Family ALL Love Howie

Howie writes Carole 23 Feb 2003 17:54:29

Thanks. I think we have already shared our different views on our intimacy, which I view as a blessing, not a sin. But since you believe it is a sin, I'm just thankful that (a) you seem unable to resist the temptation and (b) you picked me to sin with. And for your sake, I'm glad to read that you at least do not believe this keeps you from a positive experience after death. God would certainly be a dolt to have this count for much compared to the way you have followed her [:-)]. most important rule, the golden one.

I'll be curious to hear if you got any questions or feedback at church tonight about your mystery guest? See you soon. - Howie

Carole writes Howie: Dear Howie, The jury reconvened in record time with a unanimous sentence of life for you. The first words out of my mother's mouth were, "the whole family really thinks he is just perfect for you." Now, that could be taken tongue in cheek, except that she went on to say how nice you are and how much everyone liked you. Momma Jacquie was particularly enamoured and that probably meant the most to me because she understands me better than anyone else in the family. I relayed the comment you made about needing my helmet to talk to my father and Mom assured me that all you need to do is talk cages to engage him civilly. He's actually seen you twice now and still not made a negative comment to my mother, which is tantamount to a miracle. - Carole

Feeling Remarkably Connected and Peaceful

Carole writes Howie: Dear Howie, It is rare that I find myself in a position to be not distracted for an extended period of time. While sitting in the hospital all morning, I tried to read The Dead Sea Scrolls, but all I could think about was wanting to reach out to you; to call you, to touch you, to send you a note letting you know that you are in my every thought. Since none of those options were available to me, I decided to "fly" to you, hover over you and through you, like your skin or the blood in your veins... I enjoyed it. Was it good for you? ;-)

Tim Cangliosi’s surgery went pretty well, they could cure the cataract problem and said they will have to clean it up with lasers later, but tomorrow he hopes to have the bandages off and see if it was an improvement. He asked a lot about you and I told him how much I love you and how impressed I am with you as a person. I want to talk to you more about that, but have to go for right now.

I hope your day is full of wonderful moments of tranquility. I woke up feeling remarkably connected and peaceful. Carole

Howie writes Carole: On any of the days you are coming here, I'd like you to feel free to arrive whenever best fits your schedule. If some days arriving early and either roller blading or working here is convenient, that's great. On busy days when you need to work into the night, midnight is fine.

The only reason I ask is that if, for instance, I know you are going to arrive around 7 and it is will be your feeding time [:-)] then rather than eat at 6:30 I'd rather wait and join you, but for instance if you won't be here til 10, then I'll eat as it occurs to me. So if you find that in late afternoon you have some idea of the likely time, it is helpful to let me know, but not essential.

And some days you simply may not know until you are heading this way, which is fine. And as always, any night you for any reason don't feel like coming over, just say so. While I think we are both enjoying being together in the evening and waking together, it is by no means essential that it be every night, so just do what works best for you. Okey dokey?

Howie writes Carole: Not to inundate you with emails (the list you showed me that you had collected the other night kind of shocked me), here is a one that has a classic message about marriage, but not one I would guess you would identify with personally. :-)

A wife arrived home from a shopping trip and was shocked to find her husband in bed with a lovely young woman. Just as she was about to storm out of the house, her husband called out "Perhaps you should hear how all this came about. . .

"I was driving home on the highway when I saw this young woman looking tired and bedraggled. I brought her home and made her a meal from the roast beef you had forgotten about in the fridge.

"She was bare-footed so I gave her your good sandals which you had discarded because they had gone out of style.

"She was cold so I gave her the sweater which I bought for you for your birthday but you never wore because the color didn't suit you.

"Her pants were torn, so I gave her a pair of your jeans, which were perfectly good, but too small for you now.

"Then just as she was about to leave, she asked, 'Is there anything else your wife doesn't use anymore?'"

Howie writes Carole 24 Feb 2003 15:15:32

Was not conscious of a presence, but you were on my mind. That was "good for me".

Having a productive, peaceful day, thanks. Looking forward to seeing you whenever you arrive.

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