Okay I went completely left with this vent session, yes, I was talking about my feelings and then went on rant session about my bad taste in men. Jesus maybe my friend was right, I am the damn problem, because there is a reason why I keep attracting men that only want to go so far with me and maybe it's because I'm not ready for that shit. 
Who knows really? Only God and The Universe that's who. I'm just going to start living. Being present. Working on myself and becoming the woman of my dreams.