Series of Disorganised Thought: Recent Episodes
Tsunamii
A series with no particular order. Journal entries, shower thoughts and notes to self. All in hopes of telling my truth, so that someone will be seen heard and felt though me.
Its easy to get caught up in our guilt, especially when we care about the relationship we may have made a mistake in.
But in this new year we are practicing self forgiveness.
Be kinder to yourself for making mistakes, and you will find that the relationships that fulfil you will be full of people who do the same.
Is it possible to heal from this alone? I don't think so. I'm acknowledging where I'm hurting, that I'm bleeding out, and I don't know how much longer I can sustain myself under these circumstances. I need more help than what I'm finding is available and I'm wondering is there any hope. I hope to listen to this in the future with a smile at how wonderfully my life has transformed beyond this moment. I'm sure even in a weeks time I will be singing my praises for the great way the universe continues to unveil its divine favour. But for now I reserve the right to hold space for my wounding. Acknowledge the pain and how it's impacting me. I know there's another side, but while I am in it, I shall grieve.
when you shift your focus onto that of others you disconnect from your Divinity the ultimate peace is in the knowledge that your desires are in alignment with what the divine has planned for you
feeling extensively passionate about this one! You may just need a passionately assertive affirming reminder of your incredible magnificence. And if you do, you're welcome 😇
just a short reflection to get me back in the swing of these things, how quickly I have forgotten how much I miss this podcast as a creative outlet
STOP pretending you are.
A little pep talk I gave myself, as I began to overthink my response when someone left me on read.
I said what I said, and I meant it then. Just because someone else didn't like it, doesn't mean I should rethink it. Unless they communicate that I caused harm, there's no need to try to reframe it.
A short reminder that hugs are an important part of emotional regulation, and maybe that why I had a meltdown on a random monday afternoon.
I’ve been procrastinating on putting this out because I’ve been caught up in the vortex of energy that is here right now. I love me so much I can’t help but to love you. Date of recording; 9 april 2023
I tried to catch the lyricism that seems to come from walking home barefoot, but as soon as i know i’m being recorded it all falls short 😂
The first episode of season two starts off with some post plant medicine divinely inspired flow. Sitting in the strong, safe, capable arms of a tree and singing. After sharing my creative healing process with a larger audience, I am being validated externally and it’s putting some fire beneath my feet.
Over the past couple of weeks i’ve been singing about how free i am, w we are all free, how this love has set me free. It has moved me in way I couldn’t imagine before. Maybe it will move you too
I’ve recognized that the real power comes in generational collaboration. Not in unyielding guidance, not in blind cooperation, but in tedious, critical thought provoking, love filled collaboration.
More notes to self, processing the round table discussions that have been going on in my month long digital silence. Ive been writing to understand and this is the first piece of many.
More self directed reminders: TLDR: Find/Create the community that feeds/fuels you. The magic that lives within you is much more accessible when you have people supporting you.
Not much to say about this one. But it’s about to be a new moon, so it’s time to articulate your desires in their fullness. I believe you’ll find the life you’ve always imagined for yourself just around the corner then. The fact that I’m even able to visualise myself in the spaces I’m meant to be in makes me just that much more confident that what I’m saying is true.
(Originally published 11.December.2022) I’ve been hesitant to post this this entire week, as the spirit doubt and insecurity and I have been battling. I keep saying that I’m posting unedited, raw clips of my inner monologue. These are all messages to myself, and in listening to them I keep finding things to edit, remove or rephrase. I’ve been hiding from being witnessed, and potentially being exposed for imperfection. But this whole podcast is a declaration of my proud imperfection. I inspire from my sheer force of being, and that means all the mistakes, fumbles and accidents. I hope you pull inspiration from this episodes, the ones before, the ones that follow. Thank you for listening.
(Originally posted 20.10.2022)1, 2 and 3. This is a conglomerate piece of journal entries and things I may never say to the one who gave birth to me and the relatives that I’ve tried to hold on to.
(Originally published 28.Nov.2022) I’m scared now, and things aren’t looking good. But in experience, I know this is the best time to be excited because things are about to shoot up and in my favor. Still I’m feeling nervous, anxious, afraid, untethered and wind whipped. So far, I’ve only managed to rely on my memory to remind me of how scared I was before things turned out alright. Now I have a tangible reminder. And the whole internet has access to it too. So if you need a reminder, here you go. Thank you for listening, -Tsunami 💓
(Originally published 25.Nov.2022) I had to listen to this a few times myself, as I’ve been distraught and overwhelmed over the potentially negative impact of some things I cannot control. As much as it is a platitude, a word of solace, not an action or a guarantee of ease, it is the truth. My truth. And if anything said in this episode rang true with you, take it. Hold on to it in your darkest hour and close your ways to feel the warmth of the love that these words hold. I pray peace, joy and prosperity over all who hear me. May it follow you into every venture, trial and triumph. Thank you for listening 💓 -Tsunami
(Originally Recorded 25.April.2021) DAMN GIRL??? 19 years old and you was talking like this???? This was on the drive home from a Fetlife munch in Winston Salem where the entire crowd was all at least 5 years my senior. As I listen back to it, I am not shocked, or surprised that what I said, but I cannot believe that I spoke so profoundly on something I had never experienced. And now that I HAVE experienced what I’m talking about, I realize how much of what I was saying STILL rings true. I feel like I’ve forgotten who I am. I hope that someone will take her to them and see value in them..