I must hold without judgement the resistance within myself

Why am I avoiding this?

Where are the barriers that are keeping me so far off?

What should I do next to address this reality?

It is not wrong to have hesitation or to be uninspired

Some tasks, some processes, some transitions don't invoke joyful fulfillment

It is sometimes okay to sigh and resign myself to what lays before me

I can have a joyful spirit without being happy

It is, perhaps, more often that joyfulness is less about happiness and more about openness

To be open to greet my own internal resistance with faithful gentleness

Open to this resistance revealing to me more deeply who I am

And in turn opening my eyes to the wholeness God is inviting me into

Praise be to God.