I am so sorry that I was not able to get back to you.

I got your message but could not call and have not been home to write a note. You do not know how much I cherish you already. You gestures and your thoughts are seemingly from another planet due to your gracious mannerism. I long to know you much better. Would you call me whenever you get up. I do not want to wake you too early, AND, I know your 10:00 appointment that you must be preparing for. I would think that calling me on my cell would be best, I may well be on my way to you when you do call. God bless you abundantly, - Peter Kent

He didn’t get home until 1:00 am because he was in jail for shoplifting a $3.00 kitchen knife. A pastor-friend down the street came and bailed him out.

I didn’t get the message because I didn’t have AOL at home.

8:45 am My intention at the moment, is to make contact with you earlier today. I am off to get a drivers license address change and then I will be going the long way around to pick up some meds at Costco in Brandon on my way to you somehow.

I am excited about us launching something together, a relationship. You seem to feel about me as I would wish my special person to feel. I do not take that lightly, it is very filling and I could not ever say enough good about it. What I wish to learn is to 'act' or 'be' as though it means the world to me, rather than playing safe and untrustworthy of relationship. I think that going slow and talking about it a lot, as knowledgeable adults, is the way to go. I have many worthy things to do. - Peter Kent

Dear Peter Kent, I did not have access to a computer last night. The old lap top that I carried to the island was having modem trouble. I got it up and running, but it was too slow to bother with this morning. I am glad you called. As much as I dislike talking on the phone, it is still the most effective for two people on the move. It is different when it is you anyway. Perhaps you will help me to overcome this little problem.

I just got in to Easy Street and read your notes. I do care about you and think about you throughout the day. Being a woman, it is always easy to start over, because there is always someone who will take you in, make you strong and wish you well on your way. I think it must be much harder for a man. You would know.

I don't want you to try and argue with me about this trip. I will pay all of the costs involved and don't want you to reach for your wallet in any part of the travel or food expense this weekend. The only thing that I want from you is that you are well rested and prepared for your exam. In some ways I think even the distraction of a woman is bad timing for this, but I don't know quite what to do about that. Just know that I am patient (you will not believe how patient until you know me better) and I, too, want to go at this relationship slowly. As much as I love the thrill of infatuation, I want something more lasting and ultimately, more satisfying.

We are having a chicken crisis right now, so I can't devote the time to that thought that I would like. Brandon is very congested, so be careful. If you get lost trying to get back to Easy St. most people know where the Citrus Park mall is and we are across the street. I will send another letter momentarily that has the work list. For the cats, Carole Lewis, Founder

RE: The only thing that I want from you is that you are well rested and prepared for your exam.

This exam is fairly simple, I already passed the hard part. I had taken the exam in March at the University of Miami Law School, AND, arrived 93 minutes late. The exam is two parts, point location (easy, and should take about 35 minutes of the three hours they a lot) and comprehensive. They let me sit for the exam anyway but I missed the instructions for the point location procedure. I thought I got them all correct because they were commonly used points. I got a 35% on that part and passed the difficult part. All I really need to do is look through the book on the way there and tomorrow morning, when I can really cook (I usually study 300 times faster in the early morning).

RE: In some ways I think even the distraction of a woman is bad timing for this, Nah.....

RE: but I don't know quite what to do about that.

There are only two requirements:

1) Do what I say, 2) do it immediately.......... (lol)

I am leaving in about 20 minutes.

Truly you are a gift I must pray about. - Peter Kent

Carole, the unpleasant part is the money end. In the past I had done all fix-up stuff by bid or by time and materials. I have a lot of tools to make things go faster and generally charge $29/hr for my time. (I worked as a sub-contractor for a big fix-up firm in Albuquerque for a while and they bid me at $55/hour, until I got a school and a church to build I went off on my own while in school). I am fast and work hard. I usually do not like working more than 6-7 hours per day depending on my energy levels and the work entailed.

I am wishing for this to be fair a profitable for you. I thank you for your loving ways, I wish not to be any burden.

11/9/01 I drove with Peter Kent in the 98 Dodge van to Jacksonville. We pulled into the parking lot of the Ramada Inn at dusk and as we drove around back, I realized that this was the same hotel that Judy Watson, Hercules (the Snow Leopard) and I stayed in back on August 7-11, 1997 for the LIOC meeting. I began thinking about what that signified.

That was the last “normal” week of my life. Seven days later, Don was gone and my world was shaken upside down. I told Peter Kent what was going on in my head and wondered aloud if this was God’s way of saying that things would now get back to “normal” for me. I could love again. I could be happy again. I could see the future again.

I wore my gown to bed because I did not wish to seem presumptuous and at some level really thought he should forego sex before this big exam. I would leave that choice up to him. He would know his needs and weaknesses better than I. We continued exploring each other and then he kissed me.

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