Journey of Drifting Clouds: Recent Episodes

Kumi

Hi. I am Kumi. (ENG - JP)

Sharing stories has some healing effects and it allows me to feel more… Through my losses, I’ve learned that feeling the feelings is the only way for me to cope and move forward, so I decided to talk about my journey of grief and loss and many other things. So yes, this is a place for me to become vulnerable but at the same time, I become real as well. I’m happy to share. It’s not just the death that we experience grief from. We experience all kinds of losses, changes and adjustments here and there… and grief is ultimately necessary in our lives to feel joy and love… But grief is powerful.. And it is something we hardly ever talk about. So I’m here to talk more! I will be doing this podcast in two languages - English and Japanese. Last but not least, if you’d like to share your stories of loss and grief, please send me a message! We can talk on the Podcast together or I would be happy to read out your story where you have options of being anonymous as well.

初めまして、クミです。

ストーリーを共有することは私にとって癒しの効果があり、感情を感じる機会がもらえます。今までのロスを経験して私が学んだことは、感情を感じることで歩みを踏み出すことができるのだ、ということです。なので、私のグリーフ、ロス、他にも歩む道のりをこの場で話そうと決めました。感情を感じること、まだまだ模索中ですが、これが私の旅路です。この場は私が脆弱になる場ですが、同時に私がリアルになる場所でもあります。「死」のみがグリーフをもたらすわけではなく、私たちは人生におけるロス、変化、調整を経験することでグリーフを経験します。私たちの人生には愛や喜びを感じる上でグリーフは必然的な存在なのです。でもグリーフはとてもパワフルだし、日常的に話すようなことがあまりありません。だからここでもっと話したいです。このポッドキャストは英語と日本語の二か国語で配信されます。もしこれを聞いてくれいるあなたが、ご自身のグリーフやロスを共有してくださるなら、大歓迎です。一緒にポッドキャストで話すこともできますし、匿名をご希望であれば、エピソード内でご自身のストーリーを読み上げることも喜んでさせていただきます。

いつもポッドキャストを聞いてくれてありがとうございます。今日はちょっとした母とのやりとりをシェアさせてもらいます。

実は、空いている時間を使ってシャツ、パーカー、マグカップやマグネットのデザインをしてEtsyというオンラインストアで売っています。ご興味がありましたら、ぜひ遊びにきてください。Etsyにて、DriftingCloudsShop（単語の間のスペースなし）で検索してみてくださいね。同名でインスタグラムのアカウントもあります。売り上げの50％はカナダのブレイン・チューマーファウンデーションに寄付しております。では、次回のエピソードにて。

https://www.etsy.com/shop/DriftingCloudsShop

https://www.instagram.com/driftingcloudsshop/

In this episode, I am talking about how my mother could not say anything to me even though she desperately wanted to support me and care for me.

Thanks for listening to my podcast. I’ve been designing some T Shirts, hoodies, mugs and magnets in my free time, and selling them on Etsy. If you are interested, please visit Etsy and type DriftingCloudsShop without any space to check out my store. I have an Instagram account with the same name, DriftingCloudsShop (no space in between). 50% of the proceeds is donated to Brain Tumor Foundation of Canada. Thanks and see you in the next episode :)

https://www.etsy.com/shop/DriftingCloudsShop

https://www.instagram.com/driftingcloudsshop/

こんにちは。クミです。このエピソードでは、私の思考や感情が混沌・疲弊していた時に助けてくれたスーパーヒーローたちのことを話したいと思います。

ご拝聴ありがとうございます。

Thanks for coming back to listen to Journey of Drifting Clouds. In this episode, I've decided to talk about superheroes around me who supported me when I couldn't process my own emotions and when my thoughts were just all over, exhausted and crippled.

Thanks for listening :)

こんにちは。今回は、心の痛みの行方について思ったことを共有させてもらいました。

ご拝聴ありがとうございます。

In this episode, I will be sharing my thoughts of where my pain went.

Thanks for listening.

Journey of Drifting Clouds をご拝聴いただき、ありがとうございます。

今回は、「亡くなった人との移り変わる関係」について話したいとおもいます。

Welcome back to my podcast. In this episode, I will be talking about "evolving relationship with the dead"

Thanks for listening :)

今回のエピソードでは、つい最近経験したキャンドルナイトメモリアルについてお話しさせてもらいます。ご拝聴、ありがとうございます。

Hi there.

I was going to talk about something else in this episode, but I'd like to share my recent experience instead. Thanks for listening.

このエピソードでは、グリーフがどういうふうに私の体調に影響を及ぼしたかを話しています。ご拝聴ありがとうございます。

In this episode, I talk about how I did not process what my body was feeling from grief. It's still a big, big journey for me when it comes to taking care of myself but I am glad that I can make baby steps. Thanks for listening.

今回のエピソードでは、honouring について話しています。日本語の直訳が少し難しいのですが、私がクリスさんを思って取った行動をいくつかシェアさせてもらいました。そして取れない行動も話させてもらいました。

In this episode, I am talking about how I have been honouring my loss. I feel that as time goes by, I will be changing the way I honour my late husband. Thank you for listening. 日本語版もあります。是非ご拝聴ください。

Journey of Drifting Clouds、こちらは日本語のエピソードです。久々だったので、少し挨拶を踏まえて短いエピソードになっております。英語版もよかったらご拝聴ください。

Yes, I am back and good to be back! In this episode, I just wanted to briefly say Hi and talk about how I spent time during the pausing period. I look forward to talking more in the coming episode. One thing I have decided to do it differently is that I will be separating the episodes between English and Japanese for better access.

In this episode I am talking about the support I have been receiving (yorisoi 寄り添い).

Thank you for listening! I look forward to connecting with you in Season 2 :)

In this episode I am talking about the support I have been receiving (yorisoi 寄り添い).

Thank you for listening! I look forward to connecting you in Season 2 :)

Music:

Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Meditation by Joseph Beg

In this episode, I am talking about how I grew with grief, answering a question my partner asked.

Thank you so much for listening :)

Music:

Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Meditation by Joseph Beg

In this episode, I am talking about how death is everywhere and we can't avoid hearing the word in this death-phobic society.

Thank you so much for listening :)

Music:

Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Meditation by Joseph Beg

In this episode, I talk about how people face grief differently and how I view grief my own way.

Thank you for listening :)

Music:

Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Meditation by Joseph Beg

In this episode, I am talking about how I started to use Clubhouse app in attempt to alleviate isolation and search for connections.

Thank you for listening.

Music:

Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Meditation by Joseph Beg

In this episode I am talking about how days felt heavy and how I kept myself distracted from feeling the feelings.

Thank you so much for listening.

Music:

Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Meditation by Joseph Beg

In this episode, I talk about types of secondary losses I went through and dealing with tangible emptiness.

Thank you so much for listening :)

Music:

Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Meditation by Joseph Beg

In this episode, I am talking about self-compassion and self-talk.

Thanks for listening :)

Music:

Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Meditation by Joseph Beg

In this episode, I continued talking about anticipation and transition (Chris' dying process). Thank you so much for listening.

Music:
Clouds by Kumi

Thunder Medication by Joseph Beg

In this episode, I will be talking about how my late husband got diagnosed with cancer and going through what is called anticipatory loss.