hi there i’m not sure what to say but i’m introducing myself. i lost my dad to suicide a little over a month ago. it happened after a family mediation where my brother and i asked for him to be accountable to taking money from my brother and i without our consent. i spend a lot of time feeling like his death is my fault since i initiated the mediation in the first place, but then again he promised he’d pay us back and then did it an hour later. i still am dealing with flashbacks and guilt.