I can’t handle this pain. It’s like the reality of it has landed today, two months in. Everything feels pointless and inescapable. All the help has disappeared and people have gone back to their lives, I’ve had people tell me they don’t have space for my bigger emotions. I feel so isolated and alone and I have felt truly suicidal myself for the first time today. I can’t live without him, I feel like he did this because being married to me for a decade wore him down. I have mental health...

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