Others are zigging while you are zagging.  If you are binging on the podcast, you are VERY unique.  You are noticing that alcohol isn't helping with your problems.  That is a FUNDAMENTAL first step in changing your lifestyle!  MANY will not come to this realization.  They will continue to be the walking dead!  I love Post-It notes.  It's hokey, but I put them up to remind myself that I'm a beast!  It is a way of blocking negative thoughts from flooding your mind, especially at the beginning of your day.  Let's do this!  Make today Day 1!!