Suicide & Sativa.: Recent Episodes

Emmanuel aka Suicidal Manny

It's about life, death and filling the empty spaces in between.

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Manny struggles with asking for help.

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Manny begins looking at life through a new perspective.

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Manny talks about the journey.

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Manny talks about falling short of his own expectations.

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Manny discusses the progress he has been making on an off day.

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Manny is back with some updates.

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Manny talks about the day, kinda rambles tho.

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Manny rambles as usual.

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Manny spends too much emotional currency on things he cannot afford.

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Manny avoids mediocrity.

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Manny refrains from being petty.

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Manny talks about censorship and a possible rebrand.

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Manny operates on high levels of optimism and low energy.

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Manny remains the bigger person.

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Manny might be in the top 10% of happiest bums...

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Manny talks about things he does not understand.

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Manny talks about focusing on the future.

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Manny has a talk about god and other things.

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Manny talks about preparation and mental exercise.

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Manny talks around real issues.

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Manny feels his best days have yet to come.

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Manny attempts to comprehend his current place in life.

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Manny discusses a recent conversation he had with his siblings.

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Manny considers therapy when he has no one else to talk to.

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The new year isn't starting off the best for Manny, but he makes the best of it.

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Manny gets into his feelings after the holidays.

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Manny shares some details about his recent trip to Florida.

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Manny wants to change his routine.

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Manny talks about unaccomplished goals and wasted moments.

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Manny talks about how far he's strayed from the path he was on.

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Manny shares some wisdom after the removal of a broken tooth.

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Manny learns to shift his focus during trying times.

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Manny returns to podcasting after a six month hiatus.

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Manny has a great day.

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Manny thinks about his thirties.

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Manny talks about mistakes and the weight of choosing.

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Manny walks towards a better life.

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Manny accepts what he cannot control.

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Manny seeks fulfillment.

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Balancing emotions seems difficult for Manny.

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Manny attempts to get his life together.

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Manny talks about the effort and attention he puts into areas of his life.

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Manny works too hard.

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Manny doubles down on his desire to better this podcast.

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Manny discusses the illusion of progress.

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Manny talks about parenting a sick child.

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Manny talks about the significance of life.

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Manny thinks out loud.

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Manny thinks about what he desires most.

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Manny talks about where he's been and where he's heading.

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Sometimes, Manny feels like these thoughts are not his own.

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Manny thinks about life.

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Manny has a busy day.

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Manny talks about things on a quiet night.

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Manny's been writing.

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Manny gets in synced with his past self.

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Manny talks about anxiety in the workplace.

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Manny talks about regrets, whether he chooses his struggle or not.

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"...temporary help."

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Manny talks about dating and work.

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Manny talks about fatherhood and artistry.

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Manny is frustrated by technology these days.

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Manny questions his thinking and thought process.

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Manny works a lot, but cannot figure out what it is he is working towards.

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Manny gets some rest.

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Manny talks about fatherhood again.

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Manny is feeling better and back with another blunt and more problems.

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Manny mourns the loss of a loved one.

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Manny is back from hiatus to talk about support systems: the support he gets from others and the support he's given.

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Manny is sick with this episode, ironically talking about health.

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Manny tries to make sense of things.

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Manny talks about the path he's been on in life and what it has lead him to.

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Manny works through some things.

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Manny plays the lottery.

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Manny talks about some of his recent life decisions.

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Manny throws some stuff away and finds clarity along the way.

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Manny talks about what's the same and what's different.

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Manny gets high and questions whether he should live a sober life.

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Good weed and god talk.

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Manny's kinda sick, but looks to form healthier habits.

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Manny returns from a long hiatus about talks about his current mental and physical health.

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Manny needs some time.

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How does experience shape you?

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Manny talks about numbers.

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It was Monday and Manny was in a mood.

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Gotta wait your turn.

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Manny has a shift in perspective.

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It's been a long day, not much else to say.

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What are you afraid of?

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Manny and money.

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Idk about this one, Manny is kinda all over the place.

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Technology is amazing and it freaks Manny out.

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Manny addresses his indecisiveness.

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LSD and cable TV, hell of a combination.

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Manny laments over his past self.

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Manny tries to figure out what he's holding onto.

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Melancholy Manny is back again with the depressing thoughts.

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Manny feels like he's doing life wrong.

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Manny finds his way back to peace.

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Expectations lead to disappoints and Manny laments the last 24 hours.

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Manny has a hunger for change.

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Manny has no one to talk to.

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Manny doesn't feel special.

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Manny finally gets some alone time.

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Manny is traveling.

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Is this August better or worst than previous ones?

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This world is not fair.

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Manny wonders how god spend his/her day.

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Manny laments past and future relationships.

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I don't know, Manny kinda rambles on this one.

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Manny shares what he knows.

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A lot can happen within seven days.

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The toothache chronicles continue.

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Manny struggles to commit.

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Manny is thankful for the pain.

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Manny redefines the meaning of existing.

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Manny can't help but notice how fragile the human experience is.

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Manny hates change.

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Not much to talk about on this one.

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Sometimes the mind wanders.

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Nobody's perfect, right?

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Manny looks forward to the change in seasons.

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A much needed break from social media is on the horizon.

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No excuses when it comes to parenthood.

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Manny attempts to sort out his life.

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Manny returns from a six week hiatus to talk about things and stuff.

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Manny talks about what he's learned from religion.

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Good friends are hard to come by; Manny is thankful for the few he's made along the way.

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Sometimes, we see what we wanna see in others.

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Manny reunites with his son and talks about his other creations.

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Manny feels outta place in this one.

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Manny reflects on new existential questions and discusses a new person in his life.

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Happiness is temporary, gotta hold onto it while you can.

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Happiness is temporary, gotta hold onto it while you can.

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It's his birthday; Manny reflects on life and fatherhood.

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Manny finds inspiration in watching the mistakes of others.

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Manny reflects on the many hard days of work he's put in and the good days that came as a result.

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Manny rambles on while half sleep, pay him no mind..

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Manny searches for truth in art and drugs.

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Another year, another day; what's the difference?

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Sometimes you gotta remind yourself who you are.

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Monotone Manny returns with new inspirations and motivations.

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Life is better with optimism, right?

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A life is a life; it's okay to just be.

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After a week hiatus, Manny is back talking about drugs and depression.

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Manny talks about art and expression.

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Manny has a good day, finally.

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Manny talks about drugs.

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Manny tries to find a lesson within the events of the day.

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All in a day.

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The human experience is a lonely one.

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Manny reflects on where he is and where he was. So pretty much like every other episode.

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Manny discusses his personal growth.

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Manny talks about cannabis use in relation to depression.

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Manny remembers his introduction to cannabis.

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Manny remembers his introduction to cannabis.

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Back again with the melancholy.

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Manny focuses on the bright side?

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Manny over thinks it.

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Manny is low key triggered, but mostly talks about nothing.

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Does he art, or is he art? Multiple-choice Manny can't make up his mind.

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Manny is in a mood.

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Manny has a falling out; perfect opportunity for self-reflection.

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Manny wants to set some goals...

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Manny is sick, bare with him.

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Who to call when you're feeling down? Manny doesn't know.

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Old relationships, new ones; Manny talks about people.

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Part 3, Growth: Manny talks about his personal growth.

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Part 2, Gratitude: Manny finds things to be thankful for, and it ain't even November.

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Part 1, Grief: Manny talks about life and questions death, as usual.

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Manny talks about life and art.

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Okay, this one's kinda depressing.

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Manny gets a haircut; still pretty awkward.

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Manny talks about the meaning and nature of love, his scattered thoughts, and has a new perspective on life.

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Manny talks about his connections to people.

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Melancholy Manny returns, it's a weird day.

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Manny talks about life stuff.

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Random ramblings about things and stuff.

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Manny has a good day.

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Melancholy Manny ponders the universe in this one.

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Manny talks about his love life, kinda.

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Monotone Manny starts a podcast.