A song about a time when I felt incapacitated by my own anxiety, but like, make it fun, kinda.

Lyrics:DefenselessStripped of every habit that protects meSexyIf you like neurosis and fear of closenessPrecociousQuick to fall apart thanks to a big headstartRed heartBut what it pumps through me isMatte beige and unvivaciousAfraid that I'm contagiousAfraid to turn the pagesAnd see what happens nowBut it'll happen anyhowDistractedTrapped in autopilot, blankly smilingBeguilingIf you like 'em vacant-eyed and pacingErasingEverything but that which found me haplessCat pissSoaking all my idle time and I'm atWit's end and feeling half-wittyI don't want to want it but I need your pityIf I don't get it I'll make do with my ownAnd my head in a coneMy life's completely blownI spent it all just dealing