That Dear Diary, - SoundSage

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I made this video a while ago and some of the things that I have said here, like all of my past videos, I disagree with. The one thing I would warn you of are the statements that we cement as [t]ruths. It was relieving for me to say then, "I will always have a fear of being perceived, I will always have a fear of judgement, I will always have a fear of not being perfect enough,". Not that it is a matter of right or wrong, good or bad, for those sayings were necessary for me to begin expressing myself. I needed to begin accepting my fears in order to consciously release them. It is all a part of the process towards growth and healing. I am connected to those lines but I am not attached.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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I need you to know that the entirety of your being matters. Always and forever. The past self that we often rush to forget, the present self that we judge so harshly, the future self that we crave to become. Your voice was always meant to be heard and your feelings never made you weak. Begin to shift your paradigm to a reality where you are divine simply because you exist.

"I love you, I love you, I love you. Doesn't that mean anything at all?"

-if not, shouldn't it?

i'm genuinely so proud of myself, the weeks that this baby has been in my arsenal, i could not stop looking at myself in awe. this is love, huh? to think that i have grown into a person who is finally able to, confidently, express my thoughts and emotions - insane. ESP FROM AN ENVIRONMENT THAT NEVER TAUGHT ME HOW TO VALUE EXPRESSION, FROM RELATIONSHIPS THAT NEVER PRAISED THE FULLNESS OF WHO I AM, WHICH ONLY REFLECTED AND RESONATED W THE LACK OF LOVE I HAD FOR MYSELF - CRAZY. and in the end i was still fighting for unconditional, source love? divine.

also, don't say NOTHING ab the weird cuts in music, that is all :)

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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In this video I walk you guys through the journey that I have been on since 2020; discovering a new found understanding towards the relationship between my ego and my spirit, showing appreciation towards the time COVID has offered me, experiencing two different timelines then eventually creating a new one, accepting and love towards my body, expressing gratitude for the lessons learned, and finally starting again, for the first time.

After experiencing all of this, I don't know how I can ever deny the timing of the Universe.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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What would you do if there were no blockages, no fears, no limits, no risk? What would you do if you were forced with the choice to only do the things that made you happy?

Regardless of the judgements that I could possibly create about myself, nothing can overpower the divinity that I know resides within me. My consciousness is bound by the rules within this dimension while my soul is endless, infinite, and limitless. I have to trust that I am endlessly passionate about the things that I am interested in for a reason, one that my consciousness might not comprehend just yet, and regardless my heart knows it to ring true. My mind does not see the divinity within this plan but my heart abides by it. I cannot deny what I was made to do - it was disrespectful and ignorant for me to think otherwise.

Why not be forced into isolation, deserted, left with no other option but to face the things which make you happy? Why not strip yourself of societal programming? Why not be consciously aware, intune, and online? You might convince yourself that you are lost, feeling as if you do not have a passion or purpose to pursue. But if you consent Truth to introduce itself, you will know exactly what it is that you were created for.

idk when the hell i made this video but i've personally just recently processed it B-) also, CAN WE APPRECIATE THE PERSONAL GROWTH IN REAL TIME EXHIBITED HERE? THE SELF ACTUALIZATION WAS DIVINE! THERE ARE NO MORE LIMITS AFTER THIS - thats a promise.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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I started talking about what unconditional love means to me, then things got a little weird LMFAO.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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as always christina publishes videos weeks after they're made lmfao, there is an evolved tina after this & it's kinda cool to see her growth from 3 weeks ago you'll see her sometime soon :)

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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Everyone has their own version of their best intentions - The Ego is no different. The Ego is the part of your consciousness that interprets the world you are perceiving and your identity within it. When the Ego is healthy there are no illusions and the truth is clear. When the Ego is unhealthy it will misinterpret, misconstrue, and misdirect your fears, worries, and anxieties in an attempt to match what your mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual vibration can handle - in all attempts to protect and serve you.

We are simply a product of our own environment, society, and culture. With that, every decision has led to the next chapter in our evolution. An individual can decide to be whoever they want to be, wherever they want to be, whenever they want to be - when they want to be. This is a statement of understanding, not an excuse for passive acceptance. Humanity is a race that is meant for change, and at some point your Ego will no longer benefit you. If you do not consciously decide what is best for your soul's expansion - your Ego will repetitively create a predictable future.

I've talked about The Ego before, in fact, I copied and pasted most of this very description from my let's talk #8 because it was so good LMFAO. Regardless, this is a continuation of me progressively understanding The Ego, within and beyond myself.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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No one changes without stubbornness, grows without setbacks, learns without difficulty, and releases without resistance. This is simply the cyclical nature of evolution.

In the times where we need a sign of hope, we have continuously heard the line, "Everything that is meant for you will never pass you by,". We relish in the optimism that this message offers, yet, this message is a universal truth - a pillar of eternal wisdom which everyone and everything is subject to. Although, it isn't so easy to apply this affirmation to the things in which our Ego describes as devastating, tragic, or unwarranted.

In this video I talk about the difficulties surrounding the release of people, places, and situations which have truly robbed us of our peace - and regardless, still finding the courage to address resentment, discover the lesson, grant forgiveness, let go, and reestablish a new found harmony. I open up about my relationship with my father which I can only, now, perceive to have gifted me an infinite amount of wisdom surrounding authenticity, resiliency, and self worth. This is, and always was, a healing journey worth experiencing.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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Before becoming consciously aware, I allowed my OCD to manifest in areas of my life where it did not belong, following its rules and believing in restrictions. This unrealistic ideal that I had to attain perfection completely controlled the whole of my being which resulted in habits detrimental to my health. My body dysmorphic disorder and eating disorders were only a natural consequence of what perfection meant to me. In this video, I talk about the passive relationship that I once had with my Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and how I eventually overcame it.

We are creatures of change. We are allowed to adapt and adjust, refine and redefine how we manifest into this world - all in accordance to the alignment of our most authentic selves. I am a vessel containing the infinite Universe whose purpose was to expand and express to all the corners of the cosmos. I allow the Universe the freedom to creatively express itself in whichever way best fits the world I am experiencing. I am not meant to stay as simply this or simply that. No definition, label, or standard can ever, will ever, could ever, would ever define the infinite within me.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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Healing commanded me to find the courage within myself to change. Healing demanded me to get vulnerable in order to face the things which no longer served me. This process has been anything but easy; I was drained, exhausted, tired, and above all - heart broken. At times I found myself going back and forth from respecting myself to resenting myself. Respect for the growth that I have committed myself to, resentment for the healing that I had to do. It was frustrating to see how far I strayed away from the authentic nature of my soul, all in trade for an external acceptance that I never agreed with in the first place. In the end, I accepted who I knew I always was and who I always was meant to be.

Continuing on this path of healing, it was difficult for me to admit that my habits, mindsets, and overall lifestyle did nothing to serve me. I was so used to being able to function on autopilot, copying and pasting what was deemed comfortable for everyone else. I continually accepted where I was at and what was offered to me, never daring to stray from the path I carefully crafted for myself within this world. I realized that my life remained stagnant due to the fear of being criticized and judged. I demonized anxiety, doubt, fear, stress, and worry then avoided it at all costs - not realizing that this was my body's way of communicating that I am simply heading towards new. I could no longer look at this comfort as safe; it threatened the authenticity of my soul, repressed my dreams, and removed my ability to create authentic connections. I thought that my boundaries protected my heart and preserved my character, instead it punished me for wanting to experience life. I'm tired of self sabotaging myself in order to protect this toxic relationship that I have with control and perfectionism. This is not a life worth living. As life begins to unfold for me, it becomes more and more clear that the way I was living might have been safe but it was never fulfilling. I don't know the exact steps to take but I will never move forward if I continually stay in the same spot. I trust that not only will it be good, but it will be better than anything that I could have ever imagined. It's time to fucking live :)

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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In this video I get uncomfortably vulnerable with the truth of my healing process after my experiences with sexual abuse, sexual assault, and sexual harassment. Within this journey I adapted and adopted unhealthy attitudes and toxic ideals that cemented me in a state of fear. I desperately needed to accept that the dishonesty exhibited towards my trauma and the dismissal of my experiences has never served my highest evolution. I deserve to be seen, I deserve to be heard, I deserve to be understood, I deserve to be happy. Although I am still in the process of healing, every step forward has only returned me back to the authentic nature of myself. I will never stay where I have been forced and I allow my heart to carve the path for me. I mean it when I say it; I am no longer living in a state of survival, it's time to fucking live.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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In this video I talk you through my process of straying away from the conventional paths of success and ultimately deciding to choose myself. I was tired of being tired, forcing myself to remain stagnant within my comfortability for way too long to the point that it got uncomfortable. I realized that I was living in a state of fear, constantly preparing for the worst - but I no longer want to survive, I want to fucking live. I released any sense of control and decided to submit and surrender to the flow of the Universe, which ultimately always resides within me anyways. I trust that I can handle anything that comes my way, the same way I have always handled everything else that came my way. This is the beginning of that process for me, let's see where it goes :)

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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A manifestation for you:

"I choose to be the Emperor. I earned my seat at the table and I ground myself in peace knowing that I offer extraordinary things. I choose to believe that I am supported. I choose to believe that I am protected. I choose to believe that I am guided. I choose to follow the inner guidance of the Universe within me. I am whole and I am so deserving of the beauty within this life. I Trust Myself, I Always Know. I am at the right place, at the right time, all the time, everytime. I am exactly where and who I need to be. I am Divinely Aligned with my Life Path and Soul Mission. Everything is always working out best case scenario. I accept and integrate this truth into all of my, (your name), dimensions, generations, planes of existence, realities, and timelines now. I accept and integrate this Truth into my, (your name), Earthly, material, physical, tangible, 3D reality now. It is simple, it is effortless, it is! So be it."

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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just a story time ab how a stubborn hot girl got herself in a sticky situation, all because she didn't listen to the Universe :) enj

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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The perfectionist ego within me constantly and consistently wants to control the conversation. In the midst of all of the guilt, pain, and shame I forget that healing is NEVER linear and progress is HARD. Then you get stuck in this infinite thought loop of asking why - but not answering it. It's hard for me to remember that changing your mind is NOT the same thing as changing your habits. It is so much easier to intellectualize a concept than it is to emotionally understand it & have it physically show through your actions. In this video I talk about releasing the patterns of negative self-talk in trade for awareness, patience, and kindness. The journey of becoming the best version of yourself won't ever just be simple and straightforward, it takes a lot of courage to confront your shadow, change your norms, and admit that the things that once protected us before no longer serve us now. This was just one of those moments for me.

"You don't ever really lose, you either win or learn," - a very smart friend

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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everyone has the desire to be loved and understood. sometimes the chase to create a symbiotic relationship between ourselves and society can manifest itself in unhealthy ways, exchanging our authenticity for acceptance. in this video I talk about the process of losing myself, taking accountability for my discontent, and leaving what I once knew in order to create something better. change invites challenging discomfort and debilitating fear, but most importantly, freedom. freedom from the any kind of cemented identity, freedom to be all that you already are. remember that you are not your mind, you are not your emotions, you are not your body - no definition or label can define you. allow this transformation to wash over you. be aware, forgiving, kind, and patient towards who you have been, who you are now, and who you will be. allow yourself to envision the world that you want, then create ways to make that dream a reality. live the waking dream.

"The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step," - Lao Tzu.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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You are allowed to have boundaries and you are allowed to have standards. The ability to say, "no", should not be thought of as a privileged gift - it is your inherent right to value, honor, and respect your true, authentic soul. If there is ever a sense of uncomfortability to say no, question that sentiment of anxiety that precedes or follows the desire to state your true feelings. Understand that this world functions off of freewill and those who try to make you feel guilty for choosing something other than what they want - do not deserve to be in your life, period. If they do not respect your autonomy - they do not deserve to be in your life, period. Don't allow others to manipulate you into doing something that does not align with your highest self, don't allow yourself to be manipulated into doing something that does not align with your highest self.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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in this video I talk about the dangers of being nice over being kind and it's implementations in the grand scheme of things. we talk about disrespecting your integrity for the fear of acting against an accepted norm. we also contemplate that just because something is comfortably accepted doesn't mean that it deserves its validity. we have to be willing to question, speak, and act against things that are morally wrong - in this way we can help others become the best versions of themselves.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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i might say this every week but i'm not kidding, this was seriously one of the most enlightening experiences of my life thus far. 10/10 would not wanna learn it again, i know now, i got the message, thank you universe hehehehehe

I ALSO WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I HAD TO EDIT THIS TWICE BECAUSE I DELETED THE FINISHED PRODUCT THE FIRST TIME BUCJUCIW, 9 hours GONE LIKE THAT. what a valuable lesson I might add, now I know to slow down and double check before I mindlessly delete sum smh

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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this was a big a$$ lesson for me and i'd love to share it w you guys

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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looking back now I realize I jumped into a lot of big topics with no warning LOL. well .. here ya go :) these are things that I talk, think, and study all of the time so what am i gon do ab it HAHA

1:07 - the universe is always giving signs
9:24 - my karmic cycles w relationships
13:35 - you can make your reality anything that you want (manifestations, placebos)
19:20 - the breaking point & where i am now (stress, frogs, and balding)
29:00 - im serious, relationships aren't easy (be mindful of your dynamic complexities)
31:00 - my trust in the universe
33:00 - deja vus, different timelines, varying dimensions, multiple realities, channels with the future
48:00 - dreams and the paranormal

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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Everyone has their own version of their best intentions - The Ego is no different. The Ego is the part of your consciousness that interprets the world you are perceiving and your identity within it. When the Ego is healthy there are no illusions and the truth is clear. When the Ego is unhealthy it will misinterpret, misconstrue, and misdirect your fears, worries, and anxieties in an attempt to match what your mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual vibration can handle - in all attempts to protect and serve you. In this podcast I share how my Ego has helped me positively, how it has restricted my growth, what it took for me to recognize the inconsistencies in my life, and where the relationship is heading now.

and SORRY it's been a hot minute bc i had other commitments and responsibilities BUT im back and im betta YUM. I started a new job and finals was KICKING MY ASS DUDE (but you know I always got it HAHAHA).

In all seriousness there was a lot of work within me that I needed to focus on. I found myself within a present reality that I did not recognize, and that realization shook me to the core LOL. I felt so inbetween worlds where one foot was barely on the 3D and the other was just in a completely foreign dimension (NO JOKES I WILL MAKE A VIDEO ABOUT THE VISIONS AND MAGIC IN MY LIFE. It's virtually impossible for me to not share my spirituality and the metaphysics of everything that I have learned lmao.) A lot of it had to do with releasing the past, removing my fears about the future, remembering parts of me that I repressed, realizing the present reality, recognizing, accepting, integrating the change - YEAH IT'S A LOT. Even though I stopped uploading for a quick second I never stopped documenting the process of all of this change, I'm ready to share where I've been and who I've become.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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No definition or label will ever be able to truly understand the layered complexities that make you, you. You are not one way or the other, you are nothing. You are free to grow, change, adjust, and adapt to whoever you wish to be, for whatever time that it works, when it works. Then when it doesn't work repeat the cycle again. Attaching yourself to certain narratives or identities is pointless because you are always changing anyways. Then when it doesn't work repeat the cycle again. Accept that you don't know everything so you can begin understanding everything.

Everyone has their own version of their best intentions. You will continually make the best mistakes in every instance of your life. You will do the best that you can with all that you know in that moment. If you allow yourself to, accept that you are in this continuous cycle of rebirth and death, then what follows is rebirth and death, and after that - rebirth and death. Give yourself permission to enter the unknown. Be confident knowing that you will always figure it out, you will always make it out perfectly fine - just as how you have been living up to the point that you are reading this message right now, now, now, now, and now.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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Often times we find it to be so much easier to hate. It is so simple to describe emotions, actions, behaviors, people, and situations with one line and leave it as so. It is difficult to understand the multilayered parts that go into anything we encounter. True strength lies in the ability to understand the narrative of a situation as it truly is. Vulnerability is a strength. Love is the power that makes you fearless to move forward. Allowing yourself and others to live life the way that they want (without immorally harming others) is what makes life so beautifully invigorating. Open your heart and let life happen for you.

The Universe really woke me up at 9AM to film this - THE VIDEO WAS ACTUALLY 40 MINUTES BY THE WAY LMAO but now you guys have the clean and edited version :)

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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relationships are complex. sometimes they are immensely rewarding, sometimes they are devastatingly painful. regardless, there's always a lesson to be found within any relationship that you've been through. healing isn't linear and it is okay to admit that you aren't okay. you gotta feel it to heal it. forgive yourself for the mistakes that you made in the past, and allow yourself to continually make mistakes. open yourself up to opportunities of happiness. you deserve to choose happiness. don't turn to hate to be okay, return to the light. remind yourself of your true, loving, and compassionate nature.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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I see images and stories like this all the time, but this was the first time I trusted what I was seeing and felt confident enough to share it. In the end I got a valuable and freeing narrative. By the way I tried to describe this the best way that I knew how I promise LOL. I am posting this here as a podcast a month after I initially posted it on YouTube, and since then the visions have only gotten clearer, complex, and increasingly insightful. I can't wait to share everything else that has been going on.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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this is just the start of anything right but it's been a good journey so far. this is more of the straightforward, simple, and on the surface explanation of how I began a journey that completely changed my life. as we continue down this road together I will retell more in depth and dynamic storytimes involving my journey with the Universe. the things that I have experienced with Source might seem crazy to some, but at this point I would be crazy to believe that there isn't more outside of this 3D, tangibe, material world.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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All you will ever have is you in this moment right now, now, now, and now. Your energy is valuable and your time is precious, so don't waste it on mindsets, people, and situations that don't serve you. No one else can heal you, that is a conscious choice only you can make. Change is inevitable, transformation is optional. Take control of your mind, heart, body, and spirit through meditation. Simply sit and breathe. When you give yourself the time to reflect you will always find clarity. Understand that the goal is not to remove your thoughts, but to only be aware of them. Only then can you declutter your mind. How can you remove toxicity within your life if you can't even define it? Find it in yourself to build the courage to heal. Respect yourself enough to deserve better. Take everything day by day. When you minimize your goals to focus on just right now, in this moment, today; in no time you'll realize you have traveled farther than you could ever imagine. You earned the right to know yourself. You earned the right to love yourself. You earned the right to be happy.

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨ comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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