Reaching a year since my son in law took his life. I haven't used substances, but I slipp into old thought patterns, which to me is like being a dry drunk.
My daughter still does not want me in her life. I have surrendered and accepted in general. As time draws to the actual date, my longoing to connect to her grows stronger. She has asked me not to connect, I have done and will continue to do so.
I find myself feeling jealous of my daughter's in laws as she spends more time with them.
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