I lost my husband of 16 years and together over 18 Years on May 13. I’m still in shock . Complete despair. He helped raise two boys since they were 10,12 and we have 2 boys together 15 and 11. He shot himself on Mothers day more importantly it was also my sons birthday but he passed right after midnight. To say my home is a mess our lives are in shambles doesn’t even sound real. It’s like a nightmare we can’t wake up from. I’m hoping to find away to deal with all this