Disabled domestic dad’s diary: Recent Episodes
Shaun Clark
I wanted to start a diary for my children to get to know me better.
I will list my house work, I will discuss philosophy, spirituality, environment. I will talk about personal history, Disabilities, having cancer.
I’ll bring up ideas on woodworking, child raising... whatever really comes to mind.
A post summer update good and bad and some ideas of changes I would love to see made to try to help people.
A basic rundown have the last week because I've been too tired to do a daily journal yet. Gotta build myself back up to these late nights it's after 11 PM. I'm an old man.
Also my charity idea for how to help people disabilities gain extra groceries. It sucks that it actually states you cannot use a charity to help fight poverty in the booklet I read.
First entry from a long hard winter
My favourite idea right now for the government a commodities tax and just a little bit about my day ends in the winter that we missed out on.
Journal for Sunday, November 14, 2021. Definitely not Valentine's Day. Reaching out to add some house tonight for help. And trying to get mom to help out around the house. Basketball today for you Riley, Xan you walked home. Minor meltdown for you Xan when I tried to convince you to clean your room.
Diary for Saturday, November 13 2021. I could not slide stop sleeping today. Too much screen time for you boys
Diary for Friday, November 12, 2021. You guys are out for a hockey game with mom and it's after 10 PM so I'm going to do my diary and go to bed without you coming home.. walking shoe B, learned more and more about my disabilities, seizures. Week tonight not a lot of strength. Looking good though. Need to shower more often. Story ideas, enjoying DND.r
Thursday, November 11, 2021. Remembrance day. Went to shoot the park as a family, you boys did the weird bike thing, met some fun people. Day at home together as a family after that naps, saw Grumpy, watch movies hung out.
Diary for November 10, 2021, Wednesday. Riley's birthday, fifth birthday. Beaver party canceled. Sorry buddy. Xan to the rescue! I had disability meeting, housing meeting. And Riley and I plan to practice basketball in the basement.
Diary for Tuesday, November 9, 2021 the day before Riley's birthday. Mom's butter cream icing is not my favorite. Mom's new buttercream icing is far from my favorite. Xan I do not like the preteen us, but I prefer it to the team as I think. Time will tell. Riley you're a four year old from one more day. Wild and crazy and carefree.
Diary for Monday, November 8, 2021 Xan you had a bad day, and the preteen snideness is so painful. Riley you had a great day, and you're full of energy and beans.
Diary for Sunday, November 7, 2021. Saw great uncle Bruce and cousin Ryan and great granddad. Great grandad gave you guys mustard pickles and jam in five dollars each! Xan you have had a day of awesomeness I forgot to mention your blacksmithing. You bought yourself a hammer and started hammering out a piece of metal of the practice blacksmithing you're teaching yourself. You wan. Riley you went to Nanny's, but didn't get to watch your kung fu panda movie I'll have your brother watch it with you soon. You were two to overtired to watch it. You had gotten up early with me. Or gotten me up early I should say. Cursed daylight savings time!
Diary for Saturday, November 6, 2021. Bit of a day. Marriage worries, money worries, looking for a job as a disabled person sucks. Trying to get help from the government sucks. Riley we were at the playground past your bedtime tonight.
Diary for Friday, November 5, 2021 I washed the bathtub and Xan you did a whole piece on this for me thank you. Interview with a preteen.
Diary for November 4, Thursday, 2021. I forgot to publish this right away, so I have no idea what's in it
Diary for November 2 and third, 2021 Tuesday and Wednesday. My anxiety was too high after being harassed by a Karen at the community centre to do my diarrhoea last night. I was using my pocket saw to smooth out a cane I was working on and she called the police on me for having a blade in public. I was so rattled I lied to Scotty and I hate that. Other things going on involve me emailing and contacting us of any groups and people and government bodies as I can to try to get us assistance.
Diary for Monday, November 1, 2021. Trying to get help from federal government, Darren Fisher, Justin Trudeau, Carla cut clue troll control I can't remember how to spell her name. Xan you're homesick for the day I cleaned my dishes cleaned my floors I still have to do more. Xan you are rested a lot Riley you fell off the swing I forgot to mention that and Harrison said more bad words. Carla Qualtrough
October 30, 31st diary Halloween. Excellent day Saturday, Scotian Shores clean up at all the knee with the costumes. One cookies for most interesting, would've won a prize for most amount if they had one. Went downtown for pay Nova Scotia pagan association meeting, went to public library, went to neighbourhood which, went to public gardens did not get enjoy my meeting. Went to the wave, the submarine playground. Missed the Maritime library, but got to go to strange adventures. Got a ferry ride home did not get to go to garden. Sunday we had a lazy day your voice watch movies and TV, Xan you had to have a Covid test and anxiety attack. Nanny is having a rough time with her health. And went to go trick-or-treating xan you got sick came home early, with a cold. Riley and I continued out longer. I had to drag you home. Lots of candy you guys had lots of fun Grumpy came gave us a pizza and bunch of candy for your boys.
Diary for Friday, October 29, 2021. Almost Halloween… Riley dressed as a popsicle, Xan dressed as a man in black. Both had movie days at school, I didn't dress up. Mom took me to value Village and I tried on quite a few fancy gowns. I want to be a princess.y
Diary for Thursday, October 28, 2021s and you took a day off Riley took a game boy, but wasn't allowed to play it. I found out I failed at CPPD replying, and I'm trying in a different way.
Diary for October 27, 2021 emergency message, not for me phone locked out, accidentally dialled 911, did laundry.
Diary for Tuesday, October 26, 2021. Waiting for the rain. Period. Period. Period. Tired today I had long naps didn't get as much done mom had a bad day Riley had a good nap trying to get rid of evil soccer I had a bad bath too short. I'll done love you good night
Diary for Monday, October 25, 2021. Trip to student loans, attempted MLA, walk home. Make smoothies, clean kitchen, go get Riley. Big walk with Riley, shopping trip looking for gifts, no luck, but a pair of shoes and a pair of boots for Riley. Back home, Xan and Liam are playing, mom came home early to work with Xan, Riley tantrum, Riley taught us ask a song from his school. Xan cadet night, Riley shower bed, fell asleep in Riley's room. Good night.
Diary for Sunday, October 24, 2021. Family movie, trip to the park after dark, Nanny story time. Mom early morning meeting, groceries. Ignore the part where your mother jumps out at me and ice cream, I am very macho. Love you guys
Diary for Saturday, October 23, 2021. Apple day with scouts Canada for beavers. Watched how to drain your dragon for the first time with you Riley you loved it.
Diary for Friday, October 22, 2021 not much happening today cleaning and making messes all together.tr
Journal for Thursday, October 21, 2021. Frustrating. Accidentally did a journal update without actually pressing record. Hey not a lot to say today, great meeting with an SLEL. Thanking about your boys growing up a lot. Lying on the floor right now looking up at mom's plants I think it's just how badly it's dying. Got to go check my garden tomorrow.
Diary for Wednesday, October 20, 2021. Couldn't get my laundry done, Riley Peed on the bed, got mom's heavy heavy blanket washed. Beavers made me a ghost light.
Diary for Tuesday, October 19, 2021. This is my diary, I am having a rough time, and it helps to have a diary to talk it out with. Tired today, slightly depressed and anxious.
Diary for Monday, October 18, 2021. Nova Scotia sucks for helping the disabled. Nova Scotia government sucks for helping the families. Learning about neuroscience, economy, history. Sometimes I together. Excuse me tired yawning. 2 1/2 hour phone call. No help. Trip to Bears Lake got shoes for you Riley. Many hand-me-down clothes. Very good. Remember Xan showing respect doesn't mean you need to have respect.
Diary for Saturday, October 16, 2021. I am leaving the title I think it's fine. Tired because it's actually after midnight. We had an outing which is good your mom needed to get out. I want to dish soap! It's been days I need to do my dishes! I want to bath! I have showers it says I am lazy and want to have a nice relaxing bath. Nocturn art exhibit.
Diary for Friday, October 15, 2021. Oncology appointment today. MRI good results. Still a little scared because of the tumour is still there. You guys have perks Nanny up. Candy party. Lovet
Diary for Thursday , october 14, 2021. Very tired again maybe I had a big day not a lot of interesting things sorry but big day. Anti-VA or's are annoying me. I know way too many.
Diary for Wednesday, October 13, 2021 I need help with CPPD. You guys do amazing coloring. Riley you had a major tantrum.
Diary for rTuesday, October 12, 2021. Depressed today. Missed Chi Gong, so cleaned the living room instead. Adventure with Riley! Talk with Xan! Cranky little people you and your mother Xan. Cancer fighters. Cancer survivors?
Monday, October 11, 2021 happy Thanksgiving! Walking shoe B park! Slept in this morning, got to make the bacon. Less than a month till your birthday now Riley. No plans.
Journal for Sunday, October 10, 2021. Happy Thanksgiving, we are all tired. My ranting about how in accessible or accessibility problems that dungeons and dragons D & D fifth edition have. DND beyond is awful it is beyond inaccessible
Diary for Saturday, September 9, 2021. I keep falling asleep. Xan you're busting your way over to Nanny's, after helping clean up your room and their house. Riley your room was looking much nicer, you missed it on your festival tonight, but I did take you out to the park in the playground. I keep falling asleep. Good night.
Diary for Friday, October 8, 2021. A long day. MRI, terrified about results. Go to chat with lots of people, some nice some not so much. Found Riley's shark megalodon. Could not bring myself to apply at the hotel as a room cleaner. Somebody pulled up the carrots in my garden almost all of them. Healthy living conversation with Xan. Library close to fire and ice festival. Made bucket awesome bucket! Riley asleep within five minutes tonight, Xan home late.
Diary for Thursday, October 7, 2021. Today was boring. Your mother started me a fansly account, and put up naughty pictures. I just wanted pictures of me doing housework in address.
Diary for Wednesday, October 6, 2021. Tired, sick Xan talk to your guidance counselor, you went to bed before Riley. Riley beavers beaver teeth, Beavertail. Beaver dodgeball. And you're friends with the Peter.
Journal for Tuesday, October 5, 2021. Still sick! Riley at school fine Xan at school honestly fine play at Park, how's work, deep freeze. Soccer, karate, story time. Xan school guidance counsellor only 50% of the time. Spoke to vice principal about anxiety attacks.
Diary for Monday, October 4, 2021. Talk to the doctor, got beaten up by my youngest, discussed life with my eldest.
Journal for Sunday, October 3, 2021 heavy entry. Money problems, job problems, health problems. I'm sorry we don't have a more blessed life guys I'm trying my best.
Diary for Saturday, October 2, 2021 still sick. Taking medicines that are expired and or out of date because no doctor will see me. Another Covid test. Went to market enjoyed myself. Had a good day with my boys. Love you guys very much. My favourite movie is…
Journal for Friday, October 1, 2021. Sick again, 811 sent me to emerge, I broke out. Emerge has bad seats, the Dartmouth general emergency room seating is actually bad for people to sit in it can cause damage to them. The ideas tonight involve my dream of dresses, my fondness for farmers, my powering planes, etc.
Journal for Thursday, September 30, 2021. Still sick, awful father today. Love you boys so much. Teddy rocks been rocks. Gummy bears are so good. I didn't ask how you thought of Chippendale's rescue rangers.
Journal for Wednesday, September 29, 2021. Still sick. School for boys, mom came home and napped woke me up. Xan you made dinner really good. Riley you started beavers. Made friends.
Diary for Tuesday, September 28, 2021. Still sick. Riley first day of soccer. Xan friend. Wife sex!
Journal for Monday, September 27, 2021, curry, mushroom burger. Cranky babies. Way too many video games in. Another Covid test.
Diary for Sunday, September 26, 2021. I am sick today. An SLEO meeting. Date with wife. Still sick.
Diary for Saturday, September 25, 2021. Got a cold. Had a bath did some dishes put away the laundry, and spend time with family. Played with my sticks and stones.p
Diary for Friday, September 24, 2021. I just had to wake up to do this part of my diary. I fell asleep on the couch sitting up. Almost fell face first on the floor. Today we went to another protest this one for the ecology action climate crisis skip school day. We go down there and wait, as I was like museum play video games and Riley you were having a rough morning. I didn't even think to stop on the way down there to check for Riley shark, and we miss the parade part of the protest because I was busy exploring bus routes I'm sorry guys. At the park we did have a good ignore the verbal diarrhoea from earlier. It was a good day private public gardens park shops fairies gardens playground home miss my baby. Now I need to go to bed I love you boys I love you I love you I love you
Diary for Thursday, September 23, 2021. I made eggs and mom made bacon, you boys need to eat more. Protest day, made lunches went to protest talk to lots of people had fun chatting with more disabled people too. Got a special treats for my boys Xan you love ranting I enjoyed and parting information in the earlier we can talk about the difference if you like violent arrest at the protest.
We left then Xan you did library Riley we did garden Dr. Jason Grammie Carole's Nanny's etc. so on and so forth.
Diary for Wednesday, September 22, 2021 Lego my Eggo all, footprint on one side animal shape on the other. Especially good for woolly mammoth and dinosaurs. Or sabertooth kitties. Tired tonight, of course because it's late at night and we played a lot today Riley, Xan you're doing great. I'm doing a bunch of social media stuff and need to check my emails now I love you good night
Diary for Tuesday, September 21, 2021. Chi gong, walking, raising awareness. Raising my own consciousness, learning more about myself, including muscles that I didn't think I would ever use again. Good day to be your dad boys. Riley you're tired out from being sick, and saying you are you are you and I am very proud of you.
Diary for Monday, September 20, 2021. Dishes are done, most laundry is done, Riley has been cared for. Darren Fisher from the liberals looks like he got elected again which is awful for us as a family of low income people with people with disabilities in it. Riley you had a big fall today, and no screens at all. The cat is sleeping in my other wet laundry. Got to go to bed now have a lovely day bye-bye
Diary for Sunday, September 19, 2021. Dartmouth Street fair, top things are free treats, meeting Allison's daughter cat, Joe and his awesome tetra bike, Singh Ashley and Elise. Ashley and Elise are the tops! Riley you're still sick, so your dad is still exhausted. Xan you spent the day at the library on your own exercising your independence from your parents. I will not tell your mother you only looked at books to have an alibi for playing video games for three or four hours straight. Mom made lasagna and totally messed up my kitchen, also in grocery shopping. Groceries have gotten very expensive.
Diary for Saturday, September 18, 2021. Riley still sick, 4:30 AM was my wake up today. Oh dog Riley back to the hospital, chest x-ray. Up I had a vet appointment, mom forgot and had to do it later. What does honour mean to me, part one of whatever. We were did some working together as a woodworking family thing.
Diary entry for Friday, September 17, 2021. Still exhausted Riley you're still sick, still running a fever, still coughing all night. NDP federal leader meeting. Picture. Mom disappointed. Xan you babysat your brother, did great, anxieties all for nothing. My soup turned out great
Diary entry for Thursday, September 16, 2021. Nanny's birthday, Riley is sick with the group still. Did not sleep well of course. Xan you are amazing. Riley you are awesome. Made way too much beef something. Maybe soup maybe stew may be a mess. Made breakfast wraps froze them. And did dishes. Really worried about mom's job.
Diary entry for a Wednesday, September 15, 2021. Riley has the croup, not the Covid, we checked. I'm not feeling my best either, nor is anyone else in the family. Beyoncé in there. And Riley you and mom spent the entire day at the I WK, while Xan you had a bully. And a good day at school besides.
Diary for September 14 Tuesday, 2021. Very tired Riley you had nightmares last night, I talk a bit about self-love, Riley is sick today, Xan you did not want to come home, mom came home early. I voted today, for a party I've never voted for before. We had dinner out tonight because we were too tired to cook. I signed you up for a new activities in, , And started Chi gong for myself. I like Chi gong
Journal for Monday, September 13, 2021. It's a Monday new trees were planted, emails were done, floors were swept and. My emails were interesting I'm especially excited about volunteering and looking for work
. I am listening to an audio biography of Alexander Hamilton no. And I am learning about technology
Diary for Monday, September 13, 2021. Uncle Jonathan and family at Smitty's, talking with aunt Melora about paganism and crafting. Enjoying my time with my family. Diarrhea. Getting treats. Secret treats.. all my dishes are done! What is your ideology? How has it changed to since you were younger? How do you think it will change in the future future?
Diary for Saturday, September 11, 2021. Mom is in the wrong time of the month, and so is cranky. Head to market head to Cleves and Walmart gateway and nannies back home. I went to the library where they have baby pictures of you boys. We spend a nice day together, and I end up falling asleep in your room Riley. Until you cuddle me out of bed. Also my rant about 9/11
Journal for Friday, September 10, 2021. Foggy rainy day I could not see the fire trucks going out on the street with their sirens and lights for the fog. Heard all about your classmates Riley, and a bit about yours is in. Riley you are enjoying your puppet theater, Xan you are liking school you use the word awesome in relation to it. Trying to find you cooking classes and Riley trying to keep you entertained without screens.
Journal entry for Thursday, September 9, 2021. A good day, got a nice walk and checked the garden, looked at some sticks. Talk to some people I've missed, people whose names I do not remember. Did some cleaning around the house, did not throw my phone across the room to hit a wall no matter how much I want to do. Got you guys from school made sausages, made good meals. Love you
Diary entry for Wednesday, September 8, 2021 and Tuesday, September 7, 2021. Big update first day of school for 2021 2022 school year, debate, greens parties good PPC's are bad, your mother bought new phones for us and tried to update them from home. Long day today lost meat gained meat lost funds
Monday, September 6, 2021. Labour Day. Bad sleep, very tired and headachey sore cranky. Missed Grumpy's birthday, and great grandpa Hannrahan is in the hospital. Did not get to talk to Greg Grampa Parker like I enjoy doing, although he did tell me about catching people making a pornographic movie in the park and giving the toys to the secretary of the park. I fell asleep after Lunenburg no Liverpool. On the drive home and did not wake up again until mom need a break at exit 11. Went from there straight home mom carried up the big bag of laundry all by herself then you and I got the rest. Called Nanny helped her out. Made lunch, unpacked. 10:20 PM and I'm still awake.
Diary for Sunday, September 5, 2021. Mom stole all my money for the market, and yelled at me for spending too much money. We saw a blue heron, a deer poop, a rabbit. Tonks is a silly stinky cat. And mom head of the desserts.
Journal for Friday, September 3, Saturday, September 4, 2021. Travelling to my in-laws, playing with my nephews, loving my wife.
My little boy is turning into a teenager, my other little boy is trying to imitate the 10 minute teenager. Math arguments, treat temper tantrum's, dirty laundry, dirty floors. MP candidate called. Still waiting for a good choice.
Diary entry for Wednesday, September 1, 2021. A long day in the sun with my son, having fun. Went to protest delivered food and talked about many things. Did not do enough housework today. Did not do any housework today. Riley I discuss your problem here.
Journal entry for Tuesday, August 31, 2021. Big day today, towards Xan's new school, went swimming, had walks, went to moms work, went to other places, lost a megalodon, saw a research chip and got teased for it, had snacks, fed us student, had a good day.
Diary for August 30 which is a Monday of 2021. I wonder if city Council is going to vote to not give themselves a pay raise tomorrow or not big old? There? I also wonder if I'm going to stay awake much longer. Seizure today, yelled at my boys, boys had rough days as well. Made split pea soup which I'm very proud of.
Diary for Sunday, August 29, 2021. Bad parenting Scooby Doo. Tenant rights surprises. I am learning about earth worms.
Diary for Saturday, August 28, 2021. Feels like napping was the big part of my day. Never mind the gigantic load of laundry we tackle together guys thank you for all your hard work.
Diary for Friday, August 27, 2021. Two beaches today, plenty of walking in the heat, lots of bug bites and chafing. Your mother is annoying that's all
Diary for Thursday, August 26, 2021. Beach, scary that lessons are ending tomorrow. Choco Mintone mint chocolate. Lots of laundry done. So hot 40°C. Lots of D&D stuff with you Xan.
Diary for August 25, 2021. Heat wave tired brain injuries are no fun. National Disability conference.
Diary for Tuesday, August 24, 2021. Hard night last night, swimming was fun today!, Hot travels with the cooler, Riley off to a paw patrol movie. Xan and I went to D and D, DM was more interested in story than make-believe. Xan was unimpressed by DM, still had fun though. I was unimpressed by noise as I could not use my voice reader very well.
Diary entry for Monday, August 23, 2021. I am so exhausted I do not want to be awake today. You guys are so exhausted you did not argue bedtime, and he voluntarily napped. Today was the first day of the last set of swimming lessons for the summer of 2021. Your mama did a lot of work on your guises fall schedules, and a lot of plant stuff. As well as helping me with my stuff. Got to go to bed.
Diary entry for Sunday, August 22, 2021. Great grandma's 80 something family reunion and birthday. Possibly not in that order. Xan you're tired, Riley you're tired. Saw Sam, his girlfriend, great on Paris, great uncle Brian, great aunt Trish, great uncle Alan, great grandma, Gigi, grandpa, Max and Simon and their significant others, Richard, and Danielle and Violet, Rebekah Thomas Ava and Ezra, I don't remember who else. No one deadnameded Uncle Jack and use proper pronouns, others denied climate science or insulted Canada. I had talks about Anime, D and D, environmental sciences, activism, religion, and many other subjects. Riley you picked your favour for today, Xan Maddie encouraged you to no end so I guess she was your favorite. I wish we could talk with people like Max and Simon more often.
Diary for Friday, August 20, and Saturday, August 21, 2021. Also accidental recap of Thursday, August 19. Travel to PEI to pick up Xan from camp, no moose. Great tub, bad floor. Wonderful breakfast, milkshake. Great park, excellent camp! Ice cream is for all on the way home, cheeseburgers for mom, cheeseburgers for boys and I and sodas for mom and boy. Xan gamemaster award, second place in camp Olympics, cool Cheetos can't commercial, bad points of camp. Home bathroom, bed for mom, clean up, hand washing shirts. All the dishes are done for the night.
Journal entry for Thursday, August 19, 2021. Halifax housing riots 2021. Comic books, clean room, shower, clean house. Xan your weighted blanket is much weight here after getting wet with water. Off to great grandma's house for Riley, then to Gigi's. Your mother is annoying! And I love her!!p
Journal for Wednesday, August 18, 2021. Migraine, police brutality and Halifax, missed a protest.
Diary entry for Tuesday, August 17, 2021. Riley daddy day. Riley has found religion, my thoughts on Riley finding religion and mistakes I've made. Go to auntie Alex. Fun day together. Miss you Xan. Provincial election tonight. Tell you pathfinder and dungeons and dragons.the results tomorrow.
Diary for Monday, August 16, 2021. Rested most of the morning, garden in the afternoon, Clement Street playground, Maynard Park playground, exercise playground, Meta Nabor, inside resting.
Journal entry for Sunday, August 15, 2021. PEI day two, visiting Katrina, Charlottetown, Camp triumph triumphant camp. Back home, schlepping bags upstairs, getting things away. Boo Boo and Uoo Boo
Diary for Saturday, August 14, 2021. Free comic book day, packing, Junque barn, PEI, Xan anxiety Riley being silly for attention, PEI beach. Hiding in the car for some alone time.
Journal for Friday, August 13, 2021. Werewolves eat me this time I'm so sleepy I'm dreaming about werewolves. Awesome adventure day!
Voting done, protest for disability rights, fairy trips, playing at the park, library trip, voting done, many more.
Journal for Thursday, August 12, 2021. Hot today, didn't eat a lot then feed you a lot didn't do a lot. Laundry done a lot, went to rainbow Haven.
Diary for Wednesday, August 11, 2021. Xan you were coming home early Riley we did not do a lot puzzle your amazing memory Riley.
Journal for Tuesday, August 10, 2021. Helping Nanny, worrying about Nanny. Going to the debate. Big day with Riley guy.
Journal for Monday, August 9, 2021. Moving furniture, cleaning floors, being a bad parent. Homework, housework, missing my oldest. Riley you had tantrums tonight a lot. And I ended up having to sing you to sleep.
Journal entry for Sunday, August 8, 2021. Key fob found! Riley is getting lonely. Xan is at camp! They already card! Horse P, playing ball, cleaning the car. Blood mage for DND still being worked on. And Xander puberty update.
Diary for Saturday, August 7, 2021. Playing ball with Riley, searching for mom's car key, Xan second shot and mom second shot. Seeing the horses at the Bengal Lancers, owls head protest, public gardens. Naps, trip to Conrad's Beach, getting everybody to bed super late. Dungeons and dragons blood magic is all for evil players.
Diary for Friday, August 6, 2021. I am breaking inside. And P member of parliament Darren Fisher refuses to assist. Canadian pension plan for people with disabilities CPP D was sent to the wrong office. The rain is coming down. We need help.
Journal for Thursday, August 5, 2021. Tired! Big green, shoreline clean Up, bad BBQ. Riley being well filled. Xan being disappointed. Conrads bad day. Is it racism?
Diary for Wednesday, August 4, 2021. Big adventure day reckless Riley, rambunctious Riley, risky Riley, really Riley. Bus trip to the to the library, ferry to Halifax, walk to the museum, walk through the gardens, walk to the optometrist, walk to the hobby shop, walk to the witch store magic store, walk to the Starbucks, back through the gardens, to the car drive home. Spoke with game café about DND for Zan, elections Nova Scotia about homeless voting. Mention yesterday's trip again. Did not mention annoying wife inpoint Pleasant park. Spring Garden Road all pulled up. Percy Jackson.
Journal for Tuesday, August 3, 2021. I need to shave. Adventure to Ron's Army Navy, Candy Shoppe, moms work, nannies, Dr. Jay's, garden, home. Cranky wife anxiety son and temper mental son.
Journal for Monday, August 2, 2021. Natal day, emancipation day. Tired today. Riley invited my in-laws, and took them to Costco. Discussing Xan's latest book, runic alphabets, artistic endeavor. My dislike of my medication. Xan wants to make a D&D game, Mrs. DND. And pities me for my exhaustion after house work. I did laundry, dishes, took Riley out for an adventure.
Journal for Sunday, August 1, 2021. Poor sleep, sick children, something else. Xan's recording of his time at camp Long Lake the camp he did not like.
Diary for Saturday, July 31, 2021 and McCaffrey.Pern numbweed dragon. Tired, sick children, parental duties. In-law nightmare. Another Covid test. Exhaustion today, very little housework done by me, Xan you are amazing.
Diary for Friday, July 30, 2021. VRoom vroom, beep beep! My ADHD is high tonight! Extinction level event here, global catastrophe! Xan back from camp experience! Fighting for homeless rights! Riley vomited. Xan is sick
Journal for Thursday, July 29, 2021. Conspiracies, espionage, etc. New toilet seat, splinters on my bum. Nova Scotia election, voting homeless, NDP, green party. I fantasize about working. House work doesn't count. I do enough of that.
Diary for Wednesday, July 28, 2021. Learning how dehumidifiers work, and losing my financial independence.
Diary for Monday, July 26, 2021. Forgot to do my diary. Very tired woke up to finish it. Call from CNIB, finish letter for CPPD, emailed Green party representative to discuss platform. Listen to two new he-man show on Netflix.
Journal entry for Sunday, July 25, 2021. Forgot the tagline, added that in mentioned about Dr. Bravestone from Jumanji being a white washed as a toy. Riley you are upset. Just dropping Xan off at camp today coming home. Hopefully more to say tomorrow. I’ve been up since 5 AM after a rough night sleep because your mother can’t keep your hands away from my blankets.
Journal entry for Saturday, July 24, 2021. Grandpa and Gigi’s house still, spend time with my nephews, my son, my in-laws, my wife. Forgot to mention uncle Jonathan and the podcast. Went to Park went through Roch’s downtown met a green party representative. Xan’s first date, no good night kiss. Mom embarrassed by Xan’s texting at night. Good night
Journal for Friday, July 23, 2021. Long drive to pick up Xan from camp big Cove, bison, playing, weird guy in bathroom. Xan had an OK time weird bruise on his ribs, and very tired. And my nephews are here at your grandparents house. My nephews are awesome.
Diary for Thursday, July 22, 2021. I wish I could do politics, and try to help people. I really want to help people. Talking about the liberals in their snafu with their candidate here in Dartmouth South. Riley we had a really great day, even if we did not go anywhere.
Journal for Wednesday, July 21, 2021. Did I eat my carrots while recording this? Today was the day. Talk about my arm, rant about people not working together. Little more action lot less talk. Missing you Xan
Diary for July 20, 2021. Good day for me and that’s what matters isn’t it, I have time with my son singular. I got to go visit my mother. I got to go see the army navy store. I got to go out with my wife. I went on a date alone. I got to talk to really interesting people. I got to eat homemade pizza and a woodfired oven. I got a little frustrated with people, but I did not lose my cool, and hopefully I’m starting to enlighten others.
Journal for Monday, July 19, 2021. Sustainable development goals, how to access disabled disability services within Nova Scotia provincial government, home repair training for young women, these were all things I learned today. Riley day with you fine we did trains books and magnets.
Journal entry for Sunday, July 18, 2021. First camp at YMCA big Cove. In Annapolis, through stellar 10, MT. THOM, Alma, somethings springs was an interesting thing too. Stellar team museum of industry rocks! Saw some bison, trying to give up fast food. Nice drive with the family. Nanny is not doing well. Fantasizing about a free and open discourse of ideas among the political parties. I did a nasty event from last night, some weird things from today, and my anxiety over Xan.
Journal entry for Saturday, July 17, 2021. You guys had an awesome day today! Mom took you to the arcade watch movies with you and you went on adventures. Only downside is the humidity.
Diary for Friday, July 16, 2021. Last day of lessons, grade 910 teacher said that yours was the best listening she’s had all year Xan. A lot of sweets and treats today. Packed for camp. I should not gamble.
Diary for Wednesday, July 14, 2021. My wife drugged me last night. My nose is still stuffed up. My boys are still awesome.
Go for Tuesday, July 13, 2021. A good day with my boys Xan you have discovered something about the female sex. I am incredibly tired. I love you
Diary for Monday, July 12, 2021. A good day. Had a dream about a friend, a good dream. Good time at the beach talking to other adults. Lost your shirt today Riley. Call the radio station to talk to counsellors and suggest a idea for housing crisis. Riley to milestones today pouring your own glass of juice, and reading dinosaur cranes tiny flowers book.
Diary for Sunday, July 11, 2021. Nanny had a rough day, needed some help depression. Canada disability benefit. Toddler tantrum.
Diary entry for Saturday, July 10. Discrimination DAy agitate for accessibility. Riley the nocturnal nusaance Xan Covid shot. Riley hanging out with Xan
Diary entry for Friday, July 9, 2021. A really good day! Got to talk to other adults and an actual conversation, had some outings with the family, got to talk to you Xan about video games. So I listened to an interesting Facebook conversation on my own Facebook page.
Diary entry for Wednesday, July 7, 2021. Getting to be a regular for Covid testing, swimming lessons, he’s a sick dad a bad dad? Nanny is sad, and we move on with our day.
Diary for Tuesday, July 6, 2021. A fun day, no vaccine for me unfortunately. Cannot find a vaccine shot for you Xan sorry. Had great talks with other adults this morning!
Journal for Monday, July 5, 2021. A really good day, first swimming lessons, Xan found some cool my hero academia T-shirts he likes, had an outing at the parks in the woods and the gardens, finished with a movie called flight of the navigator from 1986. Trouble at bedtime from mom and Riley and Xan but we all get through it
Diary entry for Sunday, July 4, 2021. You guys are home! Your mom sleeps naked and I discuss the problems that causes with me. And talk about you boys and things you did. Maybe you shouldn’t listen because I also discuss my sex drive or lack there of. I also discussed I’ll call again. And why Canada day is better than the Fourth of July.
Diary entry for Saturday, July 3, 2021. So lazy I didn’t even exercise. I had a nap today. We’ll talk about my granddad, and an error I made with the Nova Scotia NDP 22% of all Canadians have a disability. 22% of all Canadians are disabled. This is from a 2017 stats can report.
Diary entry for Friday, July 2, 2021. It rained today and I walked for three hours getting soaked wearing a white T-shirt.
Diary entry for Thursday, July 1, 2021. Happy Canada day! Walking in the woods, a me day. Played with my sticks and stones, texted my friends, listened to TV shows. Also discussing economic theories and how our economic model needs to change before it becomes to hop top-heavy.
Diary entry for Wednesday, June 30, 2021. You boys left today for camp, Xan you pooped yourself at Gigi‘s house. I overdid things here at home and ate too much junk food, and I’m afraid to leave the bedroom because there a ghost in the house.
I also had a lot of fun talking to the parents at schools today and I’m really gonna miss that over the summer. I discuss my experience with drugs and drinking, and some embarrassing moments, as well as some other things.
Diary entry for Tuesday, June 29, 2021. A good day for you phone your mama had her first meeting for supporters of people with brain injuries I did not ask how it went yet. Xan you had an interesting time with the girls at the lake today.
Diary entry for Monday, June 28, 2021. Climate change, humidity, humidex. Magic paths through the woods, sweep, vacuum, mop, sweat baby sweat. Xan‘s trip to Nanny’s on his own, Riley shower and video games before bed.. I know I’m supposed to say climate change and not global warming, but it is hot.
Diary entry for Sunday, June 27, 2021. Exercise makes me feel good. visiting relatives is fun. had a great talk with Great uncle Ron and great aunt Mary. Also got to talk to great uncle Bruce great on Shelly, saw cousins, so great grandad and great grandma Linda. Gigi’s birthday, and invited auntie Alex down for a visit.
Diary for Saturday, June 26, 2021. It is hot, humid, and I am depressed. Not enough exercising done that enough moving being done.
Diary entry for Friday, June 25, 2021. Noel day or Leon day definitely. Not a lot going on, tired today. Anti-vaccinations, anti-VAX.
Dairy update for Thursday, June 24, 2021. A wet night, sleepy day, all laundry done, many dishes done, Xan‘s day off and unhappy Easter eggs and miss fortune cookies, Riley practising your name. Give compliments everybody has something about them that is worth complementing.
Tuesday, June 22, 2021. Had a seizure today, our big credit card bills, my boys are exhausted, poor Xan and his excellent project. Also remember to soak the silverware but not the dishes.
Diary for Monday, June 21, 2021. I fell asleep two or three times doing this. Talk about our day today, dental hygiene, for our beach trip after school.
Diary entry for Sunday, June 20, 2021. Father’s Day, first day of summer, I good day. Went out with my family, play with my children, enjoy the fresh air and good weather, came home and cleaned my house. Sorry for getting sidetracked about drama
Diary entry for Saturday, June 19, 2021. An awesome day, including markets, new magic shop, plant shop, library. You boys were pretty good today until you weren’t, mom took me on an early anniversary dinner date. A bad note is what’s going on with poor Conrad; racism is not cool.
Diary entry for Friday, June 18, 2021. Getting over this, cleaned my floors, basic laundry started, dealt with a tantrum and baby boy, have fun with an older 12-year-old boy, spent some time with my wife, we all went to the beach. I ramble a lot in this one talking about various things I hope you guys can understand and maybe I should go to bed now.
Diary entry for Thursday, June 17, 2021. My boys are cute, Riley you had an accident that is totally understandable. Xan I’m sorry I yelled at you. Riley you went with your mama tonight, and we had a talk tonight. We talk every night.
Diary entry for Wednesday, June 16, 2021. Your mother is amazing, Riley you have temper tantrum‘s, Xan you and your friend went to the beach. I hope you had a great time! I am going back to bed because I am sick with a nice cold sweats nausea and the runs.
Diary entry for Tuesday, June 15, 2021. One of the benefits of chemotherapy, I am sick. Xan gets soaked and his phone does not work. I might be a little bummed out.
Diary entry for Monday, June 14, 2021. Hawkward, not so good with the talking today, Riley vomits, other things
Diary entry for Sunday, June 13, 2021. Be careful I sneezed, Riley‘s rough day at the beach, Xan‘s letter to all their relatives.
Diary entry for June 12, 2021, Saturday. I am annoyed, my first recording of this did not save it was a whole nineMinutes Longer
Diary for Friday, June 11, 2021. My comparing political parties and politicians to hockey players in hockey teams. Our outing for her you and mommy‘s haircuts this morning Riley, my day here with mom, including some stuff with Halifax rec. We watched a movie tonight about Reala and the last Dragon which mom and I compared to a bad version of avatar the last Airbender. It was fun to watch however call, as my phone was synced to the TV so I guess described audio and you guys got to watch at the same time I did without the described audio
Diary entry for Thursday, June 10, 2021 Xan day off school, laundry done, more CPPD action, oh won’t you be my neighbor. And evil idea to combine landlord and air B & B, hopefully a good idea involving graphine and CO2
Diary entry for Wednesday, June9, 2021. Learning to appeal Canadian pension plan for persons with Disabilities (CPPD) decision, how to request accessible health records from Nova Scotia health. hopefully also what was the cost for me. Lunch date with my wife, got my baby home from school early, swimming at the lake, me doing dishes. mathematics and my troublesome love for it. Icing “love you forever”.
Diary entry for June 8, 2021. Heatwave thank you wave, Martinique beach cold. Longest beach in Nova Scotia, we walked over it today, then we went swimming, and then Riley had a meltdown. I had it on the suggestions I made to the counsellors from the radio yesterday about opening beaches earlier and setting up bus routes to help low income and disabled people
Diary entry for Monday, June 7, 2021. Heatwave doing chores going to beach worry about money.
Diary entry for Sunday, June sex, 2021. Circumcisions in the pros and cons apply to married life from them. Immigrants in the value they bring to the classroom. We had fun at the beach today, the lake is a beach or at least can have a beach guess there’s an ocean can have a beach. The meet went bad. Why do I talk about my life here? Because I need to talk about it to somebody.
Diary entry for Saturday, June 5, 2021. I was a bad friend for trying to help my friend without actually listening to my friend first. We went to great grandma‘s and helped her trim her hedges, went to the beach and I got ice cream and ate way too much fast food and way too much meat, need more vegetables. Riley you had a tantrum on the way home Xan you got to use the new PlayStation vita, xan you were having another hockey party at Nanny‘s I don’t even know if the maple leafs are still at going, but I hope your team is doing well.
Diary entry for Friday, June 4, 2021. Being a good neighbor, our day today, Covid shots and the power of negative thinking. Ice cream is in a chilly beach trip, sing a little song for me. Is it discrimination if the Canadian government cannot help me because I’m disabled, but will not help anybody. Or?
Diary entry for Thursday, June 3, 2021. Electric cars I am worried may not be the answer environmentally that they are praised to be. Also Riley you were exposed to the sun way too much today and Xan you got to meet baby ducks. Could my cancer be a sign of continuing evolution of humans?
Diary entry for Wednesday, June 2, 2021. Three lakes today, a funny hot day, good errands, who’s in trouble. Talking about my love the music, some thoughts on Family, and a few other things. You can skip this.
Diary entry for Tuesday, June 1, 2021. I do not need nor want to hear about my sons erotic dreams, but I do enjoy going for a walk’s with them. My younger son is a rebel and very sneaky.
Diarrhoea entry for Monday, May 31, 2021. Poopy day, bathroom lineups, slacking off on parenting, learning about assistive versus accessible devices. Covid update you guys are going back to school.
Don’t entry for Sunday, May 30, 2021. A great day guys truly great day read it running bike riding I am proud of you have fun I didn’t remember to include everything from today but it was awesome.. I also included a bit about my grandparents, and possibly my great grandmothers. I do not know or remember my great grandfathers.
Diary entry for Saturday, May 29, 2021. Got to sleep in today. I love your voice but you make me smile and so happy I’m sorry for laughing.
Diary entry for Friday, May 28, 2021. Poor people are still people. Period. But are they Canadian? Talk about a day and it with a broken plate some cupcakes for breakfast Xan I am proud of you and all the work you do Riley you are fine Xan you’re fine to drive to you to help out with around the house as well but still right now today those are the two priorities I had.
Diary entry for Wednesday, May 26, 2021. Riley‘s longboard, Xan‘s two bike trips, my Covid shot. Etc. Or homeless people truly Canadian citizens? The government tries to avoid them and does not help them, and since they have no fixed address they have no representation.
Diary entry for Tuesday, May 25, 2021. Potbelly pigs, washing dishes, taking care of my mother. Reliving some high school memories, frosh week, hazing.
Diary entry for Monday, May 24, 2021. Deep breathing, relax, directions since, practising the fight against anxiety.
Diary entry for Sunday, May 23, 2021. Gambling addiction. Volunteering, cow suit, skinny the pooh, children’s wish society, food bank.
Diary entry for Saturday, May 22, 2021. 80’s Sitcoms, my strange dream from nap time, walking and exercise thing, TV with ADHD. And whatever else came to mind.
Diary entry for Friday, May 21, 2021. Canadian pension plan for people with disability’s CPPD, MP Darren Fisher, Mla Lena Diab, Prime Minister Justin Trudeau.
Diary entry for May 20, 2021, Thursday. Canadian pension plan for people with disabilities CPP D denied
Diary entry for Wednesday, May 19, 2021. Talk about our day and I reminisce some old bike stories about me
Diary entry for Tuesday, May 18, 2021 Riley is still getting head injuries Xan we’re having a blast with your book and rainbows are the order of the day.
Diary entry for may 17, 2021. Xan therapy appointment, we are not homeless yet, Riley and playground.
Diary entry for Sunday, May 16, 2021. Sarah‘s birthday. Gifts, birthday songs, birthday food. Fishing trip, Riley‘s injuries. Xan‘s homework planned.
Diary entry for Friday, May 14, 2021. I have a small penis, and I have named it appropriately. Our first day at the beach this year. Or at least our first day at the beach for a week out in the water. Or at least the first day of in the beach where I got in the water this year.
Diary entry for Thursday, May 13, 2021. Talk about Friday the 13th, toddler day, and other stuff.
Diary entry for Tuesday, May 11, 2021. Talking about child discipline versus child abuse, not touching meat, the dead bird story, criminal activities, & more...
You are my sunshine. Diary entry for Monday, May 10, 2021. I miss bike riding, talking about running previously. Talking about not using swear words and how I do you swear words. I know your dad is so embarrassing.
Diary entry for May 9, 2021 Mother’s Day! Not much to mention today but I do like the idea of words. Also I mentioned to hear but it is great grandma Linda’s birthday today we did call all the great grandma’s all the mothers.
Diary entry for Friday, May 7, 2021. Nanny was over you guys got a early for a change, with my oncology appointment, willing to do surgery, mom was cranky, three hour hike plus a trip to the beach, I’m so tired I had to do this update today after I started the day off.
Diary entry for Thursday, May 6, 2021. Just a day. Talking about keeping our word and telling lies. And how it affects depression. How hides depression. And how I hope you guys don’t have to do it in the future.. putting forth my issues with the ambulance is here in Nova Scotia, other than an event to Bility to provide service for lowing come people, they’re in ability to be prompt, and the wonderful work the poor ambulance driver still. They’re amazing people.
Diary entry for Wednesday, May 5, 2021. I talk about some of our day, I forgot a few things. I talk about my time in grade 7,8 and nine with some of the least impressive stories about myself. Things I’m not proud of.
Diary for Tuesday, May 4, 2021. Not a lot going on today Riley you and I didn’t go anywhere. I told the story of the three Billygoat scruff for my boys.
Diary from May 3, 2021 I have cleaned my floors vacuum and mopped. We did some bike riding dishes are done I baked pork ribs and beans, mashed potatoes and corn on the cob. I’m feeling better today the active helps, but I am still depressed.
Diary entry for Sunday, May 2, 2021. Quiet Sunday laundry and dishes. Talking about growing up.
Diary entry for May 1, 2021. It’s a Saturday, I’ve done laundry, and I am quite depressed.
Diary entry for Friday, April 30, 2021. I talk about our day, my depression and anxiety, and some darker stuff. To balance it out I also tell a bedtime story that I told both boys about the three little pigs.
Diary entry for Thursday, April 29, 2021. We’re all kind of tired and drained today. Riley is having emotional breakdowns. No one is enjoying the lockdown. Parenting during lockdown is no fun, especially with the things on the overhead. Music is magic, magical music. Cloud seeding is alchemy, so is Chinese medicine or you try different supplements. Dear folks in China Chinese medicine is what is referred to as supplements, massage, acupuncture, I would a few others. Here in North America. I realize I could’ve just edited my words there, but I am trying to be authentic in the reviews I have. Also it’s best if we’re open about things, please let me know if there’s another term I can use I hear holistic medicine might be one but I hear so many people who do this call it Chinese medicine practices.
Why I teach you to show respect for the police. A bad MRI. Our daily trip for today. Some thoughts about your futures. Trying not to cry.
Diary entry for Tuesday, April 27, 2021. The unfortunate four-year-olds. Knowing when you’re able to help somebody and how. Saying no to chiropractic services.
Diary entry for Monday, April 26, 2021. Talking with my boys about people with different viewpoints and stubbornness and acceptance.
Diary entry for Sunday, April 25, 2021. MRI today. Riley feeds horses at age 4. Xan does his homework. Making up an adventure for Xan to get him out of the house on his bike. Helps to deal with ADHD. Learning to fight with weapons that are appropriate for urban areas.
Diary entry for Saturday, April 24, 2021.
Trip to Victoria Park in truro, Nova Scotia.
Exercise is good.
Taking care of my mother.
Missing my elderly family members.
Things I did when I was younger such as smoking and how I don’t like them.
Diary entry for today
Still stressed
Haircutting experiences
Haircut agreement for Xan.
No more long-haired hippie child
Diary entry for April 22, 2021
Lockdown
How we started homeschooling
I am totally lost in my thoughts today.
What an awful day.
Diary entry for the 20th, 2021
Job loss financial income gone for Family, loss bill payments, pink eye, Covid exposure.
I had a shower all by myself today it was awesome !
It was the first army cadets group meeting for Xan tonightfor Zan
Riley vows to be a skater boy
Diary entry for April 18, 2021. I said April 17 in there. Sorry.
And talk about my day, our day.
I talked about bravery and cowardice in my life.
I voice my feelings of shame.
I also talk about the housing market here in the city.
Banal diary entry for April 16, 2021
I rant about Christianity and praise the united church at the same time
I talk about how much I love your mother and yet how many times I’ve dated other women
I appreciate you have community and talk about staying home alone
I talked about how stories are few and far between so we need more experiences and mention again staying home alone
Diary entry for April 15, 2021.
Curses, blessings, and benedictions. Also how theatre in touch can be important in magic with a K.
The Wright brothers way of handling conflict.
I added a thing on about political parties and my hatred of them.
My diary entry for April 14, 2021 I talk about exercises for my tummy to make it flatter, our diet, boring dad stuff.
Xan is exhausted, and Riley Took his mom fishing, also Riley helped fix his own bike.
I also sang my lullabies that I first started with Xan and continued on through Riley.
Today was an active day even though there was no school. I go over some of the things we did and some of the things I am proud of for you guys.
Xan as you may be able to tell I am especially proud of you for working so hard on your day off.
Riley I’m sorry I walked your porno little legs off, not really. I’m glad we spent so much time together today
Parents don’t get to have dignity
Bike riding, walking through the park, TV, way too much math homework.
April 3, 2021 let’s see here.
Hunting for the Easter bunny
Magic doesn’t solve all problems
Church can be good but It can also be full of people who are not always good.
Rough morning, marital, parenting issues.
Riley‘s video game punishment walking, walking around Oathill
Boring daily stuff
Divination techniques, future divination bad, internal definition good.
Xan’s April fools surprise!
Riley‘s big adventure day with daddy!
Spirits, ghost, Angels, Faeries, Astral beings, extra powers.
Rileys love of non-fiction books and spiders.
Crystals, sticks and Stones, elements, Angel.
Loneliness is a stay at home parent.
Talking about ethnicity, multiculturalism of our low income lifestyle, some barely touch family history.
Mindfulness, living in the moment, fighting practice.
Nothing important or exciting today. Unless you count all the woodworking I did it while I do I don’t think you well.
I tried to do a one week journal update, daily updating.
I discussed things such as mental health, housework, homework, many other things.
This is my weekend update, I know I’m going to get a few things wrong as I try this new thing.
I am learning to segment this so that hopefully I can just drop a piece of information and just do it once a week and then see how I do.
We forgot to wear green on St. Patrick’s Day, we talk about our adventure on St. Patrick’s Day, and Riley’s first cooking some of my friends and see how things go from there.
Diary entry for March 16, 2021.
Talking about meditation illicit activities and being disabled.
Because of March break and Covid protocols, I am trapped at home with a four-year-old. I am normally a stay at home parent and I’m used to dealing with it pretty much all of this but the Covid protocols and the negative temperatures mean that we are trapped inside the house.
Riley I do love you I promise
Weekend update.
I talk about homework for video games, woodworking while disabled, loneliness while being a stay at home parent.
Also discussing cooperative versus competitive games, and the way words affect your brain.
Just making the statement for my children, that I am not being forced to be a stay home dad.
This is where I feel I belong!