This was my realization today after a power dream of me trilling that the Bible is BS. God is not finished with me yet. God is merciful, gracious, loving, kind, persistent. God is love!! Examine your experience. Look for the good. If your experience hasn’t ever been good I’m so sorry to hear. I would encourage to see where that was man and that wasn’t God. Embrace the journey. Ask why is this happening for me?