“I think of myself as… walking to the chair and being set inside it. Emotionally, I’m very dissociated. It’s like I’m just kind of meat, I’m just led to… the chair… and sit myself in it, because I know that’s what I should do. I’ve been in this situation before. I know that… this room isn’t a real room. Like it’s based on associations… It’s constructed for me to see it this way.”