019 album "lunacy + the second naïveté" by closetjudas.

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sorry i had the impression you cared

it must have been related

to the notion that you’re there

but that’s debatable – maybe i’m wrong

in the springless winter i’ve found myself in

this furtive truth

no longer satisfies – same as valhalla

though i’d like to concede

if i had something i could confirm

then maybe i would see

but suspending what i cannot hear

is not an option for me

and while it might be meaningful to you

with no shore around

be sure to close the door when you go

i’m done with all this waiting

what leads to all this desolation? pretend i’m not marooned like i am

you had the impression i cared

it must have been related

to the notion i was there

but that’s debatable – maybe you’re wrong

in the springless fall you’ve found yourself in

that elusive truth

no longer satisfies – it’s just like heaven

though you might concede

if you had some way to verify

maybe you would see

that ignoring what you cannot hear

it’s not an option – it’s never been

and while it was the path that i chose

with no shore around

i’ll be sure to close the door behind me

if you plan to waste your time

desperately seeking consolation, settle for dulling melancholy

seaworthy, soil-bound, shipwrecked, signal fire

s.o.s., shadow falls, standstill, silent crowd

sprit aches, space remains, sky ignores, song fades...

tri-polar, wax + wane like the moon; my faith is gone, you’ve left me alone

reminds me of a conversation we never had, so i guess i’m done