Trying to find reason to why do to anything with words. Probably failing hard at it but I did a good try but the end was just painful. Mostly for me so hopefully entertainment for others. I do try to learn from this so it feels wrong of me now not to share my horrible experience now that I've made it into reality. But I do want to find reason why do to something so maybe this episode was a push to falling over the next threshold to find the answer or am I keeping this headache?