Do you know that you lost them because you don't need them? If they mattered, they would have stayed. So what if they left you, your validation is not in them, you are loved, valued and validated by the Almighty God. Committing suicide over your past is killing your amazing future. A future that is much more amazing than what you've lost or the bad experience you've faced. You are strong, stronger than your past and all you've lost.
Stand up and praise yourself because you’re still alive to make a huge difference in this life, that's why you didn't go with the past or that past couldn't kill you. Don't allow the event to eventually take the best of you.
You are the best you that life has ever seen, you are the best we will ever have of you. God is counting on you, He is happy that you still have your faith. Forget what you lost and stay Rested in God.
The only way to grow most times in life, is to grow into something you can't handle and stretch yourself in that space. You are thinking you can't pull this off, focus on it now, look at what is left and the space you are in and you will be amazed what you pulled off with whatever is left of you. This is a stretching moment, push into it.
Take the challenge and grow in it. Survive who walked away, live expectant for the good things that God is about to bring into your life.
God doesn't need what you've lost. God only need what you have left. Give it to Him and see Him use it to make you a wonder in the world.
I love you and I am praying for you. If you want to talk, reach out in my inbox. Ways and systems are available to guide you through this period.
There is more on the other side of insecurity. Stay Planted In His Word and Stay Rested In God. This too shall pass.
Ps. Darlington Steve