It used to be better, life was better before.... life was better when I had.. life was better when I was..
You chose your path.
"Let fate find us prepared and active. Here is the great soul- the one who surrenders to Fate. The opposite is the weak and degenerate one, who struggles with and has a poor regard for the order of the world, and seeks to correct the faults of the Gods rather than their own." - Seneca. Oh, and make your God damned bed.
If you change your story, you can change your life.