You were, until now and the days yet to be, the best thing and worst thing that happened to me.My soul’s torn to shreds by the feelings I host, I’m grateful and hateful and fearing the worst.I’m shrouded in wonder and keeping the fast while mourning the things that are lost to the past. Excited by visions that hide in the winds, both humble and smug and in vague disbelief, I’m doubting the setting in front of my eyes while learning impossible truths to deny.