I highly recommend seeing a therapist. I never thought I would be able to be so open with my emotions and my thoughts and not get judge by it. I've experienced a lot of emotional abuse and it has caused me to be a very private person also me being a Aquarius I'm not one who likes to share said emotions with anyone. It causes me physical pain to even form a sentence just to tell somehow how I feel. I geuniely hate it lol.