My husband died in 2022 and I still fall apart publically, so I think I need counseling or something. I have 5 kids and was married for 21 years. I would like to join a support group online I think, for wives, but I can't figure out how to. The last few months he was alive were so afwful, I have a lot of conflicting emotions. I mostly just want to get to a place where I dont cry so easily in front of others.