I promised to live this real time out loud... this time it was after a nightmare in the middle of the night. Bear with me, I soon got lucid enough to design my porch desk, ruminate on whether I could make my upcoming work trips, and what to do with the rest of my life, however long it is. My life is in God’s hands and I want it to count. I’ll have to focus on things I can complete which have the biggest impact.