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Britt and Sax
We are Britt and Saxon, a married couple in Denver with 2 kids, ages 5 and 7. We are both full time parents and independent working artists (rapper/comedian Old Man Saxon and filmmaker/musician Baby Luck).
Life is busy and messy, and we both do so much and feel so much the other person doesn't appreciate or even know about. So we decided to create this podcast, where we will each sit down separately for 3 minutes, 4 nights a week, Monday thru Thursday, to record what happened for us that day. We will not edit or do multiple takes. When our 3 minutes are up, we stop. Then it's the next person's turn. Simple!
Making this podcast together is our way of doing something consistently and simply, in the midst of all our respective long term creative goals and projects, that often drain us and leave us feeling depleted. We hope you'll come along on this journey with us as we find our way by being candid, honest and most importantly, seeing and listening to each other. We'll do this as long as it helps our marriage.
The shape of the podcast is evolving as we move through grieving Britt's mom. Thank you for your patience and flexibility. Sometimes only Britt goes, and sometimes she goes over!)
Thank you for being here with us! We hope this makes you feel more connected in an increasingly disconnected world.
Link to Our Patreon - www.patreon.com/brittandsax to support us and you'll gain exclusive access to our special Weekend Edition episodes, dropping every Sunday night!
On the weekends, we record our 30 minute Weekend Edition together, where we review the week and finish unfinished business, available exclusively on Patreon for as little as $5/month.
Love,
Britt and Sax
Britt and Nya talk about the unplanned road trip (field trip), mommy hurting herself getting some rage (outrage) out at the Rage Room with a metal baseball bat, Gracie the dog died,...and more!
Britt sits at City Park and tries to remember where she's been and what's happened since May, including her Feeding Your Demons retreat, being offline, cancelling airplane trips, the end of year busyness of school, talent shows and poetry - and now - summertime with camps and insomnia and mountain trips. Her mom passed away July 13th - somehow Britt's made it through this year. She has a new therapist, and new neighbors, and no idea where her ambition went. Saxon will be back joining her this week for a couple's episode. Until then, we love you.
Britt misses her mom, immunizations for Philippines, marriage changes, and they stole the free sign from the front yard. Britt wishes she could laugh about this with her mama, so she records this instead. Winter is thawing out and the girls are riding bikes and becoming more and more of who they are. Britt tries to give herself grace and time around her creative projects and Saxon's at the gym. We will always be sad. And we are alive now.
Before Britt goes to LA and Saxon joins her, Britt puts life on record in advance of flying tomorrow. For the record, she needs her kids to be cared for by Jaja and Pa. And she needs the godparents to step into the role. And if you don't know or aren't sure, let's talk. It will take a village. It already does. This is Britt's first birthday without mama. Nya doesn't want her to go. She is hella emotional, as usual. And needs to do her will and advance directive. We love you. I love you Seylah and Nya.
Britt has Covid as soon as she slows down. The universe will sit you down. Saxon and Britt's 8th anniversary (since they met in Palm Springs) is Dec 31st. Kuumba is the 6th day of Kwanzaa - Creativity - this is fitting for us, our life, what we are constantly creating and evoling and uncovering together. Looking forward to making and creating miracles in 2024.
On the train, en route to the airport in the snow with numerous flight delays, to see Britt's dad (Pa) on Dec 26th, Britt breaks down, flight is cancelled, Pa is called, we turn around and go home.
Britt cries in her car again. Saxon decides to stop doing the podcast. Our life is not content, may we find contentedness in being present more than recording. But I also really believe in recording and time stamping as a way to create culture and history and stay present and listen. A bit of a puzzle but we are figuring it out. Is it helpful to me, to our marriage, to our listeners? It's not helpful for Saxon so he's taking a pause. I am deciding what I want and need to do. For now, I am going into hibernation until January to cry, dream, winter, clean the house and grieve my mother. Thanksgiving was BRUTAL. I don't expect Christmas to be any easier. Seylah's birthday is this weekend. We are here. We love you. Thank you for going on this ride with us. We'll see in you in January - and you can always join Britt on The Overflow - her substack offering - https://imbabyluck.substack.com/
Lots going on - talking to kids about death and funerals, tears, slideshows, playlists, tasks, anxiety, gratitude, tapping, regrets, anger, resistance, love and family members. All of it's going down as we prepare to fly to Oakland to have this memorial/service/celebration of life - like a surprise party because you don't know who's coming - and a wedding in the size and scope of planning and prep. Wish us luck and we'll see you on the other side!
We've all been sick (except Saxon) for two weeks. Kids are coughing so much they have to stay home. Saxon's pitching me a horror film where a kid coughs for a year and the parents slowly descend into madness....
It's couple's therapy with no therapist! We finally sit at the same table to check in about what's been happening. Grief is the main attraction. Also work, non profits, money, poop, shame, farts, medical issues, horror films, bodies, botox, wrinkles, love, marriage, sex therapy and lots of trucks drove by. Thanks for your patience and flexibility with us as we move through this intense season of grieving. Love B and S
high recommend - Tibetan Imports - Sarita will tell you what's up in the stars. It's spectacular, helpful, healing and calming.
Britt finally spits in the cup, in 2 weeks she'll know what's happening in her genetic body. Scared but needs to know. Saxon and B went to Vail for an adult's only birthday weekend. Talked about money, investment, love. We got our horoscopes done. Britt's so bloated the kids asked if they were going to be big sisters. Lots of grief and stress around the memorial and going through old photos of Britt's mom. Saxon is sick.
I can't cook for my mom anymore, but I can cook lots of chili, vegan tacos and meatballs for my family. All alive. Always hungry.Instead of making a long list and plan and calendar events I am forced to adhere to or else I feel tremendous guilt, what if I did wake up and see how I felt and what I felt like doing? Why does that feel so irresponsible?
Britt finally has a moment alone at home to feel into what is actually going on and faces her anxiety and realizes making plans is for the birds. I'm anxious, just like my mom. And - rebirth. I don't have to be like her to love her and miss her. I can pick up where she left off....growth instead of repetition.
Britt tries to record the podcast but Nya is happening. It was their first day of K and Sey's 1st day of 1st. Mommy has not slept more than 4 hours in a row for over 40 days.
It was a whirlwind, scattered, exhausting, emotional and beautiful trip to Oakland, Santa Cruz and Monterey with Pa. We got the death certificates and then lost them and then found them. One of many examples of the chaos that is grieving.
B managed to record one episode on our family trip to California in honor of Grammy. This marks the beginning of Season 2.
Saxon shares the voice memo he recorded for JB that Britt played for her on her last day in the hospital, July 12th. Britt held it up to her mom's ear as she laid next to her in the hospital bed. Her eyes were closed, but she smiled as she listened. You never know when it will be the last thing you say to someone.
Britt talk/cries in the Korean spa after a weird massage and tries to put words to this experience.
Britt wishes she could call her mom, and tries to make sense of this stage of fresh grief. I love you mom. I miss you so much mom.
more of britt with mom at hospital as she navigates nurses, care, sponge baths, love, singing, medicines, ivs, emergencies, and more love.
Britt records a voice memo in her car trying to explain what is happening and what has happened in the midst of grief. Her mom is back in the hospital so she's boarding a flight to Oakland tonight and she forgot her purse on the way to the store to get camp snacks and rx refills.
Brittany talks about what happened on her week in Oakland. Saxon did not participate in this podcast because he was too busy answering all of Seylahs 4000 questions.
Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 5/30/23 and 6/1/2023 because Saxon forgot to post yesterdays episode
Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 4/26/2023Wedding Registry - https://www.amazon.com/wedding/saxon-kincy-brittany-ballard-denver-april-2023/registry/C5E3RW44YAOS
Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 4/24/2023Link to Our Registry - https://www.amazon.com/wedding/saxon-kincy-brittany-ballard-denver-april-2023/registry/C5E3RW44YAOSLink to our Wedding Song - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFnxIerNY64
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 3/13/2023
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 3/9/2023
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 3/8/2023
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Britt and Saxon have a weekend edition sort of talk on a Monday.
Lots of topics were discussed on this one!
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 3/01.2023
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 2/28/2023
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 2/27/2023
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 2/23/2023
Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 2/7/2023
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 1.30.2023
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 1/22/2023
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Britt and Saxon talk about Seylah feeling left out at school, moving to Africa, and what they are thankful for in each other.
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Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on 1/11/2023
Britt and Saxon talk about what happened on the January 6th weekend
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