Whewwww it's been a MINUTE. Ya girl has been going through it and I open up about it in this episode. Vulnerability is strength with awareness and this is the juice I want to share. My intention is to offer perspectives that have helped me through my own shit. You are not alone, you have an ARMY of angels protecting you, watching over you and guiding you.
I want to share the real shit that isn't polished & pretty. It sometimes feels full of shame but when I accept and appreciate my own shadow for being the catalyst in my Spirits evolution.. that relationship begins to show me what wounds need my attention and love. I find comfort in knowing my own heart above all else. This result is more of me being allowed to sit at the table of me. The whole of me is in pursuit of integration, which is a force of nature my dood. All of you... like cmonnnnnn you are GOLDEN. Even the brightest diamonds need the darkest velvet background to reflect its shine. You deserve that recognition from yourself.
Whatever process you are currently moving through, I hope you find your peace and know that it's accessible inside yourself. Because you are being stretched by life, you are expanding, and growing into an incredibly powerful version of you. I hope you cultivate compassion for yourself and the parts of you that you may deem to be unloveable and want to hide from the world. May you begin to fall in love with the process.
I've struggled with "What's the point?" of sharing my art, speaking my voice, and expressing myself.
I continue to meet myself in newfound depths of my awareness and I don't necessarily like what I see. I see a lot of shadowy parts and to walk down step by step into the valleys of my own darkness, participating and choosing to partake in my addictions.. has created feelings of disappointment in myself; the web of addiction gets sticky. The power comes back when you recognize the freedom held in one choice point.
Also, the GRATITUDE for the BADASS WOMEN in my life has reached new heights in the midst of these low moments. I encourage you to recognize when you are in a low place, notice who is trying to lift you up - and if nobody is to be found guess whuuuuut you never leave you. You have you always, in all ways.
I love you, you got this <3
Timestamps
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0:00 Intro / lil life update
4:55 People create experiences inside of you
7:55 Awareness of walking into shadow parts of you
8:40 Into the valleys of your shadow
9:00 Wound that binge eating is filling
9:45 Addiction fueled by pain, finding temporary freedom in escapism
12:30 Addiction lets go of you
13:30 Luv to & from yourself
16:00 You are still worthy of your own love
19:00 Fear shows you where you are not free
20:00 Believe more in yourself
24:00 Be fearless in pursuit of what sets your soul on fire
26:00 Power in 1 choice point
27:00 Jump in the direction of your dreams
28:00 What meaning do you want to give your life?
30:30 Learning from dark moments
30:50 The love of your life will show up when
31:45 Your self obsession is boring
32:00 Coming home to yourself through vulnerability with others
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MUAH
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