In this episode I explore whether or not I would actually have ended my life had I not gone to the doctor and asked for help.  I share my mindset over the weeks, months and years in the run up to that day.  To the external observer, this will be an insight to what people contemplating suicide think about when considering taking their own life.  Some have described suicide as a very selfish act.  This episode might help you decide whether that is true or not.