So many times I wanna give up on myself because there is no push from anywhere, then I stand on my feet again, and push myself, who anybody epp? It's so glaring that there is nobody else that can understand me than myself, not even my goals, fears, anxieties and worries, you can only relate, you can't understand. For this reason, I'm talking to myself, pleading myself to give me that push that I need. I need nobody but myself!