Secrets of a Survivor

After unknowingly growing up under the influence of a narcissistic parent, I would consistently find myself in toxic situations attracting toxic people, primarily those with intense narcissistic traits, and abusive relationships. As an adult, I created my identity based on my career. A flashy career in entertainment was the perfect mask for any internal struggles I was going through. Regardless of how great my career was, these people would always come into my life when I truly felt happy and reeked havoc affecting every facet of my life. Then, prior to my 40th birthday, one of these very toxic people briefly came and went from my life and soon after my father died. All of my subconscious trauma triggers were lit up and I went deep into a depressive state. My insecurities and feelings of unworthiness and abandonment were amplified like never before. I was blindsided and had no idea what was happening to me. The innate fighter in me decided that enough was enough and I went on an intensive soul-searching, self-healing journey. All of the internal issues that I had been harboring my whole life came to the surface. It was dark! It was the hardest, most painful, and the loneliest thing that I have ever done. It doesn’t happen overnight. There’s no quick fix. After almost 3 years of intensive work my whole life changed!