Diary Of A Would-be Success: Recent Episodes
D. W. S.
What does it take to change your world? What will you need to do? The answers to those questions are quite easy and fill books and online media.
But why don't you do it? Action. That's the hard part isn't it?
Everybody is trying to tell us what to do to be better. We all know what to do, don't we? The information is out there for all.
Our problem is actually doing. That's my life story - knowing what to do and never doing it.
However, I decided (Again) to change that by making some radical changes. I tell you, it's scary.
But is it possible? Is it worth it?
We will find out.
How last year ended. I feel terrible about a lot of things. I'm running away to a Retreat for a week.
I've missed many days, but they have not all been wasted days. I spoke about what I've been up to, what I'm currently doing and what I've learnt recently. I have so many stories to tell you, we will continue tomorrow, hopefully.
For the first time, I wake up feeling worse than I slept. Terrible. My worst emotional state, but I'm holding on quite well. I have to.
Really weird day. I cried for joy because of the future I saw in the morning, then I cried out of heartbreak because I lost the last thing I had.
Finding yourself isn't exactly an easy thing. However, there's nothing I'm doing now that doesn't look like something I've done in the past. That scares me. But, let's go.
The fact that I keep pushing is a miracle. It's not exactly something to brag about because I'm not failing against the world, I'm failing against myself. It's shameful. I think. But maybe I'll pull through this time. Maybe this is it.