Have there been times that you tried to understand what God was doing in your life without first asking Him for wisdom and understanding? You just tried to figure it out all on your own? The best thing you can do in this situation is ask God to share His wisdom and understanding with you because when we try to make sense of what's going on by ourselves, we will surely fail. 

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. - Proverbs 9:10