The Mind Stops Here: Recent Episodes
Jac O‘ Keeffe
Enjoy hundreds of recordings of in-person meetings and retreats with Jac. The content explores the nature of mind and reality. The approach is spiritual, embracing both direct and progressive paths to abiding wakefulness.
Guided meditation, signs and the impersonal aspects of spirituality, visited by an alien, the world is a snow globe in my peripheral vision, my inner child and adult came together and I am both and neither.
I work hard and play hard-Am I hurting myself? parenting teenagers, sacrificing myself for others' spiritual growth, I’m attached to being loved, archetypal patterns of warrior and queen.
Everything I do is motivated by my ego so I can earn acceptance from others, scrupulosity and getting free of self-punishing beliefs that I did something terribly wrong, mind discipline is required to be an artist or an athlete, life is flowing with clarity-am I missing something?, protecting myself energetically, I want to reincarnate to help others.
Satsang is perpetuating an external dependency, a spiritual relationship turned dysfunctional, love is dammed up in my heart, managing the mind and what about the heart?, there is enough, there is silence yet I want help.
Nirvi Kalpa samadhi, attributes of duality and non duality, prior to non duality, presence and being disappear, components of consciousness, prior to consciousness.
Living with Parkinson's disease, there is fear blocking my heart, keeping the heart open, spiritual concepts can be used incorrectly by the ego, I'm ready to leave my job but practically I can't leave yet.
Balancing of the books, anger, the dark will always come after the light, money/relationship/intimacy, "it's all a lie", vacuum, subtler levels of energy of the story, Phenomenal perspective is tiny but if you have no other perspective, it is infinite, sex, story making machines, is the true self there during anesthesia? simplicity and beauty, migraine, awakening vs. liberation, become aware of it when you slip into defending, Kali's sword, self-forgiveness, honoring all sides of experiences, courage and trust, feeling of no space, liberation -- just a thought.
Pain being trapped, migraines, running energy of others, phenomenal freedom, no opposites, perceiving without perceiver, go to the place where you know and not where you think, understanding 'Gaps" when 'you' come back vs. some part of the mind being aware that 'you' were gone while 'you were gone', semantics, breaking habits, I AM presence, it's ordinary, I vs. pure perception, reincarnation.
Taking risks, the annihilation that you fear is happening now, love, self-image, body identification, there is nothing lacking where there is emptiness, karma with boss, discernment, connecting to male energy, third eye pain, body reaction to spiritual work, rolfing, wounded warrior must lose potency, you must become your own Guru, fear of karma, everything that comes, goes, no connection between effort and grace.
Collapsing, appreciation, disease of desire, the ordinary isn't boring, desserts, sixth sense, entanglement with mother, dance.
Let the character bow down to what you really are, being in the body, hyper-vigilance and control, prevention can be worse than the event, worshipping ourselves/Guru, sexual abuse -- male authority, karma as a cause and effect, past life, infidelity secrets, self-referencing, what is love? anything nameable is transient, awareness aware of itself without the body/mind, nobody goes there but it is known, you have to be taking yourself very seriously in order for an emotional response to persist, love is not real but it is not absent either, finding your power, heart and mind, being lost, not minding and not knowing.
Courage, wounded warrior, spiritual arrogance, depression, divine will vs. personal will, a holiday from the shoulds, freedom, what is the world? wisdom to step back, the paradox of self-love, self-dialogue, urgency -- life is dribbling away, only silence can be trusted, what would it look like if it wasn't motivated by fear? openings beyond the mind.
Body/mind as something within what you are, energetic shaking, nervous system rewiring, heart chakra -- all that is not of love, concepts growing into phenomenal realm, pure consciousness as an idea making machine, connection between a concept and it appearing as real, absoluteness zone, release of fear, finding enjoyment, there is space for truth to show itself by stopping identification, I AM, money/finances.
Heart vs. mind work, I AM Shiva/Shakti, emptiness and awareness, no solid ground, money, it doesn't have any opposites, control and minimizing chaos, you may need a body to do it! character cannot wake up, what is duty?
Awakening is for the mind, can perception happen without ownership?, devotion in the context of longing, obsessed with myself, fear of the future, collapse of consciousness, gradients of thought, if I'm not doing then who am I? trauma attaching to a character, heart opening.
I'm not getting it is torture, needing to know is suffering, what are the frames that lead up to the 'me'? seeking keeps the seeker alive.
Introduction: manifesting vs. free will, answers to life's questions, our agreement creates reality, anger -- unsatisfied desire, self love -- courage, satsang as a tuning fork, separation as an energy held in the body, holding onto a higher energy when pulled back into the drama, reflecting truth, intervention as faith, manipulation -- conditional vs. unconditional love. acquiescing to others, going beyond presence, talking from the phenomenal world vs. absolute.
Introduction, what is the ego?, creativity and alcohol, how do you know when to process emotion and when to pull back?, unconditional self love, self pity, Jac living in the world, seeking energy, character refinement without the seeker, get distance from the believability of thought, accidents/destiny, obsessing about relationships, grief, reflection of my old self in my son, paradoxes, some part of you is still enjoying the separation, drop the fantasy.
Where does the mind fit into the unfolding of consciousness, it is all play, special relationships, judgments/preference, ego on top of ego, be authentic, dropping desire vs. behaviour, sex, desire for truth, Jac story experience, deep - dark-depression, going through the body, value system on doing and being task-oriented, being efficient without adrenaline.
Jac introduction, let the 'I AM' be not good enough, fall into the prior, ashram experience, existence itself, don't stop at the non-dual!, flip side of the pain is the juice of the absence of the pain, thyroid -- family tree work, surrender to something external in order to surrender to what you really are, self love, understanding what's not real, explore believability, contrast is delicious, you are not here at all, does stress create a 'You'?, can awareness be aware of itself without the body/mind?, identity itself must go, take Ramana and Papaji off the throne.
Only the mind says the stillness is not good enough, it's just story, Jac's story, absolute love underpins it all, dualistic version of love, mind knows right where to hit me, believability of the thought is the problem -- not the content, do you feel not entitled to the peace?, responsibility is the ability to respond, all about trust, take a chance!, need for approval brings pain, acceptance versus fighting for justice, freedom for full expression for every emotion, annoying spiritual advice, fully human, spirituality vs. science, your inner gut is where you figure out what is right for you, love yourself and the sense of not belonging dissolves.
Validation, fragrance of stillness/ unbroken wholeness, just one subject -- even that is imagined, zone where nothing happened is still within consciousness, pure perception -- only the verb -- perceiving, natural state includes the body/form, pure perception can have an outpost of localized perception, filters of contrast come in to allow functioning, pure witnessing is the I AM, life and death -- the ultimate opposites, no reference point, beyond doubt, let there be melting within, primal need for safety, the 'Good' beyond good and bad is not good, trust when intuition is doubted, feel more than think, this moment is infinite -- don't make it linear.
Humor instead of fear, understanding is greater than meaning, where the viewing point arises from, personal I trying to own the pull, how you think its going to be is not the way!, sensory evidence held at a cellular level, mind is using the body for its own purposes, past life, enlightenment: it's not about getting out -- it's seeing you were never in.
Something shows itself that is prior to an experience that can be described, embodiment, purer than innocence, meditation is useful to manage in the world but it doesn't bring self-realization, frequency with which you pull back from your thoughts, mantras are very useful, changing the diet for the mind, Doubt -- why not have it all?, separation/identity, Nisargadatta, intimacy: domain of the personal I vs. as a consequence in absolute, experiencer is the one who has to die.
Jac intro, bodywork/rolfing, break the rules, addiction and denial, responsibility is an ability to respond, self-honesty under every level, contraction at work, homeopathy and energy work on your energy field, desire is always associated with an I, total unconditional love for the character, fear in the body that needs to be exposed, ego coming into wholeness, sex without desire running, Heisenberg's principle revisited: Does state of mind in the observer have an impact on the observed object?
Jac intro: pulling attention back/resting in the natural state, the doing to get into the natural state, grief vs. suffering, discernment and choices, an organic pull towards harmony, diversity making machine, let 'I don't know' be your benchmark, spiritual bypassing, mind is bringing what is known into the personal and that doesn't fit, rolfing/bodywork, overwhelm, incompleteness and not having closure, what would it be to have no motivation stemming from desire.
Jac intro/guided meditation, a sense of 'me' versus a personal 'me', labeling -- concepts -- experiences, labeling of subject-object disappearing and reappearing as your self, a willingness to not let go, taking things personally, family constellations, letting go of self criticism and self doubt, going prior/beneath the blank state.
Jac intro and guided meditation, depression and indifference, when it starts getting destructive at a core level then it is time to leave, consciousness does not need a body/mind to know itself, doubting mind, relationship with money, mantra to stop fighting with the mind, infusing body with frequency of pure consciousness, bodywork for releasing tension in the body, dwelling on unknowns will cripple you.
Prior to awareness is playing as the character, sense of you must have value in order to make idea of separation plausible, the idea of "i am my body", consciousness in and of itself and a knowing that does not need body/mind, Courage, a not knowing and a total trusting, energy of what you are comes through love from the other side of love and has no agenda, in the depths of full-on experience is it known that it is not real, devotion flowing, do you forget what you are at any time?
Does a rock bottom experience need to happen prior to awakening? protecting the form against certain energies, awakening is for knowing what you already are, functioning in the world while going through the spiritual path, chakras, grabbing a thought/buying into story even when there is a knowing that it is not real, levels of identification, is there just stillness or is there a me/sense of me with the stillness?, energy of fear, me as pure consciousness is learning to be fully human, desire versus yearning, thoughts are energy balls.
Guided meditation, beliefs and believability loops and their impact on the body, re-birthing, subject-object and what dissolves is the object, being ensnared by mind and thoughts, difficult marriage/relationship, finding a lifestyle that supports you, family matters.
Consciousness is prior to existence, guided meditation, some ideas that may have no foundation in any story, love is movement, coming back to satsang because drama is luring you again OR something not being solid yet, being on a roll in life, total acceptance of yourself, fear of dying and losing the chance to know myself, movement of energy in satsang.
Jac intro: nothing needs to be dissolved for truth to show itself, the more attention stays inside the more mind loses its effectiveness in fabricating lies, identification, hanging on to grace to lead you home, process of manifestation from "prior to all of it" to duality, potentiality of pure consciousness, Knowing, non-being that underpins the whole roll out into duality, what happens when the body dies, idea of Karma and balancing the books, doing something loving for yourself, Choice & Free will.
Jac intro: perception with lenses and pure perception, parenting/right way to rear your child is to listen to your belly, framework of right & wrong, trusting your gut, unconditional love for yourself, Learning disabilities and how to undo them, stepping back to a global perspective, absorbing other people's stuff, default mode network, Choice, consequences and responsibility, innocent fun.
Understanding experiences, thinking mind & working mind, Self-knowledge, Loveable & capable, formless, Desire, direct path and progressive path, Siddhis, "I am not good enough" belief, Anxiety, Establishing the Observer, Let life start up again, Karma, Ego is the sense of self, Only thing needed is willingness, Rebirthing.
Pure Perception, Dualistic Lens, Trust, No controller, Desire, Pain, Surrender, To be chosen is to let go, What's Real and What's Not Real, Prior to Observer, Natural Organic Flow, Desire for Sex, Mind Loop, Awakening to Liberation, Tools for Purification
Direction is clear, uncertainty, consciousness playing, wanting to understand, trusting the natural flow, broad understanding, obsession with stories, building blocks of mind, falling into nothing, fear of failure, self-inquiry.
"going prior" exercise, wanting to be understood, empathy vs compassion, existence doesn't exist, no mystery, disconnect from the personal, awakening and liberation, embodiment, denying life to the 'I', relationship with money, parenting, fear of living, despair.
Self-sacrifice, connection to the world, anxiety, emotions with root cause, emotions without stories, labeling, discernment, pure love, mind as a tool beyond consciousness, emptiness, cause and effect, emotion running through, desire, criticism, fear of fear, unaccountable.
Fear of losing control, story coming to an end, stop running the character, "prior to all of it" guided meditation, desires and preferences, time and space, the matrix, self-love, ownership, fear of mental illness, energy of beauty.
Natural state, prior to natural state, existence, prior to consciousness, money, non-existence, personal "I", existential fear, sex-safety-money and spiritual conditioning.
“prior to consciousness” guided meditation, questions to consider and discussion, jac's theory on a capacity when consciousness collapses, insufficient nurturing.
The personal self, intuition, attachment, trap door, surrender and trust, beyond all of it, an echo, time, jac's experience, self-image.
Physiological events with enlightenment, self-referencing, frequencies, prior to consciousness, echo of knowing, migraine, managing identity in the world, owning my masculine side, self-love, intention.
Frequency of beauty, attachment to beauty, fear, self-love, preferences and desires, sleeping through life, values and rules, mind as the liar, sexual relationship, sugar addiction.
Layers of perception, space and time, past lives, taking on energy of others, frequency of anger, impatience, constantly talking in mind, traumas, anxiety and fear.
taking attention away from mind, micro and macro, self-reference, relationship with power, favorites and inheritance, conditioning around wills, relationships, ego and enlightenment, pulling attention back
Self Love, Short-circuits, thinking mind and working mind, Music as a spiritual practice, Art, Spiritual Practice, suffering, does God exist?, Jac's path.
Taking things personally, balance and well-being, “knowing” outside of all of it, mind playing catchup, other dimensions, life cycle of ego, karmic debt, addiction to thoughts, Desires, avoidance, existential fear, natural state, emptiness, prior to consciousness, Innate knowing, pointing to prior, reaction to waiting.
Different approaches, sole purpose to wake up, unity, prior to consciousness, devotion, sense of choice, subject-object perception, knowing, attention at home, integration, jac's change in direction, functioning in the world, Observer, disharmony, powerlessness, anxiety, attachment to family.
Self-betrayal in a relationship, fulfillment in relationships, intense emotions, wanting to contribute, karma, meditation practice, fear of losing lifestyle, interest in thoughts, getting it right, functioning without the 'I', Anger, fear of future, loneliness.
Software of mind, localized perception, physiological rewiring, FliHi Community online, functioning, power imbalance, discernment, being late, inner child, boundarylessness, making decisions, playing a role, labeling mechanism, service to other dimensions, phenomenal freedom, depression and helplessness.
Spiritual search, science, prior to oneness, it's not happening to me, non-doing, motivation in the world, creation, evolution, extreme pain and joy, sensation of falling, Fear, deep hurt, self-image, pain of not seeing it, shift in frequency, old reactions, family of origin, emotions.
Exercise inviting Unity, Awareness versus no experience, How love expresses, Love as a frequency, What is consciousness, Play and fun, Letting go of valuing suffering, Attachment to tranquility, Benefits of body-release work, free will, Self-realization versus liberation, origins of doing, fear of annihilation, breaking destructive patterns, Resistance.
Self love is primary: Exercise inviting Unity, Awareness versus no experience, How love expresses, Love as a frequency, What is consciousness, Play and fun, Letting go of valuing suffering, Attachment to tranquility, Benefits of body-release work, free will, Self-realization versus liberation, origins of doing, fear of annihilation, breaking destructive patterns, Resistance.
Direct path and progressive path, self-realization, liberation, consciousness of consciousness, beyond reflexivity, the energy of searching, triggers that turn on individuality, the movement of love, terror and threat of pain, consciousness and self-reflection, potent desires, Destiny, knowing beyond mind, Deep sleep, Resistance.
Chuck out awareness, frequency of identification, Ramana, the Self, fear and terror, nothingness, transmission, reengaging in the world, love and grief, pain to be resolved, constant tension, mantra, sensation of prior, investigating the illusion, innocence, ego, the path of surrender, health concerns.
'Prior to all' exercise, a shift in perspective, an intellectual treadmill, Fear, mind's dissatisfaction, energy of conditioning, impatience with inefficiency, personal will, urgency, cellular programming, time collapses, let the knowing expand.
Story of me, being human, Not my will but Thine, effort and effortless, prior to 'I am', fascination with the story, difficult work projects, addiction energy, destiny and desire, discernment, purpose, sense of individuality, the mind, being good.
Layers of program coding, struggle, goals, grief, tired of the search, functioning, what's real – what's not real, a glimpse, something needs fixing, the Self, difficulty being in the world, loving yourself totally, acceptance.
Rest/the manifest is a sideshow, nothing and take nothing away, be still and know, everything is in the t.v. (manifestation), the evolution and the extinguishing, with the opening there is no movie, the aroma of knowing, not to give up the story, go for the edge, any position is a story, put love in a cold place, identification, transcendence, be inefficient, to be seen, let attention be swallowed up, finding a position, nothing is in the way of consciousness and the body/mind, seeing through is an action of consciousness, where does pure perception pull in the character?, consciousness has the capacity to be aware of itself without the human form, pure consciousness could not have happened, less than absence, does prior to consciousness know about this?, the truth will set you free, working mind and the thought making machine, emotions and thought, the one is the many and the many is the one, doing the opposite, i can't go there! fear and other dimensions, let go and shift back, moving away from it all.
Everything that is to be known is already known, does existence stand alone?, there is no link between nothing and the world, the birth of consciousness, self-consciousness (something seems to exist), unity--beingness--i am, time and space, duality, subject/object, go prior to the sacred/prior to, perceiving, the fear of not existing, identification has a different feel at various layers, there is no consciousness outside of you!, existence pulsates as a frequency in the physical form, identification with the body, Reincarnation, the filters of perception, freedom.
Time to move on? Do I need a teacher?, The attachment to satsang, Observer or slave?, Change on a cellular level, Kundalini, Ego is just ideas, Desire creates the, Be still and know that I am God, Into the void, Nothing is fine!, I'm happy not knowing.
No I, Santa can't disappear, Attachment causes pain, Enjoyment of interesting teachings versus direct participation, When identi?cation happens, see it as hilarious! No thinker, Would it be okay if your character was to die without truth being seen and established?, Slow down, Mind is a liar, any drama will do, Life becomes simple, Keeping the body-mind healthy, Nothing is lost in making mistakes, Caring for a loved-one, Obsessive-compulsive disorder, From the wider perspective, nothing matters.
Going beyond ideas, Self-reliance, Seeing the building blocks of consciousness, Is there a vacuum in the void?, Pricking a pinhole in the plastic, When, Allowing the nothingness to show itself, When there is willingness, a trapdoor may open, Joy derived from ego is sure to turn into suffering, All neediness has to go, Allowing inner knowing to make the decision, Feeling alone is an idea, Mind imagines that life could be improved, Letting them have the legacy, The high price of principle.
Let it be okay that nothing is happening, How does the mind make it all seem so real? Everything is a story, Is one experience valued more than another?, Meaning, no meaning, beyond meaning, Every story is the same as the next, Mind whispers, I am you, Silence as a bottomless beyond, Experiences with ayahuasca, Experiencing and suffering are always linked, Ownership has to rest with consciousness.
When mind steps aside, If it's all a movie, why bother? Shifting energy from head to heart, Self-love has to be established, Releasing anger, Power, Control, authority, Life was never meant to be taken seriously!
Destiny, self-love and external love, love at the core of everything, consciousness of the universe, doubt about appearances, ego tells a good story, thoughts make appearances, the garbage of guilt, Spiritual ego, mind's desire to experience emptiness.
Unable to touch frequency of acceptance, labeling and working mind perception, using love to hide, a peephole to Realty, trying to put the brakes on, creation and destruction of ego, fear of not being useful, is ego speaking, slowing down, cleaning out energy.
Volition and intention, concept-making machine, shift in consciousness, black hole, energetic shaking, trying to be nobody, mechanism of ownership, attachment, grabbing the concept, attachment to being the mother, life driven by fear.
Prayer and devotion, essence form of human experience, empathy and resistance, illness and avoidance, spiritual bypassing, the difference between avoiding and transcending, relationship with power, not abiding in my body, mind's interpretation of love and service.
Mind attempting to find questions, relationship with son, movement during meditation, wanted to leave work, another frequency of thoughts, embody, right and wrong, blockage at heart chakra, addiction and healing, longing for experience, ego feeling hurt, wanting to be seen, divine will, hard to take a break from work.
Mind cannot know what you are, mind and the residue of personality, understanding calms the mind, choice, fear of not knowing.
Nothing seeing, perception of localization, relationship with husband, model of seva, depression and shame.
Unending cycle of creation, natural state, nurturing me, don't know where my place is, family and job, change in point of perception, the concept of power, the courage to throw off the straight-jacket, addiction of ego.
Labeling and perception, naming an object gives it existence, everything I do fails, impulse of ego to please.
Labeling, sense of I and individuality, spiritual concepts, Doubt, no place that it is okay, stillborn child.
Resistance to life, unity consciousness, omnipresence, path of beauty, feeling responsible for daughter and others.
Developing discernment, depression over the place I live, spiritual conditioning, trying to survive illness, financial difficulties, believing thoughts, family issues
Tony Parsons (nothing to be done?), energetic leakage, Fli-Hi, healing or dropping issues, sucking vacuum, making it in the world, resisting spiritual homework, notice resistance, mom issues.
Living in the state of lostness, I don't know anything, personal will, openness to not knowing, recognition of unknowing, having no center, having no ego, control falling away, no powerful female role models, authentic power, being an only child, resenting your parent, taking care of your parent, making unpopular decisions, anger at your mother, letting the emotions out, controller is the suppressor of emotions, venting the anger.
You are not who you think you are, played by beliefs, filters of beliefs, letting go of a relationship, getting to the balance of it, ohm, what's known in theory, what's really known, too much negation, allowing the opposite, wanting control back, I want what's mine, cause and effect, control isn't valid all the time, there is no free will.
Bored with instructions, keeping some identity, sadness of separation, pain of moving forward, no big awakening event, seeing difference, aversion to surprises, getting needs met through work, devotion, being stuck is part of the movement, energy of fear and shame, holding a family's pain, locked energy the glue that holds you together, break-up.
Doubting mind, acceptance of being crazy, sex fantasies, the identity of being married, dream about Jac, integration, the void, sense of control, tired of being responsible, spirit guides and angels, fear of losing identity, Resistance, self-inquiry, death wish.
Managing in the world after awakening, non-duality in the west, integration phase after awakening, idea of hope is awful, mind using idea of destiny to keep hope alive, dissolving the vows, having no criteria for waking up, sense of an individual does not create an individual, high jump to outside all of it is hard when desire is running, neediness, no free will, control keeps regrets alive, familiarity with the formless and beyond all of it, integration needs to happen.
Guided meditation, Total acceptance, letting some relationships go, let the character have the experience, when the volatility of life becomes tiresome, separation and approval from others, boredom, honoring the character, what makes you find your power as a man, sex, menopause, relationships.
Managing in the world after awakening, non-duality in the west, integration phase after awakening, idea of hope is awful, mind using idea of destiny to keep hope alive, dissolving the vows, having no criteria for waking up, sense of an individual does not create an individual, high jump to outside all of it is hard when desire is running, neediness, no free will, control keeps regrets alive, familiarity with the formless and beyond all of it, integration needs to happen.
Guided meditation, without labeling/identification, identification pulls one into duality and thinking mind, noticing the preferences as they arise, alert state is not a tense state, natural state and beyond, seeing energy/attention as a frequency, frequency that has no story, consciousness manifesting without a stimulus, mind using spiritual material for its own purpose, letting there be less, letting pure perception happen, mind reinforcing separation, energy after death of body.
Silence underneath the chattering mind, letting yourself be nurtured at the physical level, being honest with yourself, let listening happen, Pure perception, emotions, wisdom to recognize if a relationship is destructive, spiritual bypassing, can a dense state exist without identification? being manager of mind.
Prayer without desire, Acceptance/control, Unstick desire, Cut at the root desire, hopelessness, Eyes of love, Doer / non-doer, Yearning for truth, Future, You’re already that.
Before the natural state, Zen and non-dualism, Time-based behavior, Awareness, Desire or destiny, Matrix/time, Control, Mother-daughter, separation.
Terror filter, Ghosts and other realms, prayer, Resistance, Thoughts potency, trauma, Prayer and surrender, Marital abuse, powerful woman, Basic human instinct, More open with family.
You are the totality, It’s there all the time, From observer to pure perception, It needs to integrate, Fear, Eternity, This is a dream, Self Love, Ignorance, Technique is a distraction, Humility.
Understanding what cannot be understood, sleep, Anger, retraining mind, energy and frequencies, 'I know nothing', worry, natural state and the character, beliefs, self-image, therapy, something didn't feel right, wanting an answer, figuring it out, the potent question, labeling mechanism, Concepts.
Outside all of it, mind as a tool, believability of thoughts, a song, denial of desire, is right now real, nowhere to land, addicted to mind, imprisoned by pain, Memory, attachment to elderly mother, cannot deny experience is real, Deep sleep, isness, certainty, totally fake, nothing is good enough, 'I don't know', find out who you are, devotion, the Absolute, linear time and space, mind is a concept.
'I Am', discernment, Natural flow, A dream, Concern for son, filter of ego, Observer, Existence, Mind can't go prior, Ramana, Layers of perception, You or the character, Mind, Consciousness, Knowing when 'beyond' is not a concept, Spiritual ego, self-love, Real and false worlds, Perceiving machine, A song.
A perceiving machine, The 'jac' character, This work, What cranks up the character, Desires, Drugs, Decisions, Resistance, Sadness and beauty, Surrender, Judgement and envy, Root of the thought, Mind techniques, Contraction-expansion, Humiliation, Letting it all go.
Beyond who you think you are, The search, existential fear, All the work gets you nowhere, Rejecting the plateau, No solid ground, hopelessness, I don't know is good, the love frequency, exhausting it all, Control, therapy and non-duality.
Contentment, training the mind, Nothing needs to be known, Contentment is surrender, The matrix and contrast, Dual & non-dual, Grace, Ego getting thin, Gap in the matrix, Is spontaneity part of mind?, Innate knowing, A primal scream, Spontaneity, discernment, I am a fraud, Being, Awareness.
Being cheated, seeing the matrix is essential, grace and the white knight, allowing success, drop idea of flatness, too affected by outcome of sports, knowing the unknowable, trust your gut, what's wrong with illness, be a rag doll, illness breaks resistance, be totally honest with yourself, pain in the body, aversion, drop desire to control, enough cracks in the ego, go into feelings after an incident.
Stories take me away, trying drugs, Santo Daime, equanimity, what will be will be, the unreality of the character, no way out, daughter's health problems, disapproving of son's girlfriend, energy shift in the body, depressed son
Spiritual superiority, attached to womanhood, it's so simple, self-inquiry ceases of itself, self-realization, honesty the best virtue, what presents as real, cause and effect, solidity of things, bi-polar, depression, dying is another scene in the movie, not afraid to disappear, don't want to seek anymore.
Afraid of nothingness, detach from believability, how time perception works, it's going nowhere, mind sets up goal, waking up doesn't make the movie better, beyond or prior, consciousness gets rarified, acceptance of fear, stop the labeling, must we undo concepts?, identification with pain-body, fear around loss, let the fear have you, use Byron Katie
Powerlessness, specified pain must be experienced, it's not happening to you, concept-making machine, knowing you're all of it, what you are can't be localized, mind is a ball of energy, ego isn't real, mind will always present questions, don't have time to practice, the movie is an echo, when caught in the movie
I know it's just a story, sucked into story, only enjoying an idea, body throws off the old energy, desire and labeling and ego are the same, desire and sex, how Jac got married, hanging on to self-image, mom/daughter issues, back pain, male authority, tenderness for yourself, what are you without concepts, waiting for grace.
Unease in nature, what makes you buy into the story, no signposts, let it have you, fear and resistance, powerlessness, being a dad, trace the feeling and alter it, smothering children, overwhelmed by responsibility, play at being mother, can't be who parents want me to be, individuals must have space, the body does its thing, accepting or rejecting life.
Advaita feels cold, love your neighbour as yourself, it shows itself as an illusion, claiming your authority and body, I hear avoidance!, safe and unsafe, go into your body, emotional response, remembering abuse, changing some bad for good, don't care about the illusion, everything is neutral, I'm a human being, misunderstanding Jac, trust, follow the inner movement, acting without concepts
Craving for affection, experience needs to be had, mind will say it's boring, inner child, core wound, sexual abuse, rejection, critical parents, neo-advaita, honored wound, dying to be me, fuck the consequences, let seeking be easy, access sadness, don't believe mind, when there's no I, I'm all of it
Impulse to serve, choice comes from ownership, who do I trust? manifesting, mindless job, thoughts just appear, hang out in the background of consciousness, getting things done, a playful approach, be your own authority, body feeling heavy, detox.
Suffering as punishment, power seems negative, natural grief, divorce, not wanting to be here, making the world better, end to the story, self-love, enjoyment of work, let it take its course, barrier to intimacy, claim your body, can't enjoy anything, horrific awakening experiences, samadhis, years without thought for Jac.
Separation arising, desire for unity, consciousness believing manifestation, how to stop grasping, contraction without separation, angina, self-critical, there's perfection in everything, drop all desire, Decisions, intellect plays catch-up, it's simple without a story
Guided meditation, intellect can't get it, identifying with all/none of it, hindsight, all is imagined, consciousness pretends to be you, believing-mechanism at play
Letting life happen until a deeper level kicks in, glitches in the movie, sense of resonance, nothing & everything, feeling will loosen connection to the character, does enlightenment have to happen before the body dies? appearance of existence, threatening to the idea of what you think you are, letting the `I don't know' dissolve, enjoyment, keeping attention at home, consciousness is an illusion too, listening to the body, there is only God.
Objectify, enquiry, self-loathing, loops, everything is a setup to show what you are not, what is it about suffering that is so awful?, purpose, interconnectivity of all, forgiveness, mind will use the body for its own purpose, Jac's writings and DVD, relative and absolute, no reference point, feeling vulnerable, attention below the neck.
Meditation -- what you really are, experience of direct experience, refusing to invest in the unreal, investing in the projection of how you want to be perceived, existential fear, practice keeps the seeker alive, find the belief driving visceral fear, cultivate authority, can't get past me; if practices don't work, an attitude might.
Let the dark balance the light, emptiness -- what to do? it's not about shutting down the story, service shutting down natural flow, how to be at peace with a health condition, not wanting grandchildren to suffer, checking in with gut about relationship, potentiality of I is an idea, the moment ownership is entertained -- it is real, mind can see that it is all mind, "I am", localized perception has nothing to do with a you, pure subjectivity of consciousness sees through the body.
Meditation -- life is a sideshow, trust and resonances, fear of groups, trusting versus pretending, working mind without identity -- nothing is happening, let "I don't know", what's left when identity dissolves?, free flow is a valuable phase, why did I leave my perfect life? we don't have free will
Can perception happen without identification?, near-death experience and emptiness, a mother's desire, Arunachala -- recollections, energy hotspots as catalysts, where the question comes from, feeling thrown by energy, can you drop the desire to go?
Guided meditation -- the machine of mind, feeling of helplessness, outside breaking up with a solid reference point, should I retire? psychotherapist with no memory
Guided meditation – listen without investing in the mind, unresolved mother issues, drop the linear sequence of actions, beyond, feeling adrift and ungrounded
Retirement or not, It’s a movie, This is not real, Mind watching mind, Stillness, Awakening/habit, Total surrender, Thinking mind labeling, Beauty is inside, Grace, Self-conscious, Ownership, Drop desire?, Energy of fear.
I don’t know, Desire/pain, Imagining things existence, Guilt/responsibility, Labelling, No individual/character, Physical death, Pure perception, Energy is concept, Fear - Let it have you, Authority mistrust, Anger.
Escaping, New seeker, Happiness is not being happy, Relax integrate, Who sees awakening, Complicated mind, Experience, The I don’t want that, Potential, Projection
Glimpses, Bhakti path, Intellectual understanding, Looking through the eyes?, Separation/contraction, Life is pushing, Ownership, Perception/principles, Perception of essence, Awareness, Pain/joy
When ego comes back, Agitated dream, Turbulence, The world is Brahman, Concepts machine, Watch labeling, It’s just happening, Model/goal, Doubt, Desire keeps the I alive, Desireless/nothingness, Hope, The "I" can’t find the truth, Distance
Attention, Experience, Oneness/consciousness, Maturation, Desire for truth, Localized in the body, Pattern, Events in life
Jac’s writings, Afraid, Awakening/liberation, Consciousness, Before Inquiry, No place to land, All of it continues, Prior, Ordinary life/dream, Desire, Dreamer, Migraines.
Life heals itself naturally, Consciousness seduction, Teacher?, Spiritual path, Spiritual experiences, Fear, so what, Courage, Mind/control, Autopilot.
There’s no you at the center, Something is trapped, Work is about the journey, As good as it gets, Meditation, Vasanas and charges, Smell, Concepts, Contraction, Resistance/desire, Deep sleep.
Self-love before going beyond the 'I', rest in the natural state, movement without identification, sex and self-worth, don't try going prior while effortlessness is happening, sense of direction without desire, manipulation to get love, self-acceptance, intense grief opens a window to clarity, which self-protections are common-sense? commitment to the work, addiction to busyness, feeling the 'natural pull' without desire.
You're not the body, death of loved one, relationship after awakening, something attractive about manifestation, partner not into non-duality, Jac's old friends, underlying knowledge of truth, shock of knowing you're not real, loss of the personal, interpreting a dream, ego gets juice from being right, pull back from labeling, there's a certainty about real peace, fear of being alone, don't need the ego for doing, many dimensions, humans are the end product of consciousness, doomed to failure, techniques become the problem.
What you look for is where you're looking from, everything takes you away from what you are, stop investing in story, running desire is painful, drop and dissolve, indulging in story, stay in the hole, letting fear be, nothing to fix, ownership of body, desperate for enlightenment, holotropic breathwork, manifesting, there's no I or we, you don't create your reality, manic feeling, sense of individuality may stay, impersonal desire? holding onto hope, suffering makes you feel alive.
Guided meditation, feeling stuck, money, unpopular decisions, feeling mundane, breaking identification, never a you, personal ownership is an overlay on top of the natural state, Jac woman is a puppet, self-inquiry, space is a belief.
There is nothing solid about you, the illusions are real to the illusion, contrast, Desire, trust, let fear have you, establish from the observer, fear and suffering/energy follows thought, grief - acceptance and curiosity, the perpetrator and the victim, fully human, non-duality needs to be washed free of spirituality.
When there is no you it's perfectly fine, the frequency of manifestation and knowing, the relief of no 'I', self-love, looking for the observer, to see what I'm not, the mind distracts, there is nothing to get, identification, neediness, let life have you, honoring where you're at, I am the center of my world, seeing other is dependent on your beliefs/the energy of threat, contrast is a concept.
A split in the movie, lack of trust in the crack, sense of failure, forgiveness, me thought, unity consciousness, accepting what is, being in the body, spiritual practices, beyond nothing and everything, no mystery, the inner child, I am that.
Fear of an emotion is stronger than the emotion, get selfish with the spiritual path, I feel trapped in my skin, I fear that I am going insane, the game is playing me, you don't have to give to share, I don't deserve to get what I need, a constant reminder that this is all a dream, guided meditation: the mind and body are tools of consciousness.
Let strong feelings have you, judgment protects the lack of self-love, what are you protecting? serving two worlds, is it okay to slow down?
if you think you're enlightened you're not, consciousness is seeing itself, energy moves faster than the mind, triggered by emotion, I feel that I am here, trust, do you believe every thought?
Hope and the belief in continuous happiness, listening to the place that is not fear, manifesting by the power of the mind, memory creates distrust, fear that I won't have enough money, I'm trying to please everyone, everything is showing you the lie, go live with your family if you feel like you're awake, giving and receiving.
Be happy with I don't know, effortlessness, attachment to love, the fear of not understanding, the mind is tight and what I'm saying is nonsense, unconditional love, I fear not existing, slow down before making decisions, I feel a repulsion to the human form, rejecting acceptance is fine, all that is created is already finished.
Self-inquiry, let perception get bigger, why is this happening to me?, the 'i' claims responsibility, cause and effect, the appearance of free will, identification versus pure perception, overcoming fear, the energy behind manifesting ideas, avoidance, fear and developing intuition, responsibility is the ability to respond, what mind presents is not good enough
The energy of desire, breaking the thinking mind, believing the body, something sees that can't be described, desire brings identity, dealing with stressful emotions, how can i cope with fear?, the need to protect, it is the destiny of the body/mind to be here in this moment, sickness and taking care without identification, trusting yourself, training the mind to have breaks in perception
Free will and attention, waiting is a thought believed, working mind versus thinking mind, attachment to non-duality, establishing practical skills before awakening, the thought is before the emotion/decision making, desire to experience, pulling back from sexual addiction and self-love, you can't recognize what you are, mind experiencing mind and prior to oneness
hiding in the karmic story, finding guidance from within, what is it that continues after death?, energy moving in the body; where does it come from?, how to use the mind?, Grace, where does the dream begin and end?, is liberation still in the movie?, so what's the point of enlightenment? is it possible to completely shed untruth while in a human form?, why Ramana was happy to die, what determines if the dead person has to come back in another body? what if we enjoy the creation and want to come back? the only way out is to realize that who you are was never in the movie, how is enjoyment still possible after awakening? what causes Jac to offer satsang? what do you know to be real? working through attachments and desires, is it always about destiny? how to deal with physical pain, hiding from love
need to be right, investigate self-worth, give up experiencing, there is no autonomy at all, let go and let consequences take care of themselves, I Ching, self-forgiveness - embody it, I see what you really are, first was a sound, there is a capacity beyond consciousness
getting lost in tough times, facing the poles, energy blockage of the body, flowing without rules, single relationship, letting life live through, keeping a distance, a place of clarity, the realm of true art
Suffering, pure perceiving is there all the time, understanding will come, the body is resisting, letting go of the me, don't take anything personally ever, good and bad are the same, there's nothing but not even nothing, there's nothing wrong with the play, anything mind can present is a trick, allow personality to have its preferences, dropping desires, using fear as the primary motivator to take care of yourself, no such thing as mind, love is another thought, absolutely nowhere to land, cultivate devotion for what you are, feel the fear and do it anyway
Fear of death, Attachment to experience, Specialness, Meditation, Stop being obedient to the mind, Do I exist?, Drop the controller, One dream, Spiritual Bypass, Progression in one direction keeps the seeker alive, Let devotion be cultivated and blossom, There is randomness yet mind wants to join the dots, Decision making from silence?, Paralyzed by options, fire your mind! just do what comes next, The questions will stop, Space as the first concept, time stops when every moment is fresh, Nothing to learn
When ego is recognized don't indulge it, It's never about other people!, Love yourself deliciously, Don't be a slave to mind, First labeling then judging, All ability to see differences disappears, Spiritual techniques as a way of avoidance, There are no individuals, The world doesn't need an agenda of helping, Coming into the body, cultivating humility, The dreamer of the dream is in the dream, Let all understanding show itself to you, just watch for ego, Fear of intrusion, Beliefs give rise to everything you call the world
Looking for love, learn to spot identification, Conceptual knowing is not enough, The gap is not a state of mind, a natural movement toward what you're not, trauma unraveling, No thoughts are real including this one, The whole thing collapses and falls in on itself, Seeing but nothing is seen, Arrogance is ultimately a lack of confidence, With pure seeing there is no commentary, Random sequencing, Attention is the gasoline that makes thoughts appear as real, Getting out of your comfort zone
functioning of pure consciousness, Dropping the mind's desire to know, There's a place where mind can't go, This body is space; space doesn't exist, It's random and it's imagined, drop conceptual thought, Let non-mind knowing be center stage, An absence of nothing, Exploring the nature of freedom, Breaking patterns of mind, Who you think you are is just an idea, Nip desire be ordinary, Brutally self-honest, Every thought has within it the idea of the thinker
Fear of madness, Whatever the destiny of the body-mind bring it on!, It shouldn't be like this, building or destroying the ego, Pure perception replaces judgment, Write the cheque and give gratitude!, Making the most of this illusion, No boundaries, There never was a you!, Create a space don't support the hypnosis, Resistance makes the ego solid
Life-cycle of the ego, Being nothing is too much, Get your feet in the mud, The path of guru-disciple, What's this addiction to right and wrong?, Enjoyment happens, The only illusion is your idea of yourself, All of it same-same, Surrender: really just a mirror, thoughts are not real because the thinker is not real, Tears of joy, one word pointer, Getting nothing is that okay?, Does emotion equal identification?, Ownership is the lie, Vigilance is not difficult, When a choice has been made let it play out, Self-acceptance requires a decision, Let your self-image go to muck!, Marrying desire to the energy of survival
No advantage in anything, No ownership at all, every moment is fresh without memory, Seeing how mind formulates the lie, The nature of everything is just space, A movement towards equanimity, Experiencing requires separation, How does this contraction create a woman?, Consciousness can't wake up, Even grace is a concept, Micro and macro concepts, Nothing can exist without a concept being believed, Cut the anchor!, The personal reference point is the problem, Dissolve into the flow, What is space?, Naked in the unknown, seeing same-same
Something gets out of the way and life takes care of it, story of a breakup, Sending God a letter of resignation, Everywhere just magnificence!, What is power?, give up, nothing to figure out, Love and accept the personality just don't own it, It's a death not something better, Satsang: having fun while dissolving what you're not, What you are never left it, Who? No answer. Stay there!, A french kiss is just an idea
Mind is a liar that's its job, Relaxed, fluid like water, Doing without attachment, Decision making, Memory, just a thought in the present moment, Powerful sticky thoughts, Feeling overwhelmed, Using Ramana?, Sustaining false identity is hard work, What I am is at home and it has nothing to do with mind, Dropping self-judgment
Know you are light and take the light away, Seeing through spiritual desire, Embodiment and dissipating, The glee of noticing there was nothing, Looking for progress on the spiritual path, When to make effort, What is the point?, Seems like this is a bad deal, How does it all work?, Do the best you can, There's a movement towards harmony
Attachment to a grandchild, Melt to go beyond the 'I AM', The work-reward loop, No solid group, The reference point of longing, The habit of creating a life, Not wanting to hear the truth, Seeing through the 'I', Can awakening happen easily? Stop buying the story of waking up, The nature of intention
Not deserving and not worthy, Train mind to watch the story, Not wanting to be a dufus, When judgment reinforces separation, Let your thinking become unlimited, Find the authentic humble human, The `I don't know' phase, Letting go of the reference point, Cultivate gratitude to keep grace moving
Holding on to the identity of provider, Love without attachment, Placating others is manipulation, How we are being lived, Seeing through the acceptance of conditioning, Non-resistance to resistance, Find arrogance, What is it like for the Jac character?, Looking to fill the space, Tuning into the frequency of fear
What if nothing phenomenally happened in this retreat?, Mind creates a story of awakening, Grasping energy and the gap, Pure perception, Finding the one who 's trying to get it right, Fear of being worthy, Why did fear come back?, Get to know the nature of desire, Mind wanting a reward for silence, Mind wanting a meaning, Resistance turns off enjoyment, Techniques can be useful, Not wanting to let go into humility
Meditation - death of the thinking mind, Presence is a trick of mind, Dropping the desire to be a writer, What can be surrendered, Transmission is phenomenal, Psychic abilities, let there be space for seeing decisions are automatic, Not my will but Thine, Is there a mental practice?, Reincarnation and desire, Take it slowly and allow thoughts, Not knowing as a benign place for mind to hang out, What is love?, Love takes care of itself, Play with I don't know
Spiritual horse trading, should the world be fair? judgment and comparison, Peace, rest, and happiness? no such thing as an, Drop all desire; now is enough, a postrational psychic, do you really want out of the movie? silence is so potent! personality doesn't need an, what you are cannot be seen, every state of mind is a fantasy, keep going until there is no mystery anywhere in consciousness, none of it matters; what experiences does destiny still require? enlightenment is not an experience, negotiation with an addictive thought pattern doesn't work, let all things come and go
Mind can only see what it is not, you're not here at all, assumptions that are not questioned, depends on your perspective, knowing that you're not the character, mistaken identity, there's no here, zero tolerance for, is spirituality serious? let everything get light!, why keep coming back to satsang? beliefs have to go, let life have its way with you, the world doesn't need fixing, kundalini energy, follow your feet, keep it simple, Let a role happen and know that you're not it.
Mind's one true statement, lying to protect self-image, judgment is just what the ego does, fluid like water, mind seeks advantage, only the ego can connect, getting distance from the controller, all that happens is that the ego dies, don't be a slave of the thinking mind, self-love must be established first, internet dating and relationships, what is the point of anything? are you a character in the movie?, Trading identities, Living with existential fear
What you are can't be present or absent, the search must be exhausted, samadhi, life taking care of itself, gaps between thoughts, experiences are just another story, let rest come, satsang is a fantasy too, the greatest show on earth never was, seeing without something being seen, working with pain, the identified state is pain and suffering, managing day to day, everything and its opposite, that which I cannot name, drop the labeling, what I am is not in the movie, outside of consciousness, personal, consciousness doesn't need a human mind to be aware of itself, decision making
Does self-realization happen in consciousness? no crock of gold! self-realization versus liberation, action disconnected from concepts, what if nothing were to happen ever again? mind needs goals, the believing mechanism collapses, free will, feeling can't come before thought, drop the dropper, self doesn't watch this movie, what you are is not in the illusion, pre-awakening, place for virtues, love is still a concept, a story about death, no, no death, feels real until it's seen that it's not, functioning without ownership, the character is just an idea In between the thoughts
be still, physical pain, separation, prior to consciousness, non- conceptual knowing, meditation/non-meditation, no-self, contraction in base chakra, dissolution of ego, bucket list, belief, the controller, natural order, jac's experiences, fear of annihilation, Awareness, non-attachment, presence, randomness, beingness, pure consciousness, self-image, tired of everything, natural state, past lives, time, window at death, concepts create experiences, a song
nothing going on, Pure perception, Awareness, linear time, real life and awakening, understanding desire, beyond the senses, believing, judgment, sense of incompleteness, naming things, thinking mind and working mind, wanting a soul mate, character on movie screen, depression and medication, manifestation, therapy, all stories, fear of loss, familiarity, hopelessness
Even pain is to be enjoyed, out-of-body experience, labeling has to stop, watch conceptual thought, Jac's experiencing, relationships, prior to observer, existential fear is the most potent, wallowing in self-pity, what Jac's family thinks, go into depression, equanimity seems like insanity, everything is perfect underneath concepts, working too much, kinesiology, there's no free will, common sense toward the body, suspecting denial, fairness
Nothing to do, wisdom and hierarchy, pain of isolation, relationship obsession, no reference point, identification with the body, fear of rejection in relationship, healing your life, fun and breaking the rules, mirror, fear of non-existence, practical things, you cannot be what you are, about jac's shift, karma, me holding me back, fear of power being destructive, very reactive, gratitude, traumatic dreams
Desire for a relationship, deepening practice, discernment around fear, fun, sitting with problems without direction, on the fence, self-image, dysfunctional relationship, compassion for self, healing ego, knowing, everything and its opposite, Enjoyment happens
No individual, no reference point, Contraction, Attention, the habit of fear, pain and suffering, power plays, hesitancy around wanting to live, seeking stopped, self-doubt, a personal loving god, 12-step program, perfection, non-duality and experiencing, powerless, Courage, want to know who I am
Non-duality and therapy, self-image, 'non-seeking' seeker, the buzz of something new, abuse and sadness, called to do certain jobs, spiritual bank account, huge fear of letting go, resistance and control, Ownership, role of the body in awakening, desire to be well, experiencing is your teacher, ability to observe timelines, manifesting destiny
The play of consciousness, busy mind, effort, consciousness defined, honesty, jac's style of satsang, Desire, disorganized, fear of losing the “I”, great heart, attachment, depression, business outcome, conditioning, an extreme path, work, 'intellectual' awakening, compassion, free will, knowing truth, lucid dreaming, relative reality
Self-honesty, two levels of techniques, acceptance becoming self-destructive, mind thinking it's on to the game of mind, what happens when desire falls away, let the doer waste time, dropping beliefs, saying ‘not this’ to love, the desire to get back to the crack, excess energy hijacking love, seeing a pattern, investigate the familiar
Let the image fail, rejecting the ‘I’ as an ego defense, attachment to specialness, trust, surrender and identification, find ways to listen to the pull 24/7, find out what you are not, no solid reference point, pure perceiving, breaking up with separation
Passive versus active allowing, nature of time and space, the play of power, difficulty in body functioning, Prior, life is a dream, the revenge cycle, can consciousness know itself? self-forgiveness, when desire falls away, decision making follows action
How to know self-love is established, thinking mind versus working mind, the right and wrong mechanism, absolute knowing, slowing down, is there a practice? self-honesty leading to self-enfoldment, who does the inquiry? existence is a myth, let the pull be enough, expansion of unity consciousness
Ping-ponging between macro and micro, awakening versus spiritual experiencer, seeing through the character, desire for knowing, how to observe and not attach to judgment, cultivating self honesty, efforting with a belief in failure, waste time to find the free flow, cultivate self-honesty, let go of compromise, be true to yourself, no expectations in relationships, become invisible
Meditation – desire and distraction, a value system of needing silence is a problem, dependency on people, be alright with no purpose, let go of the need to understand, being honest with yourself, martial arts, karma and the desire for revenge, self-destruction, the role of intellect, desire as a concept
Responsibility, the living is where the fear is, is consciousness dependent on humanity?, following the loop of belief, let there be vigilance, every step is away from what you are, feeling my own pain, it's all fantastic (from inside the dream), ultimately it's just entertainment, seriousness and finding lightness, creating games within games, I'm okay and imagining there's a life being lived, seeing blue and the color of truth, the law of attraction, move away from the loop of suffering, let thinking arise (or not), desire and the desire to let go of desire, the release when thoughts lose their power, nothing is solid, observing and mind training mind/ fears and self-judgement, train children for example, awakening vs. liberation
Just perception happening, objectless consciousness, what is this me and why am i still believing it?, belief in me/where does the i stop and start?, the fraudulent movement of "i" (I'm not going to be done in again), guilt and the role of mother, seeing behind awareness or THE WORLD IS ABOUT BULLSHIT!!!
Place of rest beneath the crisis, refinement of conditioning, rejection or acceptance is fine, avoiding exposure, not having to love your mother, qualities of 'behind and below', the desire to move forward, prior to all of it, inner child, holding onto noble virtues, protecting oneself from abuse of power, craving to be noticed, mind needs to know its limits
Lack of self-love, The heart needs to fill itself, Consciousness is independently aware of itself, There is a knowing of itself that is not conceptual, Some projects aren't meant to manifest, Your own is basis alone to follow things up.
Is consciousness aware of itself? Fear of death, Never give up on a chance of surrendering, Giving up security, Some experiences have to have you, Is pain being experienced or is there a sufferer?, The doing is doing through you, The purpose of guilt is to block
Irresponsibility and letting go of the ego, jumping off the cliff and letting go of service, there seems to be choice...?, survival anxiety, mantra is health food for the mind and questions of identity, jumping from one idea to another of how it should be!, I am not a separate being, consciousness imagines difference, grounds for grace, enlightenment is rubbish, to break the vow, I can get it wrong, it's only the personal I that takes it seriously
The sense of "I" is making the effort, non-ordinary (altered) states may loosen the "I", I am here as awareness, fear draws me into the "I", the desire to know the truth is the last desire, in a destructive place, serving the world, resistance: I want it my way, there is no reference point and judgment keeps duality going, the way of the seeker
Satsang happens beneath the words, Mind will never know, but still it will be known, Does the idea of you create a you?, What is the purpose of life?, the I is an addiction, Fear of death, Identification with the body makes stories seem real, Who wants to be enlightened?, Beautiful, Every moment is the same
The need to be needed, financial aid and emotional maturity, powerlessness, the hypnosis (that the world is real), I want to be taken care of
To fight the play of universe you will lose, You are all of it, Don't get caught in your story of your vision, I don't trust my memory anymore, Be OK with having no control - be authentic, Still waiting for the shift, Let mind be disappointed, Developing discernment, When the body becomes sensitive, What's I AM?
universe not supporting external satsang, life force not questioning, let energies be, trees ground, let intuition direct with some common sense, let others think what they want, fear underneath heaviness, emotions we’re scared of feeling, your reputation is in your head, lost flow/instinct, brutal honesty about where you are, follow first step before second, crying can be melting
Everything is always changing, there is absolutely nothing, patterns running, being serious, lightness, try to find what you think you are, thoughts don’t create you, connectedness is still duality, Fear, safety is always there, mental chatter, behind ideas, addiction to searching
You can't lose your way, No reversing on spiritual path, Every path is different, What's your fear trying to avoid?, There is no control, freedom in losing your reputation, no need to fear anything, check out the Truth for yourself, you can't get lost on the path, let manifestation play, ego story brings pain, Life doesn't need us at all.
separation, attention outside, spaces of no I, Desire, the show is over, acceptance of dying, healing pointless to nowhere, filter system labeling, fears, the I the dramatist, love as functioning free flow, no worry, idea of choice, no free will, idea of being good, trusting what happens, essence of silence, character being played, seeing you are not real is enlightenment
sense of vulnerability, making peace with family, arthritis and pain, stopping the mind, physical body takes attention, self-enquiry, prior to mind, caught in emotions, being right, being a doormat, creating crisis, don't obey thoughts, teaching kids, primary concept, Memory, deep relationship, playing a role, healing the I.
Pay no mind to mind, mind is a habit, creation is a concept, drop beyond observing, mind is your only tool, Awakening has its own pace, what are you protecting, thoughts aren't the problem- believing them is, belief happens based on conditioning, It's an inside gig, you don't even have a life, Enlightenment gets rid of ownership
Stillness can only be noticed after it's gone, Awareness is mind, Without thoughts do you exist?, Indifferent to desire, Time is an idea; go beyond, All suffering comes from thought, What's left is Nothing; mind can't go there, A technique to get to the door of Nothingness, Eventually the tool must burn.
force challenges to grow?, healing keeps the movie going, body still has needs post enlightenment, functioning without ownership, understanding the only pure love, why stories replay, wiring happiness through outside equals suffering, you can’t turn off part of the movie, defend nothing, Decision making, attention on stillness 24/7, fear of dismissing tragedy, give body to nature
Unraveling of desires, Watching the roles, Weak memory, A slave to your beliefs, Shift to the observer, no, Freedom in the ocean, Belief in separation, No desire - no suffering, linear time, Want what you have, Santa isn't real, Step outside of the dream, karma, Declining interest
Placing awareness on reality, Usefulness of affirmations, Stop fixing the, Where the progressive path joins the direct path, Fulfilling desires, Intelligence beyond awareness, Attached to the story, Who you are is not observing, Self-inquiry versus Meditation, Space prior to names, No do-er anymore, Give up everything, No thoughts - No, Allow the roles without investment, Desire is the ego's food
Caught in thoughts, start by observing, sink beneath the waves, mind is not the problem identification is, don't analyze, observe and don't judge, there's nothing wrong with the world, addiction is attachment, the outside doesn't have to be still to access the inside, you as an individual don't exist, peace is the absence of desire, enjoy the ride
Quiet state of mind of I am, Source has no space for a separate I like in deep sleep, blankness, knowing beyond nothing, running no thought of ownership, No labeling, attachment to an opinion brings suffering, go and live in the world when the personal pool is hot but keep watching to not get lost, the unreal I is smoke.
How can God know Himself?, A concept has no existence, Mind imagines a, A non-thinking force that moves, Who am I, Am I ready?, Can an, How about manifesting your destiny?, What is wrong with death?
Learning surrender without control, training the mind, dealing with anger, place mind at it's source, drop to the bottom of the sea, self-realization is not a lifestyle, the purpose of meditation, living with physical problems, recognizing self-realization, common sense in the movie, anything that can be seen or named is not real, the body is a creation of thought
rest and let what you are not burn, find out what's keeping the I alive, drop beliefs you have about spirituality, satsang is not about having a better life, happiness is the absence of desire not the desire being satisfied, life is fine, let it get easy, politics, worldly affairs, fears, stop hurting yourself, service, place attention underneath the activity of mind
Desirelessness, Satsang as an experiential Reality, acknowledging and dismantling beliefs, tension as a clue to switch to Observer mode and then stepping back further to rest in Source, loving yourself exquisitely and laughing at desires, thoughts hurt the body by producing negative feelings, being OK with however life is unfolding while taking responsible for one's happiness
Repairing the ego, Before the story of me, There is no oneness, Spiritual grace, What is meant by, How anger can be useful, At the source of the next thought, This technique brings mind to a trapdoor, What about dreams?, Be okay with nothing happening, Understanding selfless service
Mind only does concepts, Beyond mind is the only real thing, nothing is happening, Homeopathy, Fear of dying, Celebrate having no control, Enjoy the free fall, Let moods come and go, Observe fear, Don't get into self criticism, Turning demons into angels, Story will pass, Duality brings anxiety, The desire to exist, Take risks, Joy rises from what you are.
Memories are just thoughts, thoughts aren’t real, Why was spiritual knowledge hidden? There’s no reason for anything, How it ‘IS’ reveals itself, It’s not possible to experience, Can you place attention prior to thought? Remove all agendas from a scenario, The ‘I’ story is dependent on ownership, At a certain point, faith plays a role.
Relationship without expectations, Sex and the desire for 'no mind', How can relationship support awakening?, What about relationship as a place to heal?, Burn up the pathways to the, Asking, Using mind to annihilate mind, Where fear doesn't matter, Truth is prior to concepts, Is solitude helpful?, Freedom is having no desires.
There is no, personal, Ownership gives birth to pain. There isn't even, Mind isn't going to, Wanting to control is ownership, Dealing with insomnia, Seeing the nature of desire.
What about mantras?, Progressive path versus direct path, Resting attention before the first thought of, There is no control, Only Love, God, or Nothing, Why do I have nightmares?, Direct knowing, outside of mind, Why do spiritual practice?, Having no preferences, Freely loving what life has to offer, Reincarnation, Why am I back?, Non-seeking seekers, Why not suicide?
Any path is full of concepts, Mind searches to entertain itself, There's nothing in it for you, Go to that which is before time
Can satsang help solve a problem with overeating?, Learning how to play, Spirituality as a hobby, Can I prepare for my own death?, Is it time for my retirement?, Belief systems are just imaginings for the mind to chew on, Five thousand year old Indian palm leaves, Another way for mind to play
fears are connected to nothing, things work themselves out, right now is enough, practice contentment, be gentle with yourself, there is no free will, intuition is prior to doubting mind, be like little children, play, have fun, life isn’t the obstacle to Truth, thoughts are the obstacle
Mantras, one pointedness, see the desire for it to be different, don’t be bothered by thoughts - nobody is watching them, play the role of mom, surrender and hand over the controller
No preference, 'I-thought', getting there, Shakti inherent in Shiva, creation within what You are, distance outside as separation, thinking that you are moving or experiencing, attention on the Source of all concepts, Alpha/beta waves as echo of what You are, nothing wrong with world or life when nothing seen as special, Shiva-Shakti (Power of God) does not need anyone to do anything
Drop belief in the I story, Gently lay the mind to rest, Managing difficult relationships, The desire to control, What is important?, There are no individuals, Playing social roles as a form of service, Even satsang is play, How does liberation happen?, Should I retire from my job?, Jac's awakening story, Existence itself is an idea, What about creativity?, Wanting to be special, It never was about
the kali yuga age, hindu practices in modern spirituality, energetic power of mantra, no ownership of anger or suffering, There are no individuals, teacher of world religions goes beyond oneness, a role in the world can still be played, dark night of the soul; love is stronger than tortured thoughts, go to where seeing of the observer arises from, the me is implausible
family ties, no ownership between thoughts, desire is the problem, establish the self-love circuit within you, the primary concept before duality is love, seekers who are not seeking, belief in how things have to happen maintains the 'I', fantasy distractions in the head, place attention at rest behind thoughts, dropping 'self-identity' for another identity is not dropping identification, guilt and rewards is conditioning
Mind imagines free will, What about, Do you want experiences?, There is no personal, Let emptiness do its thing, Without any purpose, Ownership appears with, Struggling with poor health, Desire requires an, Drop attention into stillness, What you are was never alive, What you think you are dies
The path of self-enquiry vs. the path of experience, all experiences are equally insignificant, Observer mode, heal the ego, then let it break down, drop underneath the story, compassion, wanting life to be different, pain in the body, women waking up and having babies, prayer, no attachment to opinions, being busy, mind keeps the movie going, dropping into the breath
anxiety, attachment, Motivation, I thought, effort, suffering, separation, Suicide, Fear, Observer, Progressive path, Surrender, Reincarnation, karma, Psychotherapy, Third eye, ghosts, Ramana Maharshi
forgiveness, discernment, nonduality, beyond 'I Am', appearance continues in nondual state as appearance, purpose of the world, universe as energy, Creation as play, 'round-about' of life, Love as the core of it all, dropping 'sin, guilt, fear', compassion, ascended masters, no condition necessary to be in nondual state, memory/desires running cause pain, dropping into no-mind state and staying there
Jac’s book Born to Be Free, qualifications, expertise and identification, cultural influences and desires, relating vs thinking about relating, overwhelm, slavery to thoughts, space between thoughts, what is happiness?, not following what the head is about you can rest in pure peace and life will still function, use your mind instead of the mind using you, J Krishna Murti, jac’s story, beyond concepts, Ramana Maharishi, complexity and simplicity
Exquisite movement of life happening, jac’s book, intense periods on the path, spontaneous arising, different pointers work for different people, life cannot be touched, beyond the phenomenal world, when mind says it isn’t “getting it”, let all experiences be equally uninteresting, using ‘I don’t mind’, no control and being gentle with self, not knowing, pull attention back to stillness, a preference for talking over silence, survival fears, Surrender, guilt worry, this is a solo path
from naturalness comes the quality of gentleness, there's nothing there in the unknown--how can it be scary? enlightenment or not enlightenment, who cares!? drop the desire, unplugging, 'i don't mind', rest underneath thought, love is all there is, 'one is one too many', see how desire works, being open to life in the world and this work, you can't fall off the planet, misunderstanding surrender as passivity, siddhis, even self-realization is within the play
Freeing attention from objects, time as a concept, thought creates suffering, spiritual practice depends on level of maturity, Truth has no intention, Surrender, Born to be free, exquisite nature of appearance when mind goes still, progressive path precedes the direct path, Reality not in the body, ghosts, attachments, psychics, beliefs, unconscious programs, stop running preferences/likes/dislikes, dropping underneath to the stillness, fear of the Unknown
Do decisions make action happen?, No labeling, no judging, no believing, no mind, Existence itself is just a concept., Does being spiritual make us special?, Mind can't do non-dual., Ownership is the problem, Find out if you exist, There is only Love., What about all the negativestuff?, In Nothingness there is only silence.
Is liberation really what you want?, Joy arises when attention rests in Stillness, Why Satsang?, How about walking on water? Sex and six lost days, Mind broken in a cold shower, Do you fear death? Preferences are problem, Don't believe anything you think, What is prayer? Enjoy all of this silly movie!, Mind equals ego
gratitude for satsang, Wanting to get out is only for when you're in: it's fine to be in once you're out! are concepts useful?, believing a thought of being stuck and trapped, let experiences come and go without any judgement, letting go of the idea you have to contain and control everything, not being bothered about how it feels-figuring it out-getting it-understanding it, the purpose of satsang?, energetic work at satsang, there is no one path, how to discern between the natural urge and the mind-identified controller, observer as a stepping stone to beyond the I, going with what makes sense now
The Nature of Mind is to doubt, No Thought is useful, Mind exists if believed, The ego is in time, To care there must be two, There’s a spontaneity that happens naturally through the body, Mind superimposing a story, Enjoy whatever happens, It is clear that you’re not choosing at all
The drive of desire, Mind enjoys experience, Everything must go, Art brings you to the beyond, Music for pleasure, Mind identification, Exhaustion comes when operating from mind, Observe yourself, You are not in the story when observing, Mind can't believe and observe a thought at the same time, Mind does not want to own its burnout.
silence, interest in stories, Memory, functioning of the brain without story, habits of mind replaying the I, no control, no personal I, making decisions, natural state, vibration sounds of classical music, busy multitasking mind, mantra, I is making experiences, not believing mind, exhaustion of a teacher, no desire running, service is a spiritual discipline to help, no answer, pure consciousness
What is satsang?, Mind isn't interested in peace, Thought creates the thinker, Retain attention at the still point, Beyond thought - nothing is real, Are there individual, Body gets battered, Do relationships make any sense?, Silence is what is, It's not about concepts, Stop believing that, There is only God.
Beyond fear of annihilation, observe without commentary, observing the observer, depression is a call to deep rest, There are no individuals, nothing and the absence of nothing, Observe and Grace will do the rest, Born to be free - how the book came to be, A mantra is a non-stick thought
Jac's story, functioning with no 'I', mother as a role -not who you are, witnessing, attention always with wholeness, is God a concept?, nothing is happening, experiments on decision making, work on yourself first, there's only love, realignments, trauma, pain, mental health, looking for control, the desire to heal, purpose, depression, ayahuasca, making 'nothing' into a concept, why change perfection?
investment in self image will go, stop investing in thoughts and the show is over, life can be busy, seeing that something is dissolving then you are playing the movie, mind watching mind is not silence, resting underneath thoughts, no preferences, everything unfolds the way it does, developing relationship with what is beyond, non physical realm, talking to grace, love
What is life all about? What is time? All commentary stops, You are not your body; you are not your mind, What about, Before thoughts arise, Everything is energy, Are spiritual experiences necessary?, Is healing work helpful? Seeing the stories, What is love?, Enjoying happens!, Accessing gentleness and stillness.
Not about a blissful loving experience or feeling immortal or exquisite, the pull to non-duality, see mind as an instrument, The “I am” as a springboard, are thoughts useful?, Wei Wu Wei, pure existence prior to concepts, jac’s retreat from the world, Surrender, identification with I am my body, shift from drama to finding willingness, Atman and Java experience, cause and effect, let the search be over, decisions and the flow of life, using methodology to keep the mind going, want to believe it is.