*Please note that this episode contains depictions of child sexual abuse that some people may find disturbing or triggering.

Recording this episode touched a very old and deep wound, but I did not realize it until the next day when I could barely get out of bed. There was a heaviness in my chest that needed to be released and I didn’t understand why after all these years I was finally feeling this. When I talked to my husband, he said when he listened to this episode it sounded like I still blamed myself. He said it actually really bothered him. I have come to the realization that I did nothing wrong and following this episode, I’ll talk about the realizations that I have had since as well as some of the actions taken based on these realizations. This is a trigger warning to anyone who has ever dealt with what I discuss in this episode. And it was NEVER our fault.

What you will discover in this episode:

1. My calm before the storm of healing rain.
2. Can you be 37 years old and still blame yourself for an event that happened as a child?
3. Coping mechanisms we used to successfully survive our traumatic childhoods. If we survived them, we were successful.
4. In order to move forward, sometimes you have to heal what’s behind you.