Me, Myself and God: Recent Episodes
E. Flowers
My therapy sessions with God and eventually my story and journey to figuring out what true self love is. Self Love is The Best Love.
Just the sad ramblings of a high girl/lady (cause I still think of myself as a girl but you’d probably see a older lady)
I ain’t even gonna lie, I don’t remember what I was talking about exactly but I’m sure it was about my trip and me being so high the day I left so I’m sure I was reflecting back on that
I don’t remember what I talked about. I’m just now posting 8/20/2022 for reference. I can’t remember what I did yesterday much less what I said 3 weeks ago
So I was going to name it Death Wish and then I thought Death Request sounded better 😂😭
I don’t remember exactly what I talked about. Probably how unfair the world is 😂 it’s been a week 😩
Trying not to be a negative Nancy but 💩 been rough. I know that this too shall pass and it’ll be all right.
I was watching This Is Us and it made me think about adult child and parent relationships
My thoughts on vaccinated vs unvaccinated and the unnecessary division it’s causing in my personal relationships
I’ve done a lot of things I’m not proud of and I’m now realizing I have a lot of shame that I need to let go of. I am human and humans make mistakes. I am not the choices I’ve made- good or bad. I am deserving of self love and self forgiveness. I’m hoping that by journaling through my story telling I learn true self acceptance.
I don’t remember exactly what I was talking about 🤦♀️ and I think it cut off cause Cam called me
And here’s another one I recorded this back in July and I don’t know what I saidbut I’m going to go ahead and put it on here because this is the place that I can be my true self…. Isn’t it funny at 45 I’m still trying to do that
I recorded this back in June so I don’t even know what I talked about on here but I never go back and listen so it might be nothing or it might be something so I’m gonna keep it
So last Saturday Andrew and I went to Visit Cam In Denton/Dallas and unknowingly recorded us for about 30 minutes. I was about to record and found it and figured I’d keep it. It sounded like we were having a good time ❤️
True self love and acceptance will keep you honest not only with yourself but everyone around you.
I recorded this on the 5th of April and don’t really remember what I was talking about 🤷♀️
Small Breakdown I think 🤔 sometimes I just let all the thoughts in my head come out and not really sure they make sense to anyone other than myself 🤷♀️
Being that I don’t go back to listen to what I record I’m not sure what I was talking about - I know it had something to do with Andrew but was originally about something totally different-since this is supposed to be my journal and something that my kids will have to listen back to when I’m gone I’m going to continue to publish all my recordings because even though they may make sense to nobody else I know that it will to my kids because they know me and it’s for them after all. 🥲❤️ PS Don’t come For me I know there are like 100 grammatical errors
Parents are assholes sometimes and it can fuck with us but we don’t have to let it fuck us up forever
This was a draft and I don’t remember what I talked about but I’m publishing it anyways. I still can’t go back and listen and I don’t know why 🤷♀️
I’m kinda all over the place with this entry. That’s what a journal is though, right? A place for me to write all my thoughts down except in this case it’s talk about all my 💭 I hope you make it til the end ✌️
I am by no means perfect or the perfect parent but I do believe that all the shit I’ve done and been through has allowed me to see things from all perspectives and I’ve gained some wisdom from those experiences 🤷♀️
Not everyone who tries to give you advice is judging or hatin. Some just really love you and want better for you. Just saying.....
I dropped my boy off at College this past week-so I am now officially an empty nester 😭😢
George Floyd was senselessly killed and it breaks my heart that this seems to be happening too often to people of color.
I got cut off by a phone call and since I couldn’t remember what exactly i wanted to talk about I cut it short 🤷♀️
Owning our shit and taking accountability and responsibility for where we are in our lifes
Today Is Friday, March 27 so I don’t even remember what I talked about on this but I wanna hurry up and record another entry so I just have to hurry up and pump
I sometimes forget that I still have a lot of unconscious childhood programming I’m still working through.
Note To Self: being of service doesn’t have to be big grand gestures. Sometimes a simple Facebook comment is all it takes
In Denton with Camryn and just reflecting on how truly blessed I am and feeling it. Knowing it and feeling it are two very different things.
I Recorded this on the 18th and today is the 22nd I believe so I have no idea and do not remember what I spoke on
Dear Diary, Andrew was a real fucking asshole last night and last night was the last full moon of the year. That might explain Andrew 🖕🏽
My Journal entries have no real main subject matter. It’s just a whole lot of rambling.