To bring up our past before God is an attempt to remind Him of something He's already forgotten. It's impossible. Forgive yourself.

Let me be clear, we'll never be worthy or deserving of any blessing God has lined up for us. However, we can receive them with gladness because God placed His benediction upon us. We are blessed without merit, whether the blessing reveals itself miraculously or by the hand of God's chosen vessel.

When we talk ourselves out of our blessing, we block God's favor in our lives.