Organized Chaos: Recent Episodes
Zoe Rubens
Meet Zoe, a kinda cool, kinda dorky girl whose nightly wellness routine includes talking hot gos’ and even hotter takes from her favorite (hot) people. Join the extended crew as they talk about relationships, unsolicited advice, navigating changes, and that one time at Jesus camp. Really, anything goes.
Every topic is different but that's what keeps it interesting. New episodes every week.
We took molly once and never shut up about it—so here we are, reminiscing about nights in the club and rolling to Flume like every other chaotic twenty-something in 2016.
We compare Euro clubs to U.S. ones (spoiler: Europe wins), discuss our imminent return to the dance floor, and plan our very French summer.
Our Venus's are in Leo which means Zoe's into mesh toe shoes (help) and Taylor's either in a dramatic fit or boy-core.
Send us your wildest vacation stories - we'll be reading them poolside with Rosé in hand.
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Zoe’s made the leap to San Francisco—and narrowly dodged sharing a bed with her brother?? Now Zoe and Taylor are cohabiting like feral, spiritual roommates: tan, topless, and thriving. This episode is a cocktail of chaos and clarity, covering everything from SF hotness inflation (a San Diego -11 becomes a SF 9) to bender energy, type A vs. type C dynamics, and why the coworker-on-a-business-trip is the most dangerously single demographic alive.
We dive into the “Taxi Cab Theory,” cheating epidemics, Mormon reality TV, and the existential spiral of wondering if we’ll ever get married—or if that even matters. Through all the madness, one thing is clear: we’re here to explore, stay open, and trust the universe (even if we’re hungover doing it).
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This week Taylor shares her latest stats (3 kisses, 1 week, zero regrets), and discusses pegging with 8 CMOs, CEOs, and whatever other acronym. Then we critique casual dating, and why hook-up culture is so freaking exhausting. Like—how are you forehead kissing me, taking me on dates, saying you like me… then acting confused when I think you like me??
We’ll be brave and just say it. Dating with intention is hot! Respect, curiosity, and emotionally intelligent conversations are sexy! And finally, we ask the hard question: did dating apps and social media ruin romance or are we just dopamine junkies with commitment issues?
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You asked for a sexy episode–and we delivered, you curious little freaks. Ever felt stuck in a rut with your partner? Craving something new in the bedroom? Wondering if your fantasies are “normal”? (Spoiler: they probably are.) This week, we dive into kink, communication, and keeping things spicy with topics like eating ass, sexting, and solo play—plus a few taboo treats you’ll have to hear to believe.
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This week, we get brainy. Taylor has a new dating theory called “the cup” and it explains why some people can only give a little while others can give a lot. Zoe has a new and exciting crush, he’s a bit older, like 3000 years older, but age is just a number. We also answer the age-old question - does size really matter?
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This week, we’re diving into a masterclass on yearning—Victorian-style. Nobody did longing quite like them: intense eye contact, sweetly stolen moments, and the guts to actually say how you feel. Fast forward to today, and it’s all “come over if you want,” which, let’s face it, I don’t... We’re breaking down what makes a makeout unforgettable (hint: dry humping is so back). Plus, we’re tossing in a bonus medical lesson on how to cure hysteria and give your insides the deep cleanse they desperately deserve. Tune in for some romance, health tips, and a dash of historical sass ;)
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Marrying stalkers, zodiac killers and dad lore. This week we talk about what's happening in the press and asking your parents about the serial killer they went to high school with. It’s a little all over the place, but so are we ;)
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Sometimes being ghosted is a true blessing. This week IOKT becomes a true crime podcast and it gets sick and twisted. On a scale from local douche to f-boy this guy comes in at a strong Joe Goldberg - compulsive lying, cheating, and master manipulation. We went true detective mode to uncover how dark this entanglement could have gone.
The question we must all be asking ourselves is - is it love or is it love bombing? Tune in to find out.
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On this week’s minisode we couldn’t help but wonder... When men with girlfriends go out of town on business, are they really seeking pleasure? Does size matter? And if so, does being small make you act up in big ways?
We didn’t realize we had a bunch of overachievers for listeners. This week we asked for crazy dating stories and wow did you deliver! From signing celebrity NDAs to million-dollar penthouses to f*cking on yachts, this episode truly has it all. We also share some of our personal dating stories, and yes, we did match your freak.
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This week we go over our 2025 ins and outs list.
In: country club activities, tasers, and polycules
Out: hills, run clubs, and meetings before 9am
We also share our experience plugging in our metaphorical avatar hair with the tree of life when exploring the mystical world of plant medicines (think oiud, magic mushrooms, and mother Aya),
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Sometimes you have to go back in time to understand the context of the future. This week we tie a bow on the sexy British man, share our meet cute, talk about the craziest gift we have received post-breakup, and share the highlights from our weekend. Spoiler alert - DJs appear sexier on stage than they do in person and if you want your ex to text you back, send them a butt plug.
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This week we’re giving youa very special bonus episode because we can't stop thinking about the art of dating. We dive into some of our best and worst first dates and share those little details that make the difference.
Remember kids - dating should be fun, splitting the bill at a boujee restaurant is not hot, and the post-date text is more important than you think.
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Hi it's Taylor and Zoe!
This week it’s time to give you a peak behind the curtain and show you the personalities behind the mic. The pinnacle of oversharing is talking about losing our virginities 2 minutes in - before even introducing ourselves. We dive into the art of yearning, recent first dates, and witchcraft.
We are not pros yet, and the audio still sucks until 5:28. We will get better and that’s a promise!
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Tell me why everyone and their mother has an opinion on an all-girls school. This week, we are joined by our favorite east coaster, Nicole, and we are here to set the record straight (no pun intended),
Ah, Nicole, the college thriver, and me, the high school survivor. We each have our own first-hand experiences at such schools and can confirm some things never change. We reminisce about college bars, walk on sports, and the occasional culty seance in the woods.
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Take a seat and get comfortable, this week's episode is going to be a wild ride. Ebony and I sit down with one of our BFFs and discuss the fashion risks we took but probably shouldn't have. Everyone had a fedora faze, right? No? Okay cool. Speaking of fashion risks and people policing what's cool, let's get serious. Somehow we end up going down memory lane and casually chatting about our run-ins with the law. We have all been there, white-knuckled talking boys in blue, yet somehow getting out of it every time using a little razzle-dazzle. Follow me @zorubens on IG + zoerubens on Tiktok
Let me set the scene. You are outside on a beautiful day, the sun is about to set and you hear the unmistakable sound of a lighter. Pop a squat and light one up as Taylor and I talk about our experiences with mother nature's plant medicines. We discuss everything you can smoke and everything you can ingest and yes, we are big fans.
DISCLAIMER - while we love the occasional vacation from reality, we as your big sisters, only want you to participate if you feel called and if your mind is sound.
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This week I sit down with THE stunningly beautiful Dan Larsen. Dan and I talk about our first blind date, other people's opinions, unsolicited advice, and getting trolled in public. Now I'm not saying this is the soundest advice you have ever heard but as your big siblings, you better listen up. Sometimes other people's opinions of you really don't matter and we are here to help you navigate when and when not to give a damn about what people say. Because when everyone thinks they're right, they are all too often so unbelievably wrong.
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Have you ever heard of a u-haul best friend? This week Taylor and I talk about the thing that bonds us more than anything - packing up our stuff and moving in with each other... 6000 miles away. Having lived in both Italy during study abroad and Spain post-college we really have been through it all. Not speaking the languages, getting our phones and wallets stolen, going on double dates, and holding hands in public hospitals with matching IVs.
I am going to sum up this episode by quoting Taylor, "you are the writer, producer, and main character of your own life" and baby we are going for the Oscar.
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Have you ever been involved in a crime? This week Ebony and I single-handedly act as the neighborhood watch and come face to face with an alleged crackhead in our building's ally. From now on its keys between fingers and bear spray in hand.
I also talk about goal setting in 2023 because what's the harm in putting it out to the universe? They say be careful what you wish for, but HUNNY I have some lofty goals.
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Organzied Chaos has officially been renamed Off The Cuff which loosely translates to "without preparation" which dare I say fits the vibe of this pod even better so men in black that old name from your mind.
This week's episode is a rosé fueled fever dream. I sit down with some of my friends round table style and read some spicy Reddit stories. The girls and guys have their own povs on relationships and give some seriously controversial hot takes. Do you have to disclose plastic surgery? Does this constitute cheating? Do you talk about ex's? Listen now to find out.
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Friends Featured: Ebony, Des (@desidoesit), Uriel, Diego (@stars_and_garters), Jan (@janpablogaray), and Duran (@duran_106)
This week I'm getting down and dirty with my BFF and soul sister, Taylor. We are talking about the thing we talk about most - dating. Taylor is an expert dater and has been on more first dates than anyone I know. Let's face it, getting to know someone new can be hard so it's time to introduce you to the girl who has perfected the game. We are here to give you all the tips and tricks on perfecting the first date, making a good impression, and owning the town.
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Let's get real. In this episode, we go deep and enter the minds of me and my girl, Ebony. It's a true opposites attract situation. We are taking a look at why we act the way we do, how that affects our relationship and how we see the world around us. Hint: one of us should run for office and the other would stage the rebellion.
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Allow me to introduce myself sans cringey icebreakers. Hi - I'm Zoe, your new bff, confidant, and lover. On today's episode, we talk about making this year ours and getting the motivation to start doing what you want. Lo and behold episode one.
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