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I watched a very beautifully filmed documentary short called "Sammy's Final Arrangement," by Oof Stories. You can find the film on Vimeo, and I highly recommend it. He talks about life and death, and how death is a catalyst for life. I don't know if I completely agree, because I think death is also just death. But I do think that being so close to death makes you realize just how short life really is. Some grievers hate flowers — I happen to love them even more in grief. They brought beauty to a really devastating and dark thing that happened to me. I feel like I see so much meaning and beauty in so many things in the aftermath of 아빠's death. I also feel the weight of tragedy and suffering in so many things in the aftermath of 아빠's death. Grief is to constantly live in the tension.