I lost my father to suicide 20 years ago, when I was 10. And I am still not over it. I am in therapy again, touching on the topic and it hurts every day now. I get anxious, I cry, I feel alone, I am afraid it won't go away. I realised this year what a trauma this has been, how it's sitting in my body. I'd like to feel less. I'd like not to be afraid to love a man for fear of them not loving me back and me thinking I can't take it.

Will this ever get better?

I don't know anyone who's...

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