Twilight Musings with Jamie: Recent Episodes
Jamie Catungal
There is no word in the English language that is more depressing than the word "almost" <!--3
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Been feeling really homesick lately...so it made me think of things I really miss about home.
Pondering on countless musings
Hoping for a chance to see through your gaze
Waiting for words to come out of our mouths
Expecting the possibility of the unfathomable
Grasping what's left of my sanity
I try to digest a reality
Where you are mine and I am yours
Where your eyes are small universes
Vast but not empty
Your veins a river of promises
Flowing through the cracks of my parched emotions
And oh your lips
An island I won't mind getting stuck on
Let me be a castaway
And I will turn the forest of your fears into paradise
Pull me into your gravity with a touch
And a kiss is a white flag waved high
Succumbing to a force greater than us
Holding your hand is conquering the world
Your embrace is quicksand
Entrapping my frailty
And holding together my brokenness
My heart's futile attempt to build walls
Only ends up in a crash and crumble
At the sight of a majestic wonder that is you
My heartbeat is thunder
Echoing through abandoned caves of bliss
My passion is lightning
Ripping through the darkness of my thoughts
But my love
My love is something else
My love is a drop in the ocean
An illusion of insignificance
Turning ripples into massive waves
My love is a volcano
An illusion of viciousness
Forming precious stones and diamonds
My love is wind
An illusion of absence
Touching your face, pressing to be felt
I am a lone star in your galaxy
Tell me how to survive a supernova
This titanic explosion of unrequited feelings
With a blinding darkness slowly fading away into nothingness
Your voice calling for my name
A deliverance from this black hole I call solitude
An emancipation from a single axis of fate
And so I refuse to subject myself to destiny
I am no longer deceived
That I cannot create
I create through my thoughts
And I choose to create life instead of lies
I create my own universe in my own eyes
And you would see
That my universe is made of billion suns
Illuminating an infinite space of possibilities
Where despair is as possible as jubilation
In my universe
You are the only moon
For if darkness is my agony
You are my only floodlight of hope