Is this real?  Is there something called Perfectionism?
I call it a trap, a mask to hide our dark side. Nobody wants to feel pain but, inadvertently, we all experience some form of pain at some point in our lives. This is the path of evolution. Unless we fall, we cannot get up and become stronger. Unless we fail, we cannot experience success. Unless we address the trauma and pain we have avoided that has prevented us to be authentic, we cannot live a fulfilling life. The light within is covered with cobwebs. Unless we slowly remove the cobwebs, we cannot see clearly.