When was the last time you stopped long enough to truly ponder the question: What would I love?

Last weekend, I had the opportunity to participate in their Awaken & Align: From Intention to Manifestation Retreat hosted by my clients at The Presario Group, Michelle Fournier and Jessica Jaramillo. The timing felt deeply aligned for me and arrived at exactly the right moment in my life and business.

I’ve had an interesting relationship with the word manifestation over the years. I’ve often gravitated more toward the language of alignment: alignment between my soul, my mission, my business, and the life I want to create.

In fact, the official name of my company to this day is Syzygy LLC, though I do business as Kami Guildner Coaching because almost no one can spell syzygy and most people have no idea what it means.

Syzygy is the alignment of celestial bodies, and the symbolism of that word has stayed with me for years. I even have a syzygy tattooed on my forearm: the moon, the sun, and the stars in alignment. Long before I fully understood why the word mattered so much to me, I was already drawn to the idea of resonance, alignment, and the unseen energy connecting things together.

Years ago, before I named my beloved mare Destiny Dancer, my aunt actually suggested the name Syzygy because of its meaning. I loved the depth and symbolism of the word, though I couldn’t quite imagine yelling “Syzygy!” across the barn. The name eventually became part of my company instead. Looking back now, it feels fascinating to realize how long alignment, resonance, and energy have quietly been woven into my path.

Over the years, I’ve learned that when I feel aligned internally, life and business begin unfolding in ways that feel deeply connected, expansive, and alive. When things feel off inside of me, pushing harder rarely creates the outcome I’m seeking. Those moments have taught me to pause, listen more deeply, reconnect with my mission, and tune back into the calling in my heart. From that place, answers tend to emerge with a stronger sense of direction and knowing.

Last year, I intentionally created more space for pause, reflection, and listening in my life and business. There were moments when I stepped back more than I moved ahead, giving myself room to reconnect with what mattered most, where my energy wanted to go, and what I truly wanted to create next.

What’s fascinating is that this year, I’ve felt a powerful sense of momentum building in my business. Opportunities, conversations, visibility, and aligned growth have been unfolding in meaningful ways. It has reminded me that some of our biggest seasons of expansion are often rooted in the moments when we slow down long enough to truly listen.

I deeply believe in frequency and resonance. I believe the energy we carry matters. Over the years, I developed a whole body of work around this through my #RFactor teachings, focusing on the energy of mind, body, spirit, and community. I love energy work and regularly tune into the somatics of my body, paying attention to what expands me, grounds me, and reconnects me to myself.

At the same time, I’ve had a complicated relationship with the word manifestation and even some of the conversations around ease and flow. Building businesses like we do takes devotion, commitment, courage, and sustained action. Over the years, I had encountered teachings around manifestation that felt disconnected from the reality of what women entrepreneurs are actually carrying and creating in the world. Because of that, I realized I had separated manifestation from the grounded work of building a meaningful business and life.

Lately, though, I’ve been noticing signposts inviting me into a deeper exploration of this conversation. I’ve been participating in a Quantum Leadership Council Pod through The Dames, a women’s group I belong to, listening to podcasts or books that have shown up for me, and following conversations around energy, intuition, and possibility. Every time I encountered these conversations, I felt an immediate yes in my body.

That same feeling came through when Michelle and Jessica invited me to the retreat. I knew it would be magical because I know the depth of their work, and I knew perhaps I was being called to reconnect more deeply to the energetics of my business.

The very first statement I wrote in my journal that morning was: “To really embrace the energy of manifestation and the possibilities that come with that.”

As Michelle kicked off the morning, she made a statement that immediately caught my attention: “You can’t manifest life while hiding your fully expressed truth.”

Ah, I thought. I haven’t fully expressed my own truth around manifestation. I believed deeply in alignment, energy, resonance, and intentional living, though I still carried resistance around the language of manifestation itself.

We explored what we would genuinely love to create in our lives and businesses. We also explored the deeper stories, fears, doubts, and beliefs quietly living underneath those desires. A few of the beliefs that surfaced for me were: “Manifestation doesn’t work.” “I’m not enough.” Ouch. Despite so much evidence to the contrary in my life, those beliefs were still sitting just beneath the surface, quietly lingering in places I hadn’t fully acknowledged.

As Michelle says, we were “lighting that shit up.” We moved through exercises around forgiveness, releasing self-doubt, letting go of attachment and control, and rewiring old patterns and beliefs. There was something powerful about bringing those beliefs into conscious awareness instead of allowing them to quietly shape the background of my decisions, energy, and sense of what was possible.

Somewhere in the middle of the day, I re-realized something I think I had forgotten along the way: manifestation has far more to do with alignment across our mind, body, energy, and desires than I had fully acknowledged. The deeper inner work is part of the process. The emotional work is part of the process. The willingness to tell ourselves the truth is part of the process. When those pieces begin working together in resonance, something powerful opens.

At one point, we were asked the question: “If nothing changes, what will break your heart the most?”

My answer came quickly: “My impact will be less. It will fizzle away to nothing.”

That answer revealed something important to me. I know I’m here to leave a meaningful impact through my work, my voice, and the conversations I’m creating in the world. I also know many women entrepreneurs feel this same calling inside themselves. There is a deep desire to create work that matters, leadership that matters, and businesses that create ripple effects far beyond ourselves.

One of the conversations that especially resonated with me came from their collaborative partner Christina McLoughlin, who taught about the four bodies: spiritual, mental, emotional, and physical. That teaching resonated immediately and felt deeply connected to the work I’ve explored for years through #RFactor.

By the end of the retreat, Jessica taught us to write a Pule, a Hawaiian prayer rooted in our desires, intentions, energy, and the embodied experiences we want to create in our lives. There was something incredibly grounding about bringing desire, intention, embodiment, and energy together in such a conscious way.

I came home with a renewed relationship to the word manifestation and an even deeper relationship to curiosity, resonance, and possibility… words I have always loved. I now have a Pule book that I’ll continue using to write prayers and intentions around the things I would love to create, whether for business visions, upcoming events, travel, family experiences, or dreams that are still unfolding.

What stayed with me most from this experience was the reminder of how important it is to pour back into ourselves. To pause. To step away from the noise and the constant movement of business long enough to listen more deeply. Retreats like this create space for messages, truths, desires, and insights that may be quietly waiting to be uncovered beneath the surface of our everyday lives.

What’s been especially fascinating is that by Monday morning, I could already feel movement aligning with my Pule. Conversations began opening. Ideas started flowing. Possibilities and opportunities seemed to arrive with a different energy around them. There has been a sense of expansion, openness, and momentum moving through this week that feels deeply connected to the intentions and resonance I stepped into during the retreat.

And perhaps that’s part of the magic of all of this: when we reconnect with ourselves, align with what we truly desire, and allow ourselves to fully feel into the energy of it, something begins moving long before we can fully explain how or why.

So I’m curious: When was the last time you truly gave yourself space to pause and ask what you would genuinely love? What might be waiting for you in the stillness, in the listening, and in the willingness to reconnect with your own desires, energy, and alignment?

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