For years I tried to find out what happened to my father’s uncles.

All I had were scraps, words, names,

floating in front of me like leaves

falling off trees: *Oscar,Martin,Metz, route de Thionville,

Dentist, clockmender…*

One day, my cousin in America wrote:

a distant relative had died. In his papers there were two letters from one of the uncles, Oscar,

and two letters from his sister in Poland, Stella,

all written during the war and asking for help. I pored over the letters

trying to give the words

a voice that I could hear.

Now that I had addresses,

the internet and books

and museums

were kinder, they gave me more and more.

Now I could make maps: where the uncles went,

where they ran to,

where they hid, where they were seized and taken to. Then, one day, another email

arrived from my cousin in America.

His father and step-mother had died

and he had just been in the house. “I noticed there was a closet,” he said.

“It was locked, so I opened it. I could see it was full of photos. There was a sealed up box

in there. On the box, it said, ‘Family Photos’. I cut it open and inside there were old black

and white photos with names on them:

Oscar and Martin. And many more. They’ve been there for years and years.

I’ll send them to you right now.” And he did. Now I could see Oscar and Martin. I could see their faces and what Oscar looked like in his First World War Army uniform.

There were more places, like Bielitz,

more names of brothers and sisters,

and photos of their father and mother. These were my great grandparents

in New York over a hundred years ago! Pictures I had never seen. Pictures my father had never seen… “But why,” I said to my cousin in America,

“was the closet locked? why were the photos in a sealed-up box?”

I had sat in that room with the closet

behind me and I had asked his father

about Oscar and Martin, what did he know? And all the time the photos were sitting

just a few feet away. And all he had been able to give me were

falling leaves.