I tried to act normal, but my thoughts were so far away from my body. I replayed the forbidden encounter in my head over and over, and wanted to run to Matthew’s arms and relive the scenes again. But I had seen the somber shadow of a good-bye in Matthew’s last glance, as we both knew that crossing the line again would only complicate our lives. I had to pretend that everything was alright and continue in the battle to save my marriage, now with the knowledge that my heart was no longer in it.